remember, i love you too.



i dont know.
dont make me choose.


whatever that comes along.
really.


sometimes, i think you might be the other door that opens for me when one closes.
i like it when you make me laugh.
- taken of rachel's lj.

exactly baby

yesterday,
rachel came over and we got reaady
cabbed down to MOS and got priority Q :)

people came.
party started.
we drank.
and drank.
a standard & graveyard each.
DIED.

plus i was already running a fever. woah damn cb.
then krystal sent me to DXO.
i went to meet joseph & co.

damndamnfunny la DXO. haha
madmad funny.

cabbed back with
sk, wayne & joseph

justin and all are here.


imissyoubaby :)

my throat's been hurting like a burningmotherfucker
phlegmy and heatyyy.
i think ive drank a mountain WORTH of water

im back to being addicted to luxor
& i cant wait to see you :)

forever's gonna start tonight
RIGHT CLINCHEL?
the night of all nights LOL.

put aside $ for my piercing already
double happiness

think the happiness's coming back today.

♥dope

are you as happy as i am?


too bad, i won.

do you still remember

one year ago?
& us?

i never felt so freaking violated of my freaking womanly rights before
bunch of aliens from fucking outer space.
they deserve to be burnt
I SWEAR
put them all in cage and throw them out of the planet.

mos-ing with rachel love & dont know who else
tomorrow. i am excited
tomorrow is going to be THE NIGHT.

farah: go and die la u
him: don wan
him:i need more rest first
him: hah

how to make me NOT happy you tell me? HAHA

only rachel knows everything. HAHAHAH so
dont bother asking me who i like, who this is, who that is.
my throat pain.

imissyou.

reunion dinner
quite fun :)
and wayne was being damn irritating.
i wanted to kill his waychel ass i swear.

cousin sent us back
and yeah, got flu now.

i cant wait for monday
and many more days with you babe :)

mos-ing on monday with rachellove and i dontknowwhoelse

peace peace peace.
im hearting you

new pictures uploaded.
♥ & you'll be

the way the time cold I wanna be keepin' you warm
I got the right temperature to shelter you from the storm
Oh lord, gal I got the right tactics to turn you on
-temperature

the happiness is somewhere nearby and i miss him manymany :)

today is mad trigger happy day!
took a bus down to ps to meet Z.
got tix and walked around PS.

then took a bus down to n.l.b
got some shits done then went to bugis
bought cute little DOG chocolates to usher in the new dog year.
LOLS.

then took a freaking long journey down to whitesands
12 was a fucking killer.
met joseph and had macs.
then rachel came.

we walked to bevan's house
played with condom and all those nonsense.
then to 24hr to meet pec..i mean wayne
then we went to sk's house
met brandon, hanyang and they played soccer until police came
then walked to dono where lanjiao place

continued soccer-ring
rachel and i were playing with the playground
damndamn fun & talking about stuffs

midnight came and we yu-sheng-ed
joshua came and that wayne damn fucker
anyhow chinchai the thing woah, bad luck forever la he. HAHA!

walked to spc then to 24hr
where we laughed and talked cock until damn jialat
cabbed back with joshua and the cab driver damn scary.

peace. peace. peace. peace. peace.

the happiness wont be in sg for the long festive holiday.
sad. very very sad.

wont be in sg but still want to act clean house all.
too cute.

living life. loving it.
make me the happiest baby

some people
should stop thinking that
they're all so great
when in actual fact, people are just bowing down and kissing their toes
FOR SEX.

some people really annoy me.
oh im so purrddy. come suck me.

go and freaking die

yu sheng-ing
i cant wait!
triggerhappy day tomorrow :)

have to head on down to library tomorrow for research works
then town for tix then maybe chinatown
then 24hr!

love!

deep in the dark, you'll surrender your heart


you make me happy :)

today's a fun day :)

triggerhappy because rachel makes me SMILE
♥

comDi-ed. look at camera and wave! i ♥ my comdi group!
lunched at mensa with rachie♥, wayne, joshua & joseph. laugh until damn jialat. damn damn funny la. want to die siah! rachel's damn fullofshit but i loikke. LOLS
library with rachel. project room. chocolate singing. bluetoothing
level5 design with rachel, sean & syazwan. missed my good ol`buddysean! glad he's finally back!
design canteen with rachel, joseph & wayne.

chinatowning later and i cant wait for many things.
dont ask.

ii want my freaking MOS invites for monday!
they freaking didnt send me the sms shit eventhough i registered already!!!! I WILL MAKE NOISE UNTIL THEY GIVE ME PRIORITY QUEUE!
and if i dont, i hope darius can sign us in or whatever bullshit
dont care, anything BUT to queue up for MOS.

oh yes i love my darling GIRL

forever's gonna start tonight

went for french which was like only half an hour
then went to angkeong with rei
met daniel & rei's friend there.
damn funny la

then went back to school slack
took pics at staircase
marked attendance for C&E
then saw bevan and all at ATM
while i was doing my karate moves. LOL!

took 518 to town with rachel and rei
took pics at darius shop again

walked around shopped.
bought myself a revoltage top!
LOVELOVE ah!

walked around, met
joseph, sk, bevan, brandon & hanyang for awhile
ate sushi with rachel

then went to meet min & elie
bus-ed to liquid
collect card then cabbed back.

damn damn tired.

imissyoulahidiotpig

And it's so amazing
On how you can't escape it
the moment takes you it never lets you go

its the noticing of little details
that makes me smile

gotta love my nasty girl :)

might be heading down to pasir ris
maybe.. maybe nott.
so far larhs!!
i feel damn hardworking.
meowrs!


meet: Lovely.

new pictures uploaded bitch!

jo-ann: today i saved someone!
jo-ann: my fren called me a hero!
jo-ann: AHAHA

farah: HAHAHA wad u do! hahaha

jo-ann: my senior's contacts got trapped inside the eye
jo-ann: then she cannot take out
jo-ann: i managed to take it out
jo-ann: my fren called me a heron mann!!
jo-ann: hero

farah: wad the hell
farah: haha
farah: like that also hero ah?
farah: oh jus now i opened for my fren her waterbottle I CHAMPION!


====

farah: and eat maggi goreng
farah: ALONE

scully: with the man

farah: BOSS!

scully: hHAHHAHHAHAHAHAA
scully: YUCKS
scully: why always call indian man boss and malay man bro?
scully: HAHHHAHHAHAHHA

farah:HAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAA

scully: SO SICK

farah: oh ya ah!

scully: why indian man got higher rank?!

farah: HAHAHAHHAHAAHAHHA

scully: malay man lousy sia!
scully:HAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAH
scully: damn ofp
scully: hahahha
scully: oh did u know that ofp is actually OOP but i dont like la so i change to ofp. AND EVERYBODY FOLLOW ME!!
scully: HA HA so dumb!!!

farah: HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAA
farah: URE ADAMN NONSESNE
farah: OMGG

scully: but did u realise that?

farah: NO!
farah: HAHAHHAH
scully: when i told elie that day she said after awhile then she realise
scully: HAHA everybody just anyhow follow ah!!

farah: wad a trickster la
farah: SICKENING

he think he damn funny
sometimes i dont know,
to kill or to just hug and die.

thanks baby,
you make me happy.

so i went to school for nothing!
HAHA.

met elie, scully for awhile
then wenta meet wayne, joshua & brandon at canteen
then we all decided to skip class so we wenta meet joseph and rachel
at pasir ris poly clinic
waited like a motherfuckinglanjiao dog for just one damn MC.
wahaha.

then went to 24hr coffeeshop and joshua came to meet us again
then we took 518 down to town.
freaking hilarious bus ride la.
neoprint pics, ambi-pur cos the bus stank like fuck.
dropped off at fep then we walked around town.

walked and walked and walked
and window shopped and window shopped etc.
then joseph left for the hosp to see his new niece?
then me, rach, brandon & wayne took 65 back.
FUCKINGSMELLY bus-ride.
hahahhahaa.

pictures will be uploaded soon!
and i am fucking bruised!


and while withdrawing money just now
rachel and i were talking about
how when a friend gets into a relationship, you lose them.
how very true

read: i missyou

and yest at MOS,
i spotted afew cute guys.
reallly la, min and i (oddly or not) have the same taste in guys
maybe.. maybe not

MOS has cute guys.
and i was trying to spot _ anywhere
but i didnt see him.
figured he would be there since his whole clique was there.
MOOOO!
but sadly, their smoove's nothing compared to koflow's liquid. BLEAH.
nevermind, the hotguys in MOS shall make up for the slowlydepleting male ratio in liquid.

WAHAHHAHAH!
soon soon.

you were my ♥
why do i keep running back to you

a fucking MUST GO
JAN 30, MON ( Chinese New Year Day 2 )
SMOOVE IN MAIN ARENA: SHO'DOWN
KOFLOW (Liquid Room) vs TANG (Ministry of Sound)
Watch 2 deckmasters collaborate & battle to shake the room with funky
Hip-Hop & sexy R&B


editted at
1128PM

mad tv is the shit man!

haha! fucking funny pieces of shit videos. HAHAHHAHAH

babe's house for awhile.
DAMNDAMNTIREDDLA.

need to change ipood
and shop for more clothes.
I GOT NO CLOTHES LA KNNNNNNCCBBB!!!
cny this coming weeek.
money shall go to revoltage (i shall invest in shirts LOL!) & piercinggs!


stencil-ed tees!

If I should stay
I would only be in your way
So I'll go but I know
I'll think of you every step of the way

And I will always love you
Will always love you

You, my darling you

Bittersweet Memories
That is all I'm taking with me
So goodbye please don't cry
We both know I'm not what you
You need

And I will always love you
I will always love you

I hope life treats you kind
And I hope you have all you dreamed of
And I wish to you joy and happiness
But above all this, I wish to you love

And I will always love you
Will always love you
I will always love
Will always love you
Will always love you

I will always love you
Oh, I'll always, I'll always love you.

it's either
- accompany
- his house
- town
- my house
OR
- do work

i think ill stick to the last.

everything's being a bitch. too much work.
weekends are ALWAYS unproductive because thats when,
i club, i drink, i meet the love(s), i do everything but school work
it would be nice if you could just grant me a hug
i need a mouse for my powerbook.
im damn bad with my "fingermousething" (idontknowwhatitscalled la ok)
and i need to vector manymany shits
and sketch manymany nonsense.

sometimes i still ask myself
why i still bother missing you, thinking of you
when i clearly have better things to do.

darren picked me up in a cab with his mum and we went down to tanah merah
safra resort for his family chalet etc.
stayed there for while and the 3 of us left,
dropped his mum off at his house then we both carried on the journey
to MOS.
the taxi driver very cute, cos i was complaining i got stomachache
then he gave me medicated oil. HAHA so cute!

initially the Q was fucking long like majorly fuckingmotherdickly long
but because i was being the dopest person that i usually am
darren and i didnt have to Q. LOLS!
and stupid d only called me after i got in to tell me,
he's coming down and maybe maybe not sign us in.
*killss the idiot!* sorry baby.. too tired LOL!

smoove was fuckingfuckingfucking crowded
DAMNDAMNDAMN angry!!!!!
i dont like crowdds and ugly people. WAHAHA. okay so evil
but woah damn funny, i was laughing like a knnccb when i spotted this
knnccblanjiaofaced dog from afar. AHHAHA.
dp, paul, kane, john & co. were there too.
then soon, darius & the usuals came down.
fucking packed.
min came quite latee and like yeah.

didnt get to meet babe today cos he was at some godknowswherearea and i was too tired to find
went to macs with rei and we cabbed back.

it is me or do all the guys i like/date/whatever have the initials
D.L ?

rei and i were like saying which clubs we have priorities in or have connections etc. quite interesting
liquid- me & rei
momo- me
mos- me & rei
chinablack- me
zouk- rei

NOW, all i need is membership into MOS and/or ZOUK. gueslist & priority Qs not good enough. HAHAH!
so idiot & no life & cheapoo.

friday:
school-ed which was so freaking tiring
rach came over, showered.
looked at UGLYSICKENING people's friendsters and laughed and laughed and laughed
bus-ed down to darren's place
birthday dinner with a whole lot of other people.
me, min, rach, darren (DUH), gab, ian, alrick, jackson, justin, rei, matthiaz, johhny?, eugene and many many more
drinking games
drinking.
DRINKING.
MORE DRINKING.
strip poker? & "i never" sex stories
the card/drink game.
i think about 3-4bottles were gone last night alone. wahaha.
people puking all over the place
darren's house/room was turned into a major "massorgy" place or something la
everyone were in boxers and with/without shirts. really damn scandalous. LOLS!
slept over and thats about it.
quite fun.
damndamndamnfucking tired.

pictures will be uploaded soon!

sorry i dont do encore(s) baby

dear you
Woke up today thinking of you
Another night that I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind
But they can never come true
I press rewind and remember when
I close my eyes and I'm with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain, every time I hear your name

The sun won't shine since you went away
Seems like the rain's falling every day
There's just one heart, where there once was two
But that's the way it's gotta be,
'til I get over you

Walked through the park, in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but I just can't escape
Memories of you everywhere
They say that time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here

When will this river of tears stop fallin'
Where can I run so I won't feel alone
Can't walk away when the pain keeps callin'
I've just gotta take it from here on my own
But it's so hard to let go

from sweetyouare's livejournal:
I miss the good old (haha!) days where we'll stay back in the lounge every single day till late and just fall asleep on the sofa. the sneaky stayover, the "downtown" painting night with the sneakiest staircase massage (omg! haha!), the kfc peeling, our climb-over-the-fence prata trip & campbell soups, the old-school songs from kolin's ipod which we'll sing along to, fainting spells & laughing gas, lying/rolling on the floor, fooseball, white chicks, etc! damn, those days were pure bliss! i hate school now. boo

bleah. i miss the good ol`days too. and the many memories of those days. the beginning of what we once had. everything was so fun and perfect. bleah.
its quite sad to know we lost everything just within afew months. how those few months of pure happiness and fun and memory-making is enough to make us want to crave for more.
and especially memories made with the one&only.

----

late night chat with d.
"go and die la" no i tiredd!
and he's got himself hooked on "maybe.. maybe not"
suckerdog.

do you still remember initial D?

i wanna watch old dvds ! HONEY! INITIAL D! CENTRE STAGE!

Counting every day that goes by
And the tears that I cry (tears that I cry)
You don't wanna love me no more
Wish that you could hold me tonight
I'm hurting inside
Cause you don't wanna love me
Cause you don't wanna love me
Love me no more

All I know is that I can't live without you
Ooh, but I wanna know
What made you feel this way
I'll be right here for you
And everything that you do
But how can I get close to you
When you don't feel the way I do


btw,
i have met my competition(s)
http://www.youtube.com/?v=Fgppf0abCQA
http://www.youtube.com/?v=Lb6eAnp0Yec
http://www.youtube.com/?v=xU6GIt0de6o
http://www.youtube.com/?v=hsAfWzBMwe8
http://www.youtube.com/?v=pTrJLz2Nwsg
http://www.youtube.com/?v=ukNZqn2gCWs

FUCKING FUNNY SHIT! OMGGG. THEM = SO FARAH CHEW!
MY ANYHOW MAMBO DANCING SKILL IS DAMN DOPE OKAY!!

so open house
= fucking tiring
BUT fun
F.C babies! :D:D

kept pestering him to come but no.
idiot think he too cool. killleeeess!
1week1week! :D:D:D
today im damn happyy
and only farah knows why.

i saw my secretboy! and another one.
and another one.
boys in greeen = dopedope!

and bradd came to school!
and BENSKINNYYEO's picture's in the school mag. WAHAHAH! want to laugh and die
and my freaking shoe is damn gross NOW
thanks to chai & daniel
FUCKING GROSSSSSSS. FUCKINGFUCKINGFUCKING gross
thankgod for rachel, who nicely accompanied me to angkeong to get another pair

took a bus with brad & scully
and talked to darius on the phone from school till my reception die in the lift.

so its back to school again
VSC damn sad
only got me justin chai daniel doing. HAHHAA.
damndamn sad.

ICANTWAITTOSEEYOU!!!
will you be my beautiful?

handcuffs & dildos & porn-like pictures anyone?

topless pictures are fun.

imissyoubabe&imsorryforpastweek.

the paints on my bodeeh cannott be removed.
isad.

it has been 5days.
and almost a monthh ♥

sometimes i dont like keeping secrets.
and sometimes, i go mad
and sometimes, i cant stand you

i hate you but i love you

L.O.V.E

talked to ben till damn late.
falling fingers and cheerleading HAHA!

skipped my first french tutorial today. sucha good girl. HAHA
woke up to rei's & elie's calls/msges.

lunched with elie, lennard, justin & min
helped justin with stencil-ing. cool but freaking alot of wrk to do
#!*@#*@)#@
now im a penknife queen.

was feeling damn weird. haha
elie min and i were mad laughing la.
JUMPING IN TRASH BAGS & spitting in the sink

then went for C&E, left early (as usual)
and slacked before going to angkeong with elie & justin
to get spray cans xMANYMANY & paints.

painted 3 freaking huge wooden boards with elie & kim
MADMAD AH!
all soaked in paint. WAHAHA
ordered macs then cabbed back with the girls.

ILOVEBOYS. do you?
meehhbee.. meehhbee not

OH YES, haha we've got fanclubs.
justin, chai & ben have officially been "maybe-d maybe not-ed". HAHA

im having this super wannaactionhero headache
TOO MUCHH TOO MUCHH FOR MY CHI-LAY HEAD TO HANDLE
TOO MUCH!

luxor gives me bad after-effects
play until eye wanna come out
fingers wanna be how numb
head wanna be how paiin!


OH YES
so people have been saying that FARAH CHEW HAS AN ATTITUDE PROBLEM
thanks alot for telling the world about me :)
much cumshots & STDs to you and your whole family!

was telling BENSKINNYYEO about it haha. he was on the phone with me while the whole thing was going on
DAMN FUNNY!
i was laughing and laughing and laughing
and ben thinks im some madcow. HAH!

my head damn pain.
ive got a neighbour (WAHAHA DUUH!) who i can now slack downstairs with
and play the playground and smoke..
say hello to my neighbour MELVIN LOK (he prefers being called "LOK")
wahahhahaha. yay i got neighbour yay i got neighbour *continues chanting*

okay bye i got headache.
detective hong & ling are on a mission!!
a mission to solve.. the identity of THAT GIRL! wahahhaa.
muchloveee!

woah lan eh
no life can my mother and sister
anyhow go burn paper in the toilet then my sister
run here run there
"JIE JIE FIRE SEE! JIE JIE FIRE"
want to action
but actually they purposely burn the thing because filza want to see paper on fire

BOTH NO LIFE.
then i carry her
WOAH SHE ANYHOW PUNCH MY BOOBS CAN
then LOL herself. sometimes i think i live with a monkey.


&&& i cant wait i cant wait

what if i can still find reasons why you still mean the world to me and that i love you?


p.s:
dont act like we all owe you one heck of a living
if your mother wasnt a whore, than maybe yeah
but too bad SHE IS.
so go suck her nipples you bitch and dont act like you are damn cool
maybbeee.. maybbeee NOT

so as usual,
my DEATH wish for a certain PERSON
didnt happen and i had to go through half an hour or so of his excruciating lesson
KILLER.

when to school early for c&e meeting
then THAT lesson
then went to techno (LOLS!) with elie and lennard

fucking funny la.
bounce baby off the bridge
& MAYBE.. MAYBE NOT
woah killer

walked back to school with elie after lunch to do her photog.
and the walk back was damn FULL OF SHIT... maybee.. maybe not
WOAHH!
killer. please go hear elie say that phrase. you'll just want her to bounce out of the bridge.
HAHHA

stayed in photog room, and did some vectoring for DiEss (ooOoh yk baby)
scully and lennnard then joined us.
and insidee got irritating DID I ASK people. ahhahaha! damn punnehh.

left about 9plus and now i shall continue doing my school work
MAYBEEE.. MAYBE NOT

am really hating school.
the only thing that keeps me alive is the friends there.
everyone's slowly quitting school, and most going back to JC.
this is damn scary.


imissyou

some people should seriously stop depending on others for works, assignments etc.
it fucking pisses me off that people live off others works to get grades
and it fucking irritates me that, people are so irresponsible and un-cooperative (?) and expect work to fall from the sky and when i say sky, it means FRIENDS.
dont expect me to give you face just cos you're my friend

im in a damn pmsy mood now, ive been loosing my cool to 3480394 people since morning.
having so many submissions only adds to heavy work load.
and its downright bullshit that almost all of this sem's work require GROUP WORK.
suckmydickyoufilthywhore.

school pisses the shit out of me. especially certain people, lecturers.

talking to ben and he keeps asking me to go CJC cos he's there now
quitted design for good cos he cant stand almost everything
he said works much easier now and all those crap
now i feel so dumb.


i only like my comdi group.

the others can all sucktheirfathersdick and die



OKAY IM JUST VERY ANGRY

shithole, i miss you!

start gambling young.
homeworkhomework

i ♥ the cookies i baked. very nice
eventhough damn sweeet but not bad la
for a malay AHHAHA.

♥♥♥

VISLI TOMORROW.
YUUUUCCCKKKSS!


editted:// 6pm
woah. what the fuck's
patchwork wonderland & graphic illustration
lah knn!
anyhow only siah.
@#*@#(@)(#@) so 328302839 more works UNDONE.
want to jumpdowwn and die now LA


nothing has changed, for you, for us.
never getting anything back.
or anything near normal
thats damn sad
so,
when will you ever realise
that all i need is YOU?

fucking wasted my time going to liquid i swear

1) i had to fight with my mother
2) its becoming the next monks i swear
3) irritating anyhow shake backside people
4) people kept walking up down up down KNN
5) damn hot
6) FUCKING BORING

but whatever, eventhough it was damn shit.
saw jerry after 2348390802 years! :))
missed the btygangleader many ah!
and saw afew cute guys (& my childhood swweeeet♥)

mother damn knn la. lanjiaofuckass.
stab her can.
woahlan eh. anyhow kaopei so fucking much
i dont care, next week im going to club WHETHER SHE LIKES IT OR NOT

anyhow bullshit siah she.
say wad.
i always come back late (only weekends siah! out of 7days i come back late 2wice a week and she MAKE ALOT OF NOISE)
girls cannot come back late (KNN WHAT BULLSHIT AH..)
girls cannot wear short skirt (THEN WAD BOYS USE AH? NO BRAIN LEHHH!)
i anyhow waste money (KNN I GO IN FREE ALSO MAKE NOISE)
im only 17 (WOAH LAN EH, WHEN I TURN 78 SHE WILL TELL ME IM ONLY 78 RIGHT!)
i still very young (WOAH THIS ONE HARDCORE, I WILL ALWAYS BE YOUNG RIGHT COS I HER DAUGHTER SO I WILL NEVER BE "OLD" IN HER EYES LA.. WOAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!)

as you can see, I AM DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN BLOOODY ANGRY.
still want to scold me shout on the phone then ending say.."YOUUUU.."*hangs up*
then when i call back ask her "I WHAT" she hang up again.


