Your Primary Phishy Personality Factor is Colourful Guppy.

Key Personality Preferences : Active & Relational
Key Value Displayed : Popularity (To be Well-liked by People)
Key Motivator: Recognition (I.e. To be Recognised)
Key Concern: Rejection
Key Emotion to be Harnessed: Frivolity (e.g. Excess Playfulness)
Key Complementing Values to be Nutured: Perseverance, Integrity, Respect, Cooperation, Loyalty

Potential Strengths: Colourful, Cheeful (Bubbly), Cute (Attractive), Confident, Carefree, Creative, Idea-Fluent (lots of ideas), Spontaneous, Refreshing (Full of surprises), Humorous, Enthusiastic, Warm, Sociable (Very Friendly), Popular, Exciting, Interesting, Inspiring, Take Initiative, Encouraging, Persuasive.

Potential Check Points: Chasing Rabbits (Scatterbrained), Easily Distracted, Playful (in excess), Undisciplined, Long-winded (Talkative), Indulging (e.g. Trivial Improvements), Poor Listerner (Interrupting, Dominating Conversation), Forgetful, Unpredictable, Haphazard, Over-Permissive, Naïve, Attention (or Honour) Seeking, Show-off, Disorganised (Messy), Loud, Restless, Fickle-minded, Over-Committed, Not Serious When Necessary (Frivolous), Lack

Your Secondary Phishy Personality Factor is Peaceful Angelfish

Key Personality Preferences: Reflective & Relational
Key Value Displayed: Peace (Harmony)
Key Motivator: Security (Protected)
Key Concern: Disharmony (& Fast Pace)
Key Emotion to be Harnessed: Worry (e.g. Excess Fear or Anxiety)
Key Complementing Values to be Nutured: Initiative, Integrity

Potential Strengths: Calm (Gentle, Mild, Controlled), Peaceful (Mediating), Amiable (Friendly in a reserved manner), Kind, Patient (Tolerant, Good with Routines), Easygoing (Obliging, Agreeable, Adaptable), Cooperative (Non-Assertive), Contented (Satisfied), Consistent (Predictable), Diplomatic (Tactful, Inoffensive), Slow and Steady, Persistent, Good Listener, Loyal (Faithful, Dependable), Pleasant, Restrained (Self-Controlled)

Potential Check Points: Compromising (in excess), Aimless (lacking in ambition or direction in life), Lack Initiative, Lazy, Unenthusiastic, Uninvolved (Withdrawn), Indecisive, Boring (Dull, Plain), Over-Kan-Cheong (Anxious, Fearful), Worrisome, Too Slow (Sluggish), Bo-Chap (Indifferent), Stingy (Calculative),Reluctant, Pessimistic

sometimes we dont do things we want to do
because we dont want others to know
we want to do them

but why do we live to please the others and not ourselves?
LALALALA.

i begin to dance just a little bit just to turn you on.
and you bleed just to know you're alive

i cant stand bossy people =
took 8 and ALICIA was in the same bus :)
met JONATHAN at school's entrance and we went up to VSC STUDIO.
CHAI was there and i think im like so dumb. HAHA.
had BaPho and again, the blurrshit me didnt get a shit of what was talked about.
BOO! ohh and BOO was being so sweet; he carried my alot of bags around for me
AWWWW.
after BaPho; searched high and low for VisCo only to realise there's no class again
slacked around, went for training.
am in a dilemma.
bowling or cheerleading?

i dont wanna waste 4-5 yrs of bowling.
i wanna be able to bowl for school cos ive always been doing that.
i already have many friends in bowling.
ive got all the basics needed for bowling.

but cheerleading is fun.
HOW?

im gg to town tomorrow. take pictures. bleahs.
i hate being stuck in such decisions.

so my dad sent me to school (KC).
collected my O LEVEL CERT; lameassshit.
met the people still in school.
cabbed back to school (TP).
bummed around; talked cock at the VSC LOUNGE; JONATHAN was there!
and when for TYPO.
fun class cos we were all so blurr with the MAC comps. HAHA!
super cacat.WEI YI and i obviously cheated and copied other people's work
and i took so motherfucking long to print my stuffs only to realise that my printer's settings is all wrong.
i love typooo!!! :)
after TYPO had CREATIVE THINKING; hahah!
the lecturer's super gay man!!! damn motherfucking gay.
had break; went to RESERVOIR with VANESSA & HISHAM?
after CreTh; kind TIMOTHY waited for me to end.. awww
then we wenta meet the rest; WEI YI, GRACIA & DAWN
and we took so damn long to do the NANCY's work. HAHAH.
oh before the rest came; CHAI & JUSTIN were at the LOUNGE.
their tables are so damn coool & cute!!! HAHAH!
and those two guys crack me up baddd :)

stayed in school till almost 9.. took a bus back and yeahs im tired.
another long day tomorrow.
im happyyy! :)
youmakemesmilelove.

so my dad picked me up from work
we went to my aunty's house at bucklery road.
had BBQ and chitchatted.
i felt so good man! haha
people sponsoring my everything and now..
i got myself a PHOTOSHOP CS!! HAHA!
one of the latest editions. WOOOTS :)

and my other uncle's MAC might be going to me! YAY
&& hopefully my cousin'd be able to hook me up with a part-time designing job
haha. feels so good man
played dai-dee and dad drove us back.

photoshop's major fun!
am gg to attend a seminar on it.
back to KC tomorrow then lecturers back in tp
followed by meeting with my colours group.
imissyouboy.

so exciting.

hopefully id be able to celebrate my bday twice this year if all goes well..

1) is with my friends
2) in july with poly mates combined together with jonathan and maybe joyce.

so exciting. haha
im excited.
i feel like clubbing this weds

bulllshiiittt.

am at work now. muahaha. i love the bodyshop stuffs i bought last night. damn nice to use lah! haha.
BBQ later tonight; i cant wait.
&& i bought a ringer top from PENINSULAR just now.
i am hungryy!

let's further improve our vocabulary and find out the meaning of these words.

slut; a woman considered sexually promiscuous. a woman prostitute.
bitch; a woman considered to be spiteful or overbearing. a lewd woman
whore; a prostitute. a person considered sexually promiscuous

haha! i dont think i fall under the category SLUT or WHORE ya know unless you dont know how to read the following above (which is sadly.. very sad).

the slut's laughing like a whore. HMMMMM.

you:
i shouldnt have believed all that bullshit you told me. all about her understanding blah blah and she's fine with our friendship. WHAT DID I TELL YOU HUH? i tried avoiding you, you coax-ed me back. you told me you wanted things to be the way it was, you told me things will be fine. WHAT HAPPENED?. i shouldnt have believed a bull of what you said seriously.
i asked you before; whats a friendship with limitations and restricitions? you answer me.
you told me you wanted things to be the way it was like before.. i was reluctant to give in and when i finally did.. look what happened.
whatever i cant be bothered already. but im not gg to let go of this friendship because of someone so unreasonable and selfish.

...

dont hate or dislike me because of your own insecurities.
it takes two hands to clap. im not even bothering to clap.
i am not even interested in being the third party in your relationship
and i never did. you can ask her that. ive said that at the beginning of everything.
i hope im not asking to much; making you change your opinion of me would be totally out of the question but seriously why cant you just let us be friends?
plus; you've made your hatred towards me almost known.. isