dope boy goes crazy

elie mentioned something about
"nature's calling"
HOW NATURE GET YOUR TELEPHONE NUMBER?
haahhah ok so lame.
i have to go bath soon. lol

icantwaittoseeyouboy

i need to be more patient
and i need to learn to be a tad more SHORT tempered

but indecisiveness and asking too much out of something
pisses the freaking malay outta ma

i feel damn sad

i searched the whole damn house for nice chocolates
i sadly found only 1 rocher
i am damn sad
this is damn sad

why why why must there be no chocolates for chubby!
this is one sad fri/sat.
tsk

tomorrow i shall treat myself to chocolates
OR PEOPLE SHOULD TRY SUPRISING ME WITH CHOCOLATES
note: pref with nuts k?
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHH!

i am so bored and hungry
im going to start counting grass before eating them

thank you for 2005

daniel: thank you for giving me the best months of my life and for coming into my life, leaving me with nice memories. never a moment of unhappiness when i was with you and never a dull boring moment so, chubby, you've been a blast. wll always love you. so thank you for giving me the best 2005 babe. may you have a great year ahead filled with much happiness, love and everything

elie: thank you for allowing me back into your crazy life and thank you for all the laughs and crazytalks. you've been nothing but pure blast and happiness and not one single moment with you has been boring, dull or anything unpleasant. thank you for listening to me talk, whine, bitch and whatever. happiness will come to you soon. cheesyburger lovin` to you biatch! many more private jokes and crazy laughters and shouting at people in the coming year(s) :) love you shitloads nugget!

scully: thank you for being the maria you already are. always there to hear me out and always there to listen to me talk about nonsense things (and joining in also) HAHA. thank you for being so scully. one of a kind. you've been a great biatch scullz. my prankster mate. our new yr's resolution shall be coming up with the most kickass prank OKAYS?! haha! much love to you queen :)

kim: thank you for being kim. honest talks and random thoughts. your birthday will never be forgotten. haha! love :)

rachel: thank you for being there for me when i needed to cry to someone, talk to someone and basically just being there for me when i was at my lowest low. thank you for always making me laugh sometimes to the extend of making me want to kill you haha! rachel is dope. seriously rach, thank you for being there for me when i was crapped. you're a gem babeh. so thank you for everything. love you dope.

min: thank you for allowing me back into your life and everything else. may you have a great year ahead filled with crazymakingthings moments.

dp: thank you for everything.

thepersonwhodoesntreadmyblog: *SMILES*

2005's coming to an end and seriously, thank you to everyone who's given me one of the best years of my life. no doubt it has been filled with heartbreaks after heartbreaks and, seriously, without certain people, this year would have pretty badly SUCKED. and thank you to SOME PEOPLE for fucking up my year (almost but obviously didnt succeed) and allowing me to visibly see how screwed up one person can be.

new people came and some left and many others remained. i did many things which i would have never thought of doing this year and ive had more happy memories this year than bad ones so really, YAY!

days like,
nehneh's & kim's & min's birthdays, bintan with daniel marisa & boo, liquid nights, sentosa with people, halloween, wigdays and the few sheesha nights and christmas and falling off the table etc. will never be forgotten. the nights we'd play at garden's playground like no one's business or our failed attempt in cooking.

thank you for making this year happen and thank you daniel for giving me the best months of my life. i love you and everyone else crazy shitloads :)
♥

sleep never felt this goood
UNTIL UGLY had to call ME
along with a few others.

idiot still say i damn loser cos sleeping on friday night
EH WHAT SHIT.
people tired, want to rest so tomorrow can have energy party
still want to talk so much


btw i hate school work and filza's first teeth dropped today!

i think shy boys are ♥

and i ♥ it when you try to beat around the bush to finally say "do you wanna meet later"
its soo cute. ha

excuses for everything. ha. damn cute can die

ok just did sub selection and
i just found out I HAVE MORE HOMEWORK. yay to dying.

so i met a few friends at cine before going over to fep to meet clarachaibaby
she wenta alter her pants and we had lunch at nana thai and talked
then we walked around and wenta borders
had a damn hard time choosing 2006 planner lah. haha and i bought stretchable snakes!!
damn fun to play with *glares at UGLY*

then i bought a top from EBASE
which SOME people said is DAMN UGLY. haha PIG.
met christopherchai and brother and friend for awhile
then wenta darius's shop and my snakes were used to abuse me. bloody hell

then cabbed to clarke quay with darius and min
hahahah damn funny la the cab ride. HAHA.
and some UGLY person kept calling me. HAHA i know my ringtone damn nice
LOL!

then didnt go to gotham then wenta cheekys and
i will never drink again. will never drink again. will never drink again. will never drink again.
got in free and free flow.
will never drink again. will never drink again. will never drink again.
then some i cant remember what thing happened then ya

then i went home after puking my cheebai out
then talked to pat till morning.

and sorry min for having to encounter with mats because of me. HAHA

pictures uploaded bye

come get your nye tix from me for tomorrow

be happy for me.
smile for me.

supper and crazytoiletbreaks (lax)

he said: but baby wait.
and she said: its too late boy.

your addiction
whats that supposed to mean?


darren's telling me im running away
just because i told him im not in the mood/not ready to talk about relationships, love and whatever bullshit it brings
and calls me a faggot
seriously, try waiting for months for someone who meant the world to you to come back
and not getting any out of everything
and feel everything but happiness out of it
and get rejected time and time again
knowing the other party has already moved on
THEN see if the word "faggot" fits right in perfectly.

he said by running away ill lose the essence of love.
and i told him, the essence died when daniel left.
and came up with some bullshit ass theory which im not going to read
because 1 I REALLY WANT TO MOVE ON 2 I DONT WANT TO BE REMINDED HE IS NO LONGER MINE
3 I JUST DONT WANT OKAY.

whatever i shant be angry or whatever or lose my cool over an issue im freaking sick and tired off.
ive been the fool and the dumb one for more the past 4months.

so yes,
bottomline is, dont talk about relationships or love or whaatever bullshit accosiated to it
because i shall go back to the person i once was before all this thing happened.

i hate looking at happy pictures of happy couple
sometimes i feel like watching them burn in front of my very eyes

some have mentioned to me that im quite sadistic

im craving for chocolate sundae from macs.
lovely's somewhere near my house BUT im too lazy to meet
im damn hungry
i want to eat
i hate school work
i feel very rich

my phone's confusing me. the only functions i use it the messaging & calling functions
there rest "have not been learnt by the powerful me"

why am i a cow?
i like being a pig.
omg this is so random

OH YES OH YES.

boy i think they like me :)
we dont give a fuck about you. OMG OK STOP IT THIS IS DAMN RANDOM

i still have kim's & daniel's DAMN SUPER LAGGING xmas presents with me
OKAY BYE IM GG TO FIND FOOD BECAUSE NO PIG WANTS TO DELIVER FOOD TO ME

meeting clara baby tomorrow
YAY

she told me to stop
but i cant.

should i meet later?
i still feel damn lazy

haha i think ive been damn annoying past few days
bugging people to get tix for this that this that from me
HAHA
i cant help it if gotham's so fucked right HAHA!
and i cant help it if people're broke. HAHA so please pardon my temporary (hopefully) beggings HAHa!

and he said
without you, it'll be nothing.
AWWWW.
lazy people laze around in the bed whole day
and thats what ive been doing!
messaging with my dope phone & sleeping. HAHA
the cool people. HAHA.

so its gotham tomorrow, please come.
RAHHHS
i dont feel like clubbing. quite sian BUT, i want to drink
i think ive been spending way too much.
rahhs.

hush little baby :)

dear you,
i think it has been too long
holding back and still clinging on what i once had with you
i erased everything that once had us
i deleted everything that once had us
im going to find happiness
because you dont make me any happier as the day goes by

i will turn around
to see you for the last time
ps: it kills me the most to know that my sister adores you as much as i do

you promise that you'd stay
you say you want to go
your lips provide a shelter for the
things that i don't know

i ve found ll try to find happiness somewhere else

hurry baby, im hungry

today's a good day because why?
i got the pinkrazr
WAHAHAHA. they ran outta stock and only had 1 reserved piece left
and they callled the woman to ask if she still wanted the phone and she didnt haha
so i took it. WAKAKK!
proud buyy :) thanks MUMMYDOPE.

shopped at marks&spencer parkway before going home
changed and bus-ed down to town
fucking heavy rain BUT its OKAY,
walked in the rain and went to RETAIL YAKUZA
darius's new bag is like those bomb bag damn fun to run around with
went KFC to eat with elie, brad, scully and lennard
then
me, elie, scully, brad, darius, lennard, donald, syamsul went to slack at taka there
donald is damn funny! LOLS

then i cabbed back with scully.
meowrs i l♥ my phone. do you? haha

GET YOUR GOTHAM TIX FROM ME MOFOS!
AND IM SELLING FOR THE DJ RATTLE&KOFLOW THINGY AT CIVIC PLAZA this SAT (nye countdown)
SO GET YOUR MOFO TIX FROM ME DAAWWGS

he's out and i'm not
dying of boredom at home
maybe ill go out and meet at night

but i want to stay home too because
1) no money
2) damn tired
3) i miss my bed

so near yet so far.
cant wait to see you

editted at 11.31pm/
i have french project to do and i dont know how to doo! damn stupid and dumb. KNN.
i wanna go outttt but im damn lazy to change. SO IM SORRY!
& rei asked me to visit him in china tomorrow, okay sets. HAHA. taking bus there tomorrow
BOOOOO.
tomorrow me ish shall go outz and meet lovely people and have lovely loads of fun
I DONT LIKE INSECTS. they think i so nice buy them presents, all go inside my paperbags. KNN!
made my maid kill them

OH PICTURES UPLOADED BITCH

I HAVE THE SUDDEN URGE TO PLAY WITH A CASH REGISTER
are you going to be the nicest asshole in the world and get me a toy one ASAP?

and my stupid razrpink is only coming MID JANUARY
want to be HOW LONG MORE YOU TELL ME?
made reservations for it already and told me only going to come new batch MID JANUARY
WOAH MY PHONE DYING ALREADY I NEED A NEW FUCKING PHONE!

cut him off.
let him miss you
page: 178


yeah right. SURE.


and you turned out to be the ultimate opposite of the person you portray to be
honesttalks and lettingallout
it was real nice babe

i ♥ what we're having now

Lifestyle bash & L'oreal presents...

PARTY PROOF.. product launch party!

@ Gotham Penthouse 29th Dec Thurs.

Tix presale at $18 wit 1 drink! R&B!

jugs at $20, tequila shots at $5 ALL NITE LONG..

live HIP HOP dance performance, free hairstyling
services by top hairstylists in town with L'oreal's
party proof!

*Longest survival podium dancers walk away with
attractive prizes.

time to get wild.

contact farah at 96343263 for tix.

dad sent brad, filza and i to georges
darius said "sorry i on the way back already in the bus"
but no, i opened the door at georges, there he was, sitting with khor drinking
bluffer. haha!
so it was khor, darius, brad, filza and i
then a sudden massive attack of people came
scully, rach, sam, sarah, rach, rei, gab, ian, brandon, alrick, zach, kim
woah haha
ian opened bottle and we drank alottt.
played the drinking game and all those shit
the "arent you daniel li's ex gf" question got asked again and seriously,
my NO reply or ROLL EYES IN RESPONSE TO YOUR ANSWER shall be your answer.
i hate it when people ask me that. really.
i dont want to be reminded that he is no longer mine so go and die PEOPLE.


exchanged presents and i love what i got
thanks people. i love yall plenty :)

eventhough i was dreadin 25th,
i must say it was great eventho it started pretty late.
thankewbabefortoday.
today's a happy day. YAY :)

pictures uploaded bitch

I WILL KEEP OF ALCOHOL AND CLUBBING
UNTIL NEW YEARS EVE.

PLEASE STOP KILLING MY LIVER/WHATEVER.

I NEED TO REST. I NEED SLEEP.
I NEED TO STOP DRINKING.
AND SMOKING.
AND SPENDING MONEY.

THANKEW

Oh, new year's resolution:
CLUB DRINK LESS. thanks

and quit the "i still like you" bullshit
because i will never be interested and 1-2years has NOT changed a thing
i still AM NOT interested. muchlove :)

and cheers to the most kickass shirt ever

OMG farah
you cant be serious


itwas supposed to be a plan
and whatever else
but its NOT suppose to be REAL.

meeting a whole lot of people later
i feel lost.
and i didnt even know ill be having dinner at home with people coming over.
thats how "left out" ive been from the homies.

filza wants to give out flyers when she grows up.
and if that doesnt succeed, she's going to wipe tables
yes she told me that and i burst out laughing
and she said she also wants to be a gangster.
RIGHT.

my dopeboy goes crazy

please be prouud of me

my 3rd time to liquid
and by far, my most iinnocent or whatever one there HAHA!
no guys or getting drunk

job well done farah
you deserve a goodfuck after many rounds of alcohol now. HAHA

bused to town and walked through the many million banglas in town
darius waited for me at retail yakuza
and i got attacked by the leftfoot people with those spraycan things
because darius pussy RAN and they attacked me instead.

so we walked and mad avoiding those spraying can things
annoying pieces of shiats spraying all over the place

cabbed to liquid
AND IT WAS SO FUCKING EX AND PACKEED.
28bucks gone like that
and haha i got 2 drinks instead of the standard one HAHA!
and they played grillz!!
didnt dance much cos
1) fucking packed
2) people kept walking up down up down
3) it was damn smelly

went outside and crapped around with
elie, laura, faith, darius etc.
damn funny can diee. had my own picnic lah
damn cheebai haha
go buy bottles of mineral water and super rings and go eat outside
HAHAHA.

cabbed back.

smile for me daddy :)

merry xmas biatches.
areyougonnabetheonewhosgonnamakemehappy?

The Bottom Line
Unexpected romantic sparks are coming alive again. Do you believe in second chances?.

In Detail
Fun's definitely in the stars, and while others may be in a mellower mode, you're raring to go. Find a friend or two who can keep up with you, and choose something great to do. A daytime adventure of ice-skating might be about your speed, or the hustle and bustle of shopping for gifts, or a special lunch at an interesting ethnic restaurant. Start a new tradition and enjoy every minute -- these are the days that memories are made of.



SIGHSIGHSIGH.
okay enough, where's my booookkk!

i hate today because

1) everyone will only be free at different times
2) i have to choose which dinners to attend to and its killing me
3) town will be crowded
4) clubs will be packed
5) there will be massive traffic jam in town/everywhere
6) it brings me closer to the 25th
7) my body's aching
8) my mum's being a bitch and told me to stay home today
9) everything's so undecided and unplanned
10) i dont know who i'll be meeting

HELLO TO A SUCKY EVE.

falala wasnt that fun.
note to oneself: never bring more than 50bucks to club

MONEY GONE JUST LIKE THAT ON
shots after shots after shots.
thanks farah, youre not very rich now.
and i swear a motherfucker grabbed my left boob and i screamed
hope his motherfucking arm burns and rots TODAY
and his motherfather all will die tonight.
guys seriously SHOULDNT take crowded situations for granted
and yeah, go on and say, then girls shldnt wear too skimpily
but does that give you a reason to GRAB and GROPE a girl?
blooodymofos esp. that fucker who touched my boob.
asshole.

got kinda high but not to the extend of drunk
hoping to be able to liquid or mos tonight

yesterday was pretty crazy before the clubbing session
at retail yakuza.
1) darius flashed his ass at me and i almost died
2) i got bullied by donald and was made prostitute (LOL!) together with rachel
3) my handphone went DOWN UNDER into someone's pants
4) kukubird thinks i eat weirdly, esp when i try eating burgers

RAHHS. body's aching
tomorrow's xmas and im dreading it.
because i know my wish wont come true

alot of people are going to falala tonight
and i keep telling them
MUST GO COS ITS IN HONOUR OF MY NAME
and le`en gave me that name LOLS.
buttboy :)

and seriously,
have my boobs grown bigger?
apparently he thinks it has and its scaring me
because
1 i dont feel any biggerness in change
2 big boobs = getting chubbier
OMGOMGMOGMOMGOMG!

and another one said..
he said: i think i prefer u more than her la
me said: AHAHHA WHY SO BAD
he said: u got bigger boobs , can disturb and take jokes , and ur not that stupid , yada yada yada

ill hug you till my boobs get deflated.
okay im excited for tonight. bye biatchES.
and SUCK ON THAT SLUT.=p

you are not easily forgotten.
let him find you when he's ready
page: 215

forget about him and his good qualities.
even forget about his bad ones.
forget about all his excuses and
what he promises.
ask yourself one question only:
is he making you happy? NO
page: 218

the reason it's so painful when someone disappears
is you have to face the fact that
the person you loved had probably left you a long time
before he grabbed his coat and scrammed


thank you for just a few minutes.
goodbye because i miss you


btw, are rabbits the new ipod this year?
brad got scully a blarck rabbit
and del wants to give his rabbits to me.

and seriously

dont ever ask me
where's daniel?
OR whatever anything daniel.

ASK HIM YOURSELVES NEXT TIME.

and no if you think im referring to you only,
NO.

ive had 83928309232 million people ask me that almost daily
even lecturers asking me "where is daniel" and whatever daniel..
my NO reply is YOUR reply.

and for now,
he's just not that into you
Your daily wake-up call
by Greg B. & Liz T.
shall be my companion

but sadly love,
i mean this till now,
i would, for you.


"he's just not that into you if he's disappeared on you.
sometimes you just have to get closure all by yourself"
page.183

ps: i love you

and there you were
in my dreams
telling me things will be alright
and gave me a hug
which ive been longing for since forever

... and then
we continued watching comedy night
and you just disappeared without a goodbye.
and there i was
watching king of queens alone
without you next to me. ever


is there anyone out there?


ithink ill go give myself a break
dont expect updates here
or seeing me on MSN

too much everything's been messing up my feeble chi-lay heart

bottomline is, i miss you and goodbye

i really dont need anything else
because what i want and have is right in front of me
only difference is, its not mine and i will never have it back

the only difference is,
eventhough i want it back and possibly never have it back
i wont let anything else replace it


i really miss you

p.s: i feel sick. OKAY WAIT I AM SICK. fluflufluflu.
antidotes wont work.

and i told them
last time i had a reason to go to school
*jokingly* and now i have yongkin to live for.
RIGHT farah. that probably isnt a least bit true

colors then workshop
then diEss with hothot yk
then workshop

workshop's damn fun!
the spray room especially!
me, nehneh, small weiner, bing & faith
were in it and the pressure's so fucking low
i swear i could fly. LOLS!!
mad picture taking (shall wait for small weiner to send em to me)
and mad hair blowing. damn fun!
made a sign with the wood stuffs which reads:
GIMME SOME CHUBBY LOVIN'
LOLS!! damn dope i swear!!

then went to workshop the main one
and smal weiner had a good time spraying air onto me
hahahhahha damn fun lah!!!!
new found playground for the CHUBBY SISTERS

then went to canteen and had food (LOLS!) with kol & chubby sister
talked about our loss of a chubby sister(my lookalike)
and the gain of a brother(mohd baldwin)
and about YONGKIN'S HOTNESS.
omgomogomgomogmogmogmomgomgogomg!
and i should STOP staring and admiring
maybe even orgasming at the sight of a certain someone. LOLS!
too cute already. haha and i noticed lately, got alot of cute people in school
WAKKAKAKAKAKKA i loike!

then went to the tree thing at level 1.
omg lah, whats with MY NAME being theree??
attempted to write lame messages on it eg.
dear santa,
please give sean a bigger weiner this christmas.
ps: sean tan dontknowwhat bing
and also
dear santa,
please give me a bunny this christmas
*inserts pic of bunny*
signed: r.c
AND AND AND
dear santa,
please give me sean this christmas
signed off: *inserts someone's name*

damn fucking funny, laughing my cheebai out i swear
and pls ah, whats with the message to me and rach ON THE TREE.
freaky.
LOLS!

no school for me tomorrow baby!

tu me manques, chéri (go figure)

thursday- MOMO
friday- indochine in honour of my name FALALA
saturday- metallic xmas @one OR liquid OR mos.