KICKKKKKKKKKKkHERRRLAAA!

newsroom sucked.
half the time i was trying to run away from gross people
& avoiding MR ERECTION, WANT TO KILLLLLLL AHHH!!
&& irritating touchy people
&&& getting pissed with the stupid songs
&&&& bitchstaring at some bitch who thinks she bloodyhell rules the world when sadly, she can kiss my ass
dickslap her to death i swear!
&&&&& complaining to d about MR ERECTION

the drinks there sucked. LIKE TOTALLY.
what bullshit shots la, anyhow only.
and they anyhow play lanjiao songs. KNN!
out of point like crazy ah. wanted to roolll on the floor and die
numanuma siahs.

after party was funnily hilarious!
- fight outside and xb was being damn funny. HAHAHA.
- simpang with elie, laura, lennard, min, rach, sarah & scully
- laugh until my cheebai cramp siah. HAHAHHAHAHA
- BOSS, MOSS, KEN-TAL, B-LARK

i shall stick to liquid and only liquidd.
no more stupidclubs like newsroom or cocco or whateverkukujiao clubs they have.
liquid is ♥
mos-ing next week.
siansiansian

grab your titties for big

I will love you more than that
I won't say those words, then take them back
Don't give loneliness a chance
Baby listen to me when I say
I will love you more than that


okay so he just called. and we might meet tomorrow.
but then again, im damn lazy too.
so maybe at night. meowrs.

and another idiot's being a slut.
killllllllll himmmm!!
oh but i miss you still :)

was early for ComDi and i had goodyummy beehoon! haha
was being annoying again blahblah

did some works and that was my day
took a bus with scully to bedok interchange
smellsmellsmell.

& woahlao eh, just now ah. on the way back
kena rain, bet those horny bedok donowhatschool boys had a good time looking at my tits
(ya la ya la later confirm people comment HAO LIAN about my boobs, KNN)
but really la, bad choice of clothing today
WHITE AHPEK SINGLET and i stupidstupid wear wrong bra today.
KNNNN!!!! want to run also cannot because stupid slipper no grip. fall down chaokeng lagi worst can!
dont likkkeeee! but nevermind, im home now, no hornyboys. HAHA

friday13th tomorrow and the boys dont wanna go for the thingy
because of a certain someone.
i have a better reason to dislike but im still going.
RAHHHHS!
imissyou :)
am baking stuffs for a frienddd
my first attempt at baking ahs! better appreciate or ill kill!

and rachel introduced to me the wonders of DREAMWEAVER.
and i stupidly have the thing in my comp
but just didnt know.
howverymalay
shall try to create a bloglayouting etc. so fun worx!

and ahlian talking convo with benskinnyyeo cos im bored
so bored so no choice gotta talk bullshit with him. HAHA


man she really dont deserve me
gotta loveee my lil nasty :)

strawberry scented candles and tea.
wind in your face and happy smiles.
its comdi tomorrow and somehow i feel very slack this week
i need to get alot of things done. bleahs
yay, babe's finally back. verymuchmissed!


happy 19th birthday chubby :)


why's scully depriving herself off MYDOPESHIT's hotness?
why she never see before! nonsense
im rebooting my PC now, hopefully'll be able to play GB soon
and trash scully's ass!
i WAS gb pro OKAYS. muahaha.

&& i wanna rnb mambodance now!
who ever thought parapara dance moves'd come in handy?

and i seriously think that guys tend to give girls the wrong signals
like
"ill see you tomorrow baby"
whats the baby for?
or like
"alright good night muaks!"
what does the muaks!mean?

its always, the guys give the girls the wrong signals THEN the girl will always tend to read too much into it
so sad how all this goosechasing thing works.
and like i told rachel (trying to act wise.. OH CONFUSCIOUS?)
"if it was supposed to feel goood, they wouldnt call it a crush"

so does that mean that,
you were just a crush?

my mother told me that

filza went to school today
and asked her form teacher if
he knows how to play daidee

OMG JOKE.

rachel told me something rather interesting today
(& i feel so dumb/laggy for not knowing it)

virgins walk differently from non-virgins.
WAHAHAHA.

burst out laughing ah but apparently its true.
hmmmmmm.


oh wells, school was a total waste of time & makeup
when to TM after french with rachel
and c&e got cancelled
& mambodancing at the busstop with rachel
&&& i omg, think i like him.

HAHAHA. fucking hotdopeshitt lah.
and he has a bike!
MAJOR TURN ON & PLUS POINT!
fuckinghotdopeshit. i loike i loikke!!
hahahhaahhahahahaha. maddddddd droooling just now ah!
meowrs

youve been so busy and caughtup with your lameshits

what happened latenight chats & mebeingthefirst&last?

&& i dont like it that you have to book-in/out (okay i know nuts about those terms) whatever.
i shouldnt be robbed !

i saw the fridge magnet memo

and this is whats written:

Monday- Fall down from 5th storey
Wednesday- Operation Die
Thursday- Fall down from 11th storey
Saturday- Fall down 9th Storey

and i burst out laughing.

iwantyouiwantyouiwantyouiwantyou

goodmorning world.
im hungry.

and its hari raya haji
i want chinese new year
i need money

nasty girl is one kinkysong.
grab your titties for b.i.g


i want to sit and stare at you
&im doing this all for you (:

so so def: i'll see you around
so so def: i gtg now
so so def: haha
so so def: tata
grab your titties for B.I.G: gay!
grab your titties for B.I.G: omg
grab your titties for B.I.G: whats with the tata!

HAHAH TATA is sucha gay word.

iwanttoseeyounow
i cant wait for alot of things.

woahFUCKINGlan eh

somepiercing shop at fep dont do surface/boob piercing
& primitive people were quite reluctant to do my surface piercing for me
cos
1) rejection within 3months
2) dangerous
3) very little people have
4) major scarring when rejection occurs

i swear my heart BROKE la.

so now, i shall settle for a tongue piercing la.
but i got to wait for money from cny to come first.

sad la sad la.
town was boring no moood.
& darius did his tongue piercing. bloody idiot tell me last night no money then today go do
BUT HAHA, he was paralysed verbally for today. so not bad not bad.
haha

now all i gotta wait for is the damn money to fall from the sky (cny)
KNN.

there's a thug in my lifeee.

im excited la.
damndamndamndamn excited.
rock-a-bye baby.
:)

i want a boyfriend or anyone
who makes me happy and makes me feel special

someone i know who will be there for me
when.. the hairdryer decides to eat my hair
when.. the drinkstall runs out of my beehoon
when.. things dont go my way

someone to hug and cry with/on

someone to spill droool all over when i sleep

someone who i can do things with, together
like climb the mount everest (AHAHA OKAY LAME)
and shop and eat lunch and sleep and flick and spend every night with

i want a boyfriend who can stay with me
and someone who completes the stupid malay

okay maybe i dont need a boyfriend
i just want someone to belong too

this will be mine

baby dont stop now :))

so i met rachel in town and we walked around before heading down to fep then to retail
rach and i did the stupidest but the cutest thing today!
we attempted to give darius a shock
so we hid under the counter then the changing room haha cos no one was in the shop
when we came and the shutters werent locked. HAH!
bet he got a shock. HAHA!

slacked around. had lunch then played STOPSTOPSTOP game
and burping sessions andd funfunfun
weekends are ♥ i swear!
cos rach and i saw 2 cute guys! HAHA
oh and i saw verner who ive not seen for like 74389343 years! boy's all grown up and crap ah!

nightfall, we went to lido macs
then rach, min and i left for wisma to meet
darius, amanda?, kelvin & shaun
elie and laura came and the both of them together with me and darius
took a cab down to liquid

got in free. HAHA cos we were damn broke and darius signed us in
and with free entry, i got free drinks too thanks to some people. HAHA!
fucking packed la the place, and was blooody hot
and iforgotwhathisnameis kept poking me and all HAHA damn annoying!

went downstairs where all the fun was too
haha. had chips and cute water and instant noodles.
and i got FUCKING ABUSED by stupid santarinalover
he fuccckking kicked my back & sat on my shoulders & beating me
ANNNOOYIINNGGG AH!
*throws reindeer shit at dariuslimGL*
and i saw him eye-ing my tasty seafood instant noodles from far. HAHAH!

they all went back up and i left i was falling asleep downstairs
and on the way back in the cab, he called and we talked for awhile and i fell asleep
and the fucking cab driver's fucking blurrcockcock can! want to kill him.
drive so slow and anyhow turn at my house. kanasai!

oh yes, please be proud of me because today's
my first time to liquid (or is it second)
and i..
1) didnt get drunk or even near high
2) didnt make out with anyone
3) didnt spend any money
4) didnt grope myself

the fav. bouncer was there too HAHA!

am going to get a piercing done soon hopefully!
and no one can see it. (i think)
HAHAHAHHAAH!!! im excited and all hyped about it

and alot of people know about what happened the other night. UGH
@#*@)*#(@)*#@)(*)#@

ive reached my 10000th reader & STILL COUNTING! muahaha

so i slept little last night
then wenta school to meet min, scully & kim
submisssion and all those shitss

then took 518 to town
and had a nice "death" talk with guanie.
waited for rach's at darius's shop
and had alot of nonsense moments la HHAHA!

then went to lido macs with the girls and omg
we laughed so fucking much
"STOP!".. laughlaughlaugh "STOP!"..laughlaughlaugh.
HAHAH fucking funny.
RIMMING! HAHAH!

went to topshop and i saw many lovely things
but im brookkkke :(
SOBS.THROWS TANTRUM.

then went back to the shop
and hahaha played with THE FLASH & PRAANKS
& funny results
DAMN FUNNY hahhaa!
and rachel is full of silly pranks HAH! kills her!

then we walked in the rain for guan min's stupid $1.20 beads
then went to yoshi at cine
then walked back to taka then to wisma
and topshop had many new stuffs there AGAIN. hahahha ok lame
hoping to get the BLINGBLING corset top from there tomorrow, 111bucckkos!
waited for stupid darius to meet us BUT he didnt bring rach's stuffs BUT thankgod he brought my ralphy sunglasses.
if not i will be very angry HAHA!

then took a bus backk
and was podcasting with DON & DREW!

towning tomorrow again.
YAY~!


pictures uploaded
and reformatted because people complain take damn long to load. HAH!
NOOB!

finally
:))

ive always looked forward to your bullshit no matter how nonsense
since then.

2essays down
now on to colors.

its hiphop&rnb at main arena mos every thursdays.

comDi-ed alone. follwed elie to meet "lennard-in-a-container"
mad lunching session with faith, rach, elie, lennard
and for awhile, wayne, bevan and co.
reservoir to smoke and to play with touch-me-nots
i feel like a small kid.
rach thinks im a "chaokeng?" person.
cos im forever chaokeng-ing.
crazy session in the studio with rachel
calling darius and then rolling on the floor laughing. SUPER FUNNY
followed scully for her perspective which was supersupersuper funny
i was laughing so badly at the ernest guy. HAHAH! mad.
bus-ed to TM bought afew things
parents picked me up
picked my sister & my 2god-cousins up from school
got home and slept.

oh oh and scully mentioned that terence is blooody in love with me
HAHAHAHHAHAH!!!
and i should get paid to BE PHOTOGRAPHED man! hahaha
WHY TERENCE NOT YONGKIN!

there's something im kinda looking forward to now
and its
the birthday@MINISTRY :)) & Newsroom

and HELLO PEOPLE FFROM DESIGN WHO READS MY BLOG
quite nonsense ah, like "iforgotwhatshername" came up to me and said
"ohh your blog very nice" and im like "WTFFF!!!!"


some people are just so freaking hard to understand

and has anyone ever died of
"overdose on school work?"
because, if not,
i might be the first

i havent see you in days

WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING FARAH


& i just realised,
jonathans my first friend in tp
and i miss bullying him. HAHAHA!
me joyce and jonathan. HAHA!