WOAH SIANZDEWORX

nevermind, need my alcohol dosage! YAY TO BEING BROKE BIATCH!


check out my picture link
YOULL ♥ darius's videos. HAHAHHAHHAH!

went out and im damn tired

i bought tooo many alot of things AGAIN

where are you boy when i need you the most?

i did some xmas wrappings.
i still need to get presents for the boys!
boys are such hard-to-get-presents-for creatures
need to get more wrapping paper from schoolbookshop tomorrow!

wrote little letters to SOME deserving people.
rahhhs.

& please ah, if my present for you is damn BUDGET,
i really CANNOT help it HAHHAHA i am DAMN BUDGET now
BUT RIGHT, be grateful because right..
HAHAHA
i only got for CERTAIN deserving people. LOLS!
go think if you dedserve my honourable pressies. GO HAHAH!

mum's going jb tomorrow
I WANT HER TO TRY FIND MY PHONE FOR ME THERE
sporeans damn cb, all go buy the pinkrazr, i the stupid idiot got to make reservations for it
KNNCCB

one last everything.
because all i wnt for xmas is you

dear farah

why do you keep making yourself be even more miserable than you already are?
fuck off.


love...with much hatred,
farah

id go do a personal shoutout soon

imsorry but i do..
miss you

hungryhungryhungryhungry

he mentioned

"doesnt that board bring back many happy memories?"

and i wanted to cry


and i think i have an obsession

i swear i hate VisLi.
SERIOUSLY hope he fucking tumble down the stairs and die
mothersonofacunt. UGH.
hate his dogfucked face. MY GOD.
obviously out to FAIL me from the beginning LAH that idiot

didnt bother attending his fucked up lesson
but i went to school to do his cheebai work
and STILL marked my work LATE eventho can hand in by3. CHEEBAIASSHOLE.

angkeong-ed with elie, justin & chai
met lennard ben and dont know who
i cant stand mats, they think they damn funny
"I LOVE REVOL BOYSS"
think i cannot hear ah? IDIOT

the vscproject1s are fucking nice
feel like killing them all for doing such goodshit work
I CAN NEVER be NEAR their standard ah!
WAKAKA.

my hair! my hair! i loike it okay but those idiots keeep disturbing me
but at least got some PEOPLE who told me its NICE and NOT BAD.
HURHUR. SUCK THAT BIAATTCCH.

oh just now while walking to marybrown,
DAMN FUNNY!
me and elie mad shouting at this girl HAHAHA
HAHAHAHHA fucking funny we shout at her like blooody siaodogs can
HAHA

foulmood.
where is dopeboy?

dinner at hyatt was too fucking dope
with dope food comes dope bill
BUT its OKAY hahha!
dope fooodd! fucking eat like siao HAHA
chubby gets chubbier! i ♥!!

then met darius & co with lupe and all
they left for godknowswhere so we sent them off
my dad sent me, mimn & darius to boat quay
so me, min, darius & my bro met darren and friends at molly donowhat pub

boro & spurs match
after which
crazy skating at boat quay & parliment house?

then crazy walk to the padang
and crazy jackassing!
skating, breakdancing, falling down, dancing to ahpek's techno
and running across the padang only to get caught with wires and all

then to esplanade
crazy playing IN the fountain
and getting caught by the guards
and running like fucking cows for our damn lives!
HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHAh!

then to one fullerton's area
and doing crazy pranks and all

before flagging for a cab home

pictures uploaded bitch
very little though cos i took more videos!~ HAHAH!
damn funnny the videos.

oh i think they like me. HMMMMMMMM. grins

angels & devils says: mother, i miss you

HAHAHHA!

i ♥ my new hair!

am off to have dinner at hyatt now
then meeting angels & devils at boat quay cos he misses me too much

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHH!!!

you..

I've hardly been outside my room in days,
'Cause I don't feel that I deserve the sunshine's rays.
The darkness helped until the whiskey wore away,
And it was then I realized that conscience never fades.
When you're young you have this image of your life:
That you'll be scrupulous and one day even make a wife.
And you make boundaries you'd never dream to cross,
And if you happen to you wake completely lost.
But I will fight for you, be sure that
I will fight until we're the special two once again.

And we will only need each other, we'll bleed together,
Our hands will not be taught to hold another's,
And we're the special two.
And we could only see each other, we'll breathe together,
These arms will not be taught to need another's,
And we're the special two.

I remember someone old once said to me:
"That lies will lock you up with truth the only key."
But I was comfortable and warm inside my shell,
And couldn't see this place would soon become my hell.
So is it better to tell and hurt or lie to save their face?
Well I guess the answer is don't do it in the first place.
I know I'm not deserving of your trust from you right now,
Oh But if by chance you change your mind you know I will not
Let you down 'cause we were the special two, and will be again.

I step outside my mind's eyes for a minute.
And I look over me like a doctor looking for disease,
Or something that could ease the pain.
But nothing cures the hurt you, you bring on by yourself,
Just remembering, just remembering how we were

cabbed to elie's house and had a little adventure
we had so much trouble closing a damn window when it started to rain
we both got drenched! HAHAH! mission IMPOSSIBLE lah!

laura came and we took a cab down to siglap
hahah and the meter didnt even move lah! HAHAH!
240 siahs!

met lennard there and we stayed for quite some time there
had french toast from kiliney!
and nice talks :)

then cabbed down to RETAIL YAKUZA. haha
the darius was there alone thought rei and all were there but they left when i came
stayed there for awhile while waiting for my mommma to come to town
then

wenta meet her at taka!
saw rei, xav & gf at guess?
the guess there wanna be how cheap lah!
went madd buying shits ah!
shopped like siao there today

then after that went to suntec and continued shopping
bought more guess stuffs & la senza bras?
HAHAHA.
saw raza.

shoppped shopped and shopped
then my dad picked us up
then we wenta buy groceries at mustafa
LOLS went mad buying chocolates and all ah!
hahahhahahahahha. i am going fattter. YAY!

then bought tauhuey and the guy is fucking funny
man: can you manage?
me: yeah can
man: you must have strong arms then
me: oh okay?

and strong arms = carrying 2 tupperwares of TAUHUEY?
hahahahhahahhahahahhahahahahaha i went back into the car and BURST out laughing ah!
hahahhaah

nextweek nextweek! mosmos!
my mum told me to go mos on newyrs'eve when i told her i;d be there xmas eve.

im going to curl my hair tomorrroow
YAY I LOVE!

where is dope boy?


imissyou

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they slept over and are still here
one side of my eye's like swollen

hyatt's fully booked for lunch & dinner todaye
so we're only gg over for dinner tomorrow

happy birthday filza
i♥you millions baby.

damn damn sleepy

he asked me what i wanted for xmas
and i said YOU.

mum's giving me more mooonehh laters
YAY.

For they could not love you,
But still your love was true.
And when no hope was left in sight
On that starry, starry night,
You took your life, as lovers often do.
But I could have told you, Vincent,
This world was never meant for one
As beautiful as you.


imissyou

went to RETAIL YAKUZA todaye
lupe and all were there. helped with the setting up of the place.
crazy boneless chicken rice moment, with darius telling clinton to
"stop staring at farah's boobs lah!"
and clinton going all RED hahah!
and getting cheated with "happy soda" at es teller

walked to wisma with xiaobai to meet rei & faith
faith & i got ourselves mango stuffs.
and i got a Guess? tee!

then met joelle at cine and he gave me invites to MOS
so cabbed down to clarke quay with faith, vernon & joelle

the fucking queue at MOS was fucking LONGGG and KILLER
BUT being the dopeshit person that i am and people that i have
we got in within a few minutes, no need to queue at all
MUAHAHHAHAHAHA
all those idiots waiting like cocks outside

MOS IS THE SHIT
really lives up to its name.
darius was def. high lah HAHAHAH but no we all didnt get drinks
ONLY I DID cos i FELT RICH (as usual) HAHAH!!
mad dancing and all.
darius and i got lost lah the moment we entered the place
too fucking dope.
oragsmic to the max can! wakakka

and THE RED MOP/B bloody hell!haha
they chose me and some other ranodm people to do some shitass dance
thing in the middle of the dancefloor
ALMOST DIED AH!
hahahahha

left about 1plus and people were still queueing to get in lah
HAHAHHAHA.
had macs and dropped rei & faith off

2frens coming over soon


i think ive got a crush on you

darius's telling me about lupe and all
omg its so fucking cool larhs

and something along the lines of fort minor and all
OMGOMGOMGOMG

he better fill me in with more details
sounds so fun

i need to go shop
ill go for retail theraphy soon.

always will be
♥


im tired.
all i want for xmas is you. sigh.
sometimes i wish i was as strong as elie
no doubt eveything was kept short
but its like a permanent scar, not going away.

i'll always be 2steps behind.

http://www.beautifulagony.com/public/main.php

to view pictures of people getting/having an orgasm

haave fun!

credits: dlisted.com & the above mentioned site

&& i really wanna go to the fullmooon beach party in thailandd in january
with josh & co but i have fucking school and the boys're going to be there for like 1week or so,
skipping school would be WAYY TOO MUCH to ask for.
damnz. he told me "oh you watched THE BEACH? something like that only you get to experience dancing on the beach"
WOAHZ. wanna make me how jealous you tell me.
and what part of thailand will it be at?
i ONLY know BANGKOK and PHUKET, hahahha!

&& i want to go MAKATI CITY!
matt;s telling me about the cheapness of ciggs, martinis and forever21 there
I WANT TO GO THERE NOWW


i really wanna club
but like ALL NO MONEYYY !!!!!!!!!!
why loike thattt larhs! hhahaah


& she told me something damn gross just now
i am damn disspointed and disgusted with what happened. HAHAH
stupidwoman. miss her like crazy and still want to do crazy things and still got guts to tell me about it.
HAHAHHAHA.


so many places to go
so many things to do
so little moneyy left

school was crazy.
running up and down looking for people
meeting people this that this that
smoke breaks with roy & faithh
justin making me drool over a certain someone *ahhhhhhss*
sleeping while sean did his work
getting my malay ♥ broken because the drink stall ran out of MY beehoon thus breaking the thursdaily routine justin and i take

so me elie lennard joellie and scully took 518 to town
bought myself
- roxy slippers (cos my heels were killing me)
- mango bag
- 5 mango tops (& i ♥ them many!)
- revoltage top
- revoltage bottom
- xmas presents for people!
totally busted more than 200bucks today ALONE. mother is going to KEEEEL.

fep got alot of goood looking people. i loike!

went to darius shop for the launch of retail yakuza
and i think lupe fiasco and co. were there too?
and i finally saw donallldd!! omg missed pole manymany larhs!!
everyone there were like high and all already
so attica was given a missed
(and also plus i was carrying wayy too many things & my feet was aching)

took a cab back with scullz & keemz.

i wanna go to zouk tomorrow. am freaking dying to club
& i just realized, beer makes my mouth itch! i dunch loike.


why the fuck did a bodybuilder add me on friendster?

and again,
to the most beautiful
i miss you

i forsee a soon-to-be bitchfight


patricia says:
shes one dumb ass hungry media whore shit ass girl.
(and pat's not referring to the above mentioned bitchfightt. she's referring to someone else)

i feel so noob using WINDOWS now. i keep doing the MAC shortcuts. aha!


to the most beautiful,
you're missed.

gimme just one last.

Love leads to laughter
Love leads to pain
With you by my side
I feel good times again

Never have I felt these feelings before
You showed me the world
How could I ask for more

And although there's confusion
We'll find a solution to keep my heart close to you

And I know, yes I know
If you hold me, believe me
I'll never, never ever leave

And I know
There is nothing that I would not do for you
Forever be true
And I know
Although times can be hard
We will see it through
I'm forever in love with you

Show me affection
In all different ways
Give you my heart
For the rest of my days

With you all my troubles are left far behind
Like heaven on earth
When I look in your eyes

And although there's confusion
We'll find a solution
To keep my heart close to you

And I know, yes I know
If you hold me, believe me
I'll never, never ever leave

And I know
There is nothing that I would not do for you
Forever be true
And I know
Although times can be hard
We will see it through
I'm forever in love with you

No need to cry
I'll be right by your side

Let's take our time
Love won't run dry
If you hold me, believe me
I'll never, never ever leave

And I know
There is nothing that I would not do for you
Forever be true
And I know
Although times can be hard
We will see it through
I'm forever in love
And I know
There is nothing that I would not do for you

Forever be true
And I know

Oh I know
Although times can be hard
We will see it through
I'm forever in love with you

from the ♥
i speak these words



Your absence wounds me,
your presence consoles me.
Days with you have always been sunny.
I need your protection,
I need you to bring me happiness.