& why am i one of the last few people to know there's a
BURGER RAMLY SONG on the radio?
was tossing and turning in bed at 4am-ish and was listening to the radio
and heard the song and started rolling annd laughing to myself
and msged darius who was still playing his stupid game
and woah cannot take it. so dumbdumb lah the song

i want friday to comee :)
I ♥ my livejournal entry HAHA

its usually the person/people
you really want and wished all life for..
they always end up the ones youll most unlikely to get.

its like,
the person you like and you really want things to work out and stuff
but they always end up going away or never getting him/her at all

and thats damn sad

rach told me to be happy for at least
i got someone i really wanted before.
and sadly, happiness didnt last

whhy is it whhyy.
the person you really want.
YOU ALWAYS HARDLY EVER GET HIM/HER.
everything's a joke.

i feel loike an emo kid

its like,
i am moving on but at the same time i dont
because, WHAT IF?
what if i move on, the last chance of us getting back together totally DIES?
what if i move on, im using the other person?
what if, i can never forget you?
what if, i can never find another like you?

i want to be the one trying to save things
because the other party's obviously given up
if i give up this last bit, everything'll be gone
and i dont want it to be gone. okay maybe i do. okay i dont know.

elie mentioned,
moving on is easy
the "ive already moved on and then you suddenly appear again when ive already moved on" phase is the worst.
duh, im hoping for that kinda thing to happen because i know for sure what ill do
its just so scary la. really

im probably not going to get anything out of waiting
probably not going to get anything out of not moving on
probably not going to get anything by working things out myself

but one thing for sure is,
now, i know someone who knows how to make me happy
makes me smile with his nonsense
except.
he isnt mine.

p/s: after telling her whats been happening,
rach officially thinks im in a worst situation than she is.
NOW CONGRATULATE DOPEME.

i know im slowly losing everything

too tired to go for my mum's birthday dinner
too tired to even try to get her anything not even a card
too tired to realise that today, my grandpa'll be admitted to the hospital
too tired to know that, tomorrow he'll be having an operation and i might lose him
too tired and caught up with my "life", to try to spend some time with him
too proud to acknowledge his presence
too tired to spend at least an hour with my sister
too tired to send her to school
too tired and lazy to even start doing my school work

i know im slowly losing everything

and i act all weird and strange and ignore-y
whenever you try to use goosebump-ish terms
im sorry if im pushing you away.
im sorry if i havent been the way you expected me to be.
im sorry if i treat you like crap.

and there's probably only one person i want now,
and thats not you.

and at the back of your mind, you know you should be with me now

rahhs. i probably shouldnt even be bothered about the nonsensical bullshits of ♥
do work do work.

probably never this hardworking in my entire life before.
now i dont even look forward to anything. (i guess)


my days are cold without you
and i keep on running back to you
im weak cause i believeD you
i'm mad because i love you
so i stop and think that maybe
you can learn to appreciate me

baby why you hurt me leave me and desert me
boy i gave you all my heart
and all you do is tear it up
looking out my window
knowing that i should go
even when i pack my bags
this something always hold me back

i think i behave differently to different groups of people
especially guys.

please try to read the unwritten
I AM NOT INTERESTED SO DONT TRY IMPRESSING

lame boys with lame toys.
HAHA OK SO RANDOM


oh i ♥ what "God" told me
:))

im most likely going to lose my bet with rachel
because i want and most likely will
go to MOS this thursday!
main arena: HIPHOP&RNB. dopedope!
so much for not going to momo to save for newsroom. HAHA
besides save what also, haha everything paid for. HAHAH.

&& SOME IDIOT can bring me into MOS sooon. HAHA im excited
but i had to go through his stupid talks of me having ugly phone
and i was going on and on about some issue until he was like
"dont deprive me of my sleep, ive got work tomorrow" LOLS!
i think i need to stop talking so much. haha.

btw, I AM AT MOMO.
im in THAT ROOM.
and darius's in THE ROOM.
he was on MTV just now
and i was one of the pigs mating on NATIONAL GEOGRAPHIC.
haha ok this is so lame

i think rei believed me when i told him
i was at momo. hahahhahaha.
INDIAN INDIAN.

you will always be in my ♥. when its real, its forever babe

seriously,
colors freak the freaking freakfuck malay outta me
so much freaking work to be done and so fucking time consuming
counting grass'd be a much better thing to do than do colors.
UGH!
she extended portfolio submission till end of week.
will try to get everything all done by thurs.

and then i have the yongkin's library thing
KNN LA. today consultation i anyhow show some bullshit also can.
woah. @(*#()@*#)@
i need a freaking scanner and printer NOW. (okay waait i have them, just dont know how to install. KILLS*)

i went almost sleepleess last night doing work.
hatethis ah!

really really hate school.
and there's fuckingfrench tomorrow.
CONSULTATION somemore, must dont know what show what project
eh please lah, i dont even know who my freaking group members are and i did some work already
confirm im the only kukujiao that do wan can.

i think ive got some problem with my brain (HA!)
i keep getting headaches and all.
this is madd.
I DESERVE A GOOD BREAK NOW
its the first day of the term and im already dying.
and its not even the 1st week of 06 and im complaining.
PLEASE MAKE THINGS BETTER SOON.

and i really just wanna spend my time at home
SLEEEPING NOW.
or.. HAVE FUN.
i hate work. i know you do too.


pardon me for my HATE THE WORLD outburst.

im sorry if i wont be able to hold your hand for one last time

If I had one wish, we would be best friends
Love would never end, it would just begin
If I had one wish, you would be my boo
Promise to love you, trust me I'll trust you
If I had one wish, we would run away
Making love all day, have us a baby
If I had one wish, I’d make you my whole life
And you’d be my wife, make it right this time

there's always phillipines to look forward to in 06!

NEED TO START SAVING AND ALL.
i wanna go to phil!

min just said she told larry about the idea.
and yay, we have a house, chauffeur everything provided!
HAHHAHA. thats if we even make it there

now i need to save money
and ask motherrr for permission
and then ask matthew or my cousin if they wanna go back to homeland!

smokeeemuhweeed

1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
- alot of crazy things. pierce my lip? go to a foreign land with friends. get drunk..MANY TIMES

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
- i dont even remember my new year's resolutions for 05.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
- no

4. Did anyone close to you die?
- yes

5. What countries did you visit?
- is bintan a country? bangkok. malaysia

6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
- more money

7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
- the day i met daniel.. but then again thats in the past right, so yeah, no point talking about it :)

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
- passing my o levels HAHA

9. What was your biggest failure?
- losing money HAHA

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
- duh

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
- errr... i dont know?