When you left,
the clock stopped ticking,
my world stop spinning.
You were my world and yet
You brought me down to tears,
with your words, with your departure.
With you leaving me.

I can't find a cure for the open wounds of my days with you.

I'm sorry for all I've done,
I seek forgiveness.
Awaiting the day,
you finally realise, how much you mean to me.

I can't and will never love anyone, not the way that I loved you.

colors is sooo freaking irritating
and omg i had the shock of my lifee during class just now lah!
there was a "someone lookalike" and OMG i jumped lah when i saw the lookalike
elie couldnt stop laughing i swear. hahaha

then had diEss. yk babyy's class. hahaha
he is so cuttteee oH my goRdAz!!!
*(@#@*#&(@*#&(@*&#(@*&#
and i feel so proud of myself because i finished his work
and photoshop is fun

then went to studio and started rolling on the floor
irritating scully while she did her work
then wenta tm to meet jo-ann

had cafe cartel then brad & sculleeyy came
and we wenta walk around
got sea-monkeys & barney milkbottle LOLS

cabbed back, dropped jo-ann back then
brad dropped off at my house and scully continued on in the cab

staying in school till late tomorrow
french exam tomorrow

wish me luck biatches.

school work is freaking irritating me
i need to cut down on clubbing(s)
i have so many projects due
i hate visLi.
and i dont know what im supposed to do for C&E!!
i need to do well i need to do well i need to do well

the only lesson im putting much effort in is C&E and ComDi & Colors (eventho it sucks shit)
french freaking kills and so does VisLI cos i cant stand the freaking teacher
omgomgomg.
i miss drFun somehow. and how id give myself breaks to see you
i miss doing work PROPER. sighs


& oh, the fishes bought yesterday
DIED.
hahahha

i will meet you there
no matter where life will take me

i just want you to know

that i'll never stop
caring and missing you

"eh i saw emu in class just now"


HAHAAH

will you be there holding my hand?

schooled. visLi suckeddickk totally
techno-ed with seannnyy! & rei & elie & lennard & justin
i bought my baby guppies! haha
she is the cutest and i ♥ her manymany!

wenta school and waited for seanny to end
he made me watch SAW which i sadly didnt even bother watching
because i dont understand
so i ended up watching HAROLD&KUMAR

he came back from socio and we both left

gave my baby her guppies and her attempt to take pictures of the fishes
ARE LIKE SO CUTE LAH!
she took the digicam, and started snapping and
COUDLNT even see the fishes lah!
damn cutee. wanna drown her in fishwater. HAHA

invites to DXO this thursday.
admits 4.
if more people want, i can try getting more invites.

someday you will understand
that we were meant to be
in God's own plan

I miss somebody right now.
I don't watch much TV these days.
I love olives.
I own lots of books. -- Increasing my collection!
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I've watched porn movies.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes. -- Quite often now.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. -- Slightly.
I've broken someone's bones.
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
I'm paranoid at times. -- Most of the time.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I have long hair.
I have at least one sibling.
I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
I have a lot of mood swings. -- Everyone has their bad days.
I think prostitution should be legalized.
Slept with a suitemate.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I love to shop. -- Retail Therapy baby.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone. I dislike them. -- This would be true but i do hate someone.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in (a) God.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I currently like someone.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future. -- ONE girl.
I have changed a diaper before.
I have a lot to learn.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
I have at least 5 away messages saved.
I have tried alcohol or drugs before. -- Alcohol.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I would die for my best friends.
I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friend's ex.
I'm obsessed with guys.
I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
I study for tests most of the time.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I hate office jobs.
I think water rules.
I have thrown up from crying too much.
I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people. -- maybe
I adore bright colors. -- Sometimes.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I have ridden/owned a horse. -- Ridden & Owned
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I read trashy romance novels and I am ashamed.
I love wrestling.
If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.

One thing true about me: I've always meant every "I Love You"

they stayed till laate

my dad's new car is..
smaller than the one before and its no longer a mercs
but quite cool cos got remote control to the sound system HAHA!
and its damn smooothh. haha

alot of issues are pissing me off.
i feel a sudden massive irritating invasion
okay or whatever that meant

i was happily scratching my head
and i found a baluku
did i fall down and hit my head last night?

HURHUR.
clubbing, lately has been expensive.
i never used to buy drinks other than my 1standard drink thing
BUT NOW,
its massiveee money spending ahs

i am dreading christmas because

christmas falls on the 25th

and i know i wont be getting YOU on the 25th

supposed 6months.
christmas is gonna suck.

all i want for christmas is you
and I KNOW i wont be getting it.

reality stinks.

let me try to recall what hapened last night

i woke up. then i slept.
sleep after sleep
then people kept calling and i had to get ready.
min picked me up in a cab and we dinnered at fep
joellie came
we cabbed down to liquid
queue was pathetic but crowd eventually became good
we had too many shots & drinks
"here's to elieeeee!" & "here's to bites lipppp!!!" etc
1-for-1 killed.

i remmeber dancing with some random shitass
and my friend pulled me away from him
and from then on
i spent my entire night
downstair puking my life out
crawling all over the place
and i think people poured water on me
cos my top and pants were wet

never puked this much before
and i still feel crazy
the high ones had to look after the drunkards
and no one left normal.
which is pretty damn crazy
cos we were all friends and all were mad drunk/high together
quite funny

pictures uploaded and elie might be coming over
bye sluts

other related links:
min's lj
elie's lj

all i can freaking remember is

having way too many shots and bourbon coke
then getting saved by a friend from a touchy man

then puking my entire guts out
on the grass


the cab ride home seemed damn long
if i remember correctly
no one left sober
a night to remember definitely
the pavemen and grasspatches around liquid
is filled with puke
AND MINE.

goodnight.
my tummy's churning. i still need to puke

knowing little or nothing about me
DOES NOT mean you can tell about me to the whole damn world

telling the whole damn world
to even people you're not even close to
about the rejection and ME
WOULD seriously NOT win you any sympathy votes

REALLY.

and you're so freaking ANNOYING and PETTY
and PSYCHOTIC.

GO ON, and get freaking pissed drunk
then graciously continue in making a BIGGER fool outta yourself)
and after that TELL THE WHOLE DAMN WORLD about ME.

you WANT attention DONT YOU?
thank ME for GIVING YOU this damn ENTRY because
ITS FREE PUBLICITY FOR YOUR DAMN PATHETIC ASS

dont make yourself seem like of a much more pathetic loser
than you sadly already ARE.


have A GOOOD life fuckass because you'll need it
AND I DO NOT ONE TO HEAR ANYMORE
"i am so pathetic because farah like this like that to me" stories.


okay now go cry to the world :)
the walls have ears. i am the wall :)

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Time: 830pm
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message me for tix

i know im damn interesting lah OKAY

hahaha! okay farah chew fugg off

went to town with muh little niggga
cabbed to heeren and we walked to taka
(bloody traffic jam)
went around looking for her birthday present
then went to toys'r'us then go buy her present
blooody hell know how to spend money ah
primma donna in the making

then slacked at starbucks
then wenta meet my momma at city hall

bought
- a guess ring (DAMN OUT OF POINT)
- 2 guess bags
- a guess wallet
- zara dress
- fox pants
- 2 polo tees
all fromm city hall cos got salee there! HAHAHAHH!
mother atm so all's goood! HAHAH!

got home and 2 friends came over
slacked when to the playground to playy
then 2 of them including my brother and i took a cab down to my house macs and ate and talked cock
then 1 left leaving the other 1 here
so that friend and my bro and i walked back to my house
and my bro and my friend're outside watching tv and playing daidee

im sorry for even wanting.
im damn tired. i need to move on

and seriously
you piss the fucking malay outta me
seriously, FUCK OFF.
DONT FUCKING MAKE ME HATE YOU. DOG

I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

too damn sleepy

am going to town with my little bitch tomorrow
to look for her birthday present
and most prob we're going to have dinner at hyatt for her birthday
want to be how lucky?
my birthday fish&co her's hyatt. sianz ah!

and monday hopefully will bring her to school
her boyfriend better take care ah cos i dont wantt.

fucking sleeppy.

dont forget about us.

cant wait for saturday
my mum told me to go for ZOUKOUT cos her friends are going and they are getting rooms at shangri-la
but weird ah, i go alone right. knnccb
nvm lah, liquuid better be funn

And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while

filza just said
"jiejie now i can play daidee well already, ask daniel come play with me"
HURHUR.

friendly match right? HAHA!

so with little sleep last night,
i amazingly was half and hour early for french tutorial
my 2hr of d-hell then began.
HAHA! inside joke.

then had lunch with rachel (FINALLY!), elie, min, lennard and another guy dont know his name
at design canteen
damn funny lah we all talking like siao

then went to studio,
then for C&E which was surprisingly quite fun today
richard has alot of funny ideas
eg. stand infront of the mirror after bathing to "measure yourself" HAHAH!
and "droopy-eyed people look like their in constant orgasm"
HAHAHHA
he's quite foul-mouthed i must say.
but quite funny. haha

after C&E, went to studio to meet newlydoneup ahbeng & rei
then went for french lect with rach, carmen and kim
lect was killer ah,test is next weekk! *pulls whatever hair left on body out*

then took a bus back to bedok with min and kim
and wenta different tastes (MY FAV!) with min and elie
and OMG! lah!
the place has their own cat (and i still remember kim trying to kill it HAHA!)
and i was seriously breaking out in cold sweat cos the cat came near me
FREAKING FREAKED OUT LIKE A MOTHERFUCKING DOG ah!
I STILL HATE CATS!
talked about alot of stuffs then walked to georges with elie
then she waited for my cabb.

i think im quite evil. HAHA okay whatever lah dont care also.
i shall go find baldwin soon.
last night got cute baldwinS but aiyahhh! no chance lahh!
cant wait cant wait cant wait

if its loving that you want, you should make me your girl

just read neneh's blog and i shall do a tribute of 2005 soon
and to date, you're the best thing that has ever happpened to me
this year and ever.

and haha, manddaaaaa's telling me about
jcboys.
acboys are the new ♥ ah!
lucky woman's danng lucky to be in that school. HAHAH!

momo was fun
cute guys all over
met sk, joseph, royston all before clubbing
dad picked me up from clubbing

cant wait for liquid
i feel laggyy.

proper update tomorrow.


and i know you find reading my blog especially exciting

boy i miss you

i dont know how some people, can get so pathetic and suicidal.
like seriously WHAT THE FUCK?
you're already a MAJOR turnoff lah, and the things you do, just labels you MASSIVE TURN OFF
and the things youre saying and doing now, like massive turn off is not bad enough, you bloody hell want MAJOR BLOODY MASSIVELY HUGE TURN OFF right?

seriously lah, its damn funny lah. i mean not to be damn mean or whatever but
seriously,
what they telling me. OH MY GOD.
and going all out to ask people about me who're not even that close to me
eh seriously, CRAZY.
im sorry if im being straightforward and told you straight
I AM NOT INTERESTED. accept the reason i gave you because it definitely aint bullshit
until i forget about my previous relationship, i wont open up to anyone and allow anyone into my life

so ya whatever,
back to school update
went for colors, left 30mins into the class and walked to
IT, BUSINESS then DESIGN canteen with happymeal & nugget
ate then they left and i went to tie-dye room to meet scully
and left, skipped diEss because damn tired
and i dont like it when people stare at my chest
(not saying i got alot to show)

am gg to sleep for awhile then town to meet rei and all
then to momo
woah sianz


♥ your xmas dream girl

some people are just so freaky.

want to die ah! haha

and yes, jo-ann, oreo cheesecake please!

waited for sean to end socio and passed him his ipodyy
then took 69 to bedok with scully
and we had massive smelling experience ah!

took 40 to siglap and wenta meet lennard and elie
then we walked to starbucks and ben and friends came
did some work and did alot of stoning
then took a cab backk

and the whole time, i had MASSIVE BITCHFIT ATTACK
the need to bitch and slap and kick and punch some people
was tooo much for my chubby malay body to maintain
like, bragging would so make you any cooler? HURHUR.
bragging's like the next best thing besides smoking.
PUN.PUN.PUN.
okay im probably just being mean. HAHA

momomomomomomo
the selenge prank call's fucking funny. too bloody funnny
my dad was laughing like a bloody hamster when he heard it lah!


hmmm. i suppose i could be happy
and the past few days, hanging out with elie
very much has made me really regret the past we once had
a moment's never been dull with her impromto actions and all
and i dont know why, but i feell happy for her. HAHA gorilla
i will be happy, soon
still fighting the tears of yester fears.
and i seriously feel damn bad for doing what i did/am doing
but i cant help it just like i very much know how you cant help but do it to me too
how can you let someone love you without affecting free will?

and elie just told me something majorly disturbing yet fuckingly funny about someone
HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAH
penknife and saw club
WOAH hahah MAJOR TURN OFF


p/s: i think my sister has the potential of being a flasher
she just came running to me and flashed and ran away.
WOHWOHWOH.

am in school now
didnt go for VisLi

i need to bitch
OMG that BITCHMOTHERFUCKINGCUNTOFAWHOREFACEDCHEEBAI girl is so damn blooody suckup
and action popular,
MY GOD, i think my toes are like much more famous than her (insert more profanities here) face.
OMG i seriously CANNOT STAND HERRRR!!!!!!!! *@#@*#)@*#)@(*#)(@*#

& rei all keep disturbing me about "topless on the bed"
ARGHHH!!!!!!! they are DAMN IRRITATING! hahahahha
but quite funny, how a simple "lying topless on the bed" can become sucha JOKE and MAJOR IRRIRATION to me.
oooOoh babbYyyy HAH!
oh rei's sleeping soundle next to me now topless HAHA
eh fug, please dont disturb me about topless on the bed anymore PLEASE.


Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you

don't you know my tears will cause an inferno??
the boy is mine
imissyou


dont tell me cos it hurts

hush hush darling hush hush

How do I say goodbye to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh
Outweigh the bad.

I thought we'd get to see forever
But forever's gone away
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

I don't know where this road
Is going to lead
All I know is where we've been
And what we've been through.

If we get to see tomorrow
I hope it's worth all the wait
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.

i am a sad child
because
i havent checked my tp email for very long..
my safari got problem
HOW?


and i am super sad also because
i want my pink motorazr

maybe ill flirt and *bites lip around and try getting guys to buy for me

i am SADD also because
my throat hurts like a bitch and im coughing like a dying pussy

Thinking back on how things were
And how we loved so well
I wanted to be the mother
Of your child
and now it's just farewell

Put your hands in my hands
And come with me,
We'll find another end
And my head , and my head
On anyone's shoulder
Cause I can't be with you

if its loving that you need
baby come and share my world

i dont know why but sundays are really lazy-days
it took me 2839283022 messages and 2382038 missedcalls
to wake the living malay in me

so took a train to town
(and i hatee train rides UGH)
then wenta meet scully & rach at forever21

walked around ALOT.
in search of my FUCKING PINK MOTO RAZR at lucky plaza
FUCKING PLACE either DOESNT HAVE ANYMORE STOCK or its like 500+!!!
and i cant get a new phone because my plan can only be upgraded january
KANA SAI LAH!
hopefully i will get one by the end of the month lah
fucking why so fast sold out already lah CHEEEBAIIZZ!!
i was damn saddd lah seriously whole day want to jump down KIND HAHHA!
but seriously, damn idiot lah! how can so fastt no more stock want?
and singtel shops dont sell the pink ones why so cacat siahs!
I AM DAMN SAD

but whatever lah got myself new tops
from fcuk, bebe, mng, seed, t-box
whatever lah, but i still DAMN SADDD OKAY

@#*@(#*@(#*)@(*#)@*#@(#@&$ i AM DAMN SAD LAH
OMGGGG SERIOUSLY NO MOOOD TO DO ANYTHING ALREADY CAN!
dinnered at NYDC, sobbing over my roasted chicken rice.. SIGHS
I AM DAMN SAD OKAY.
GO BUY ONE MOTORAZR PINK ONE FOR ME


and who is the motherfucking cuntface cheebai who's been passing around my number ah?
YOUR MOTHER IS SHIT LAH PIG.

If it's loving that you want
Then you should make me your girl, your girl
If it's loving that you need
Then baby come and share my world, share my world
If it's loving that you want
Then come and take a walk with me, walk with me
Cause, everything that you need, I got it right here baby, baby

It been so long I've had this feeling
That we could be
Everything we've ever wanted baby
Your fantasy
I won't push to hard or break your heart
'Cause my love's sincere
I'm not like any other girl you know
So let me erase your fears

it gets harder
as i sit here watching you push yourself away from me

what you did to me
im doing it to someone else

i watch you walk away from me
and
he watches me walk away from him

WOAH LAN EH
why everyone now got motorazr phones i dont have!
KNNCCB! I WILL AND MUST BUY ONE!!!

I WANTT LARH IDIOTTT.
WHY THESE PEOPLE CAN BUY I CANNOTT!
WHERE TO FINDDD!! I DONT CARE!
TOMORROW THE SEARCH FOR PINK MOTORAZR BEGINS
AND I WILL BUY!!!
I DONT CARE I WANTT!

i feel scandalous.

which is both a good and bad thing

workthatclit

im excited already!

Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you

i feel like fuck

i swear my number's been circulating like a motherfucking dog

and if you're one of those cheebai bastards who've given my number to your friends
in search of FREE SEX,
kindly go fuck your saggy tit-ed grandmother and die


& bradley told me
not to bring back bad memories. but daniel sure as hell beats em any day
and like ive said before, no one can replace you EVER

today was fun
private jokes and bite lips & everything else
i hate beeer!
and i saw MY CHILDHOOD baldwinnn while on my way to paragon!!
how we used to horseback ride at our club (spore polo club)
& i had the ultimate crush on him because he's so dopey (arabian american IS DOPEY)
singing songs and funny actions
i had fun today but somehow the hyperness wore off and yeahs.

and i ♥ the pictures from the camera and the ones i just developed
you looked extremely cute in them and i really miss you


the only thing i have now of you
are memories beyond goodness & pictures


im not interested in him. PERIOD.


when boys collide.

pictures uploaded BITCH.

if whatever happened that night didnt happen
i wouldnt be typing ironical lines of bullshit
contradicting every single thing im saying

i just dont want to miss you tonight
and i wish i could turn back time
and make things,everything between us right

is it still wrong for me to say,
i miss you?

schooled. bedok interchanged with ben and lennard
bleah

was super hyper during comDi with justin
but somehow hyperness died

ive come to realise, there can only be one you, one us
and nothing can ever replace what we once had.
no one and nothing can and somehow
there is a sense of longing-ness that still lives me in
the completion and perfection i once felt towards you and us
i seek in another only to not be able to find that beauty of what we once had
he can never replace you because there's just something about you that made me love you for who you are

i dont know why im slowly going back to square one
everytime i try to fly i fall without my wings i feel so small
i guess i need you baby

everything thats been happening just made my tummy turn
im not that into or interested in anyone or anything
for ive said before, you'll always be my fav. one
& for you id bleed myself dry

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive

I just want you to know who I am

its 3.48 in the fucking morning
and i am not asleep because
patricia's finally online
and im having a blast talking to her
and currently her cat's acting cute and i hate cats

patty i miss you ROLLY POLLY.
please come back soon so that i can bring you to dopeshit clubs for free
and we're going to thaipan every single meal together
and spy on your cute neighbour
and laugh while you do the ROLLY POLLY

venus envy says:i wish i get reincarnated into a cats body then i can go meow meow

havent you heard.. how we rock each other's world?

bahh, ben's out somewhere surrounded with high/drunk people and im hungry
i want to eat babEH. i want to eattt im damn hungrrryyyy!!!
i want macccs!