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
- SOME CUNTWHORESLUTBITCH

14. Where did most of your money go?
- clubbing, clothes, food

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
- starting school in TDS and what schoo had installed for me

16. What song will always remind you of 2005?
- get right

17. Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?
- happier

ii. thinner or fatter?
- fatter

iii. richer or poorer?
- poorer

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
- stop eating & spend more time with my family

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
- eating & spending money

20. How did you spend Christmas?
- with lovely friends and :)

21. If you could relive one thing in 2005 so that you could have acted differently, what would that be?
- dont ask. it has something to do with my ex. so dont ask :)

22. Did you fall in love in 2005?
- i fell in love and out of love

23. How many one night stands?
- 3? oh wait 4. AHHA

24. What was your favourite TV programme?
- i dont know

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
- YES! THAT CUNTFACEDOG

26. What was the best book you read?
- ps i love you

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
- no one?

28. What did you want and get?
- i got most of the things i wanted. :)

29. What did you want and not get?
- i wanted us to work out but no i did not get that. probably the only thing i wanted desperately and didnt get

30. What was your favourite film of this year?
- harry potter SURPRISINGLY

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
- dinnered with a whole group of friends and they surprised me with a lovelycake and song thingy and then we wenta club. 17.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
- believing that love did exist. people'd probably know, i HATED love and thought it BLOODYHELL didnt exist ah!

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
- chapalak

34. What kept you sane?
- money

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
- j.aniston

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
- how i know

37. Who did you miss?
- still is, daniel

38. Who was the best new person you met?
- everyone.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005.
- money is gooood !

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
- its just an illusion that i have in my heart

hopefully ill be able to finish my colors portfolio
by tonight

i havent seen you for quite sometime
ill get you-time soon :)

irritating people kept tempting me to go to town ahs!
no good no good
esp. evil child. WOAH DUNCH LOIKE.

school starts tomorrow and i am not looking forward to it
mum's birthday's on the 4th
and i cant believe im going to turn 18 this year. major excitement ah!
massivewildmindblowingsex, yes?

things to be done:
- people's birthday presentS esp. MUMMY's.
- chocolate shopping
- visLi phototaking
- colors portfolio
- french project
- diEss NLB poster
- 3 comDi essays

you've been my daily breakfast

scully:
ok first part like after you all drank the shots and the jugs right.. all four of you became majorly high. then danced for awhile then all kept falling down so we went downstairs. then ok downstairs you rach jollie and the other girl were all sitting/lying on the floor. then after awhile rach all became ok but u were completely passes out. then ok from the floor outside liquid we tried to carry u to the benches. k then brad n darius trying to pull u along. then this part quite funny. u kept saying no im ok stop it. im ok. then they let go.. then u fell like passed out. then remmeber yest elie showed u how u standingfalling? ya u did that all the way to the chairs. then u were lying down oon the floor for awhile before we got u on the chair. then i think u puked. then passed out for abt 2 hours. then ya after that u were kinda awake already. after u were cold that part? then i think after sean called that one u were ok ready. ohh and before we brought u outside.. u were dancing with some guy. dunno hu kind. and like totally making out kind!! quite funny cause we were all dancing like together kind then suddenly elie saw you n this guy behind then she was like eheh look at farah. then lke we were all dancing and lookinh like hu the heck was that hahahhaha

farah: did i beat/slap/shout/scold anyone?

scully: hahah no but ur phone kept ringing then we were trying to get it out of ur pocket but everytime we try then u'll slap our hands. ahhaha oh ya then u were shouting when they were taking the photos and the hair incident elie was talkin abt but didnt see that. did u see the videos and photos? i tink all in elies cam

and..

joellie was dancing with a tree. LOLS!

rach & i's
new year's resolution
FIND A BOYFRIEND
by 14thfeb.
AHAHA.

mi corazon belongs to you
amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
is this an illusion (is this an illusion)
that i have in my heart?

its the new yeaar
and im not going to miss you


because you're someone ill love always.

weather's pretty damn cold and

i dont know why i keep updating
my ♥ breaks whenever i look at my phone!
i shall go get the cover repaired or something or get some plastic cover.

i wanna see youuu !

joellie just came online and told me about what happened last night
"ITS THE JUG" she said
and she dangerously got sent home by random malaysians! because she puked in the bus and they sent her home
omg so scary

& there was a mini-riot with riot police coming down all outside MOS last night. HAHA

indian's back and he's asking to go to MOS tonight/later
i would if i could
my body's aching and suffering from post-drunkard syndrome
and my finger's swollen because i was fingering myself too much

i wanna go i wanna go i wanna go
but ill most probably end up sleeping inside or just break into pieces in the club
aargh.
hopefully ill feel better by 9 or something then i can cab there and party
meowrs.
i need to do schoolwork also

btw, filza who was downstairs your house apparently was shouting your name while she was there

i just want to sit and stare at you :)
its raining.

i dreamt that
he lives just directly (okay afew houses) next to mine
and he would climb up to spend time with me every now and then

IF ONLY.


one of our very few.
so thankyou babe.
its makes me happy that you remember little details
and sometimes making it happen
:)

i fucking woke up with fucking 4 balukus on my fucking head and 7 blueblaRcks all over my fucking body
AND SCRATCHES ALL OVER MY FUCKING PHONE AND UGH.


IM SORRY ABOUT LAST NIGHT.
and the girls attempt to flirt with godknowswho worked and got me pretty damn wasted
33bucks on 1-for-1 and a jug with grace.

HAPPY NEW YEAR SLUTS
i cant even fucking remember how i got from 2nd floor to the grass puking
ok seriously, no more drinking for me (AT LEAST NOT THIS AMOUNT)

my fingers are fucking swollen.
rachel just msged me and told me everyone was quite off last night
I DONT EVEN REMEMBER DANCING
and ele? grace? i cant remmeber who, told me .. ARGH. NEVERMIND. and i swear i dont remember doing sucha thing.

and no, if you think dopeboy's whoever, NO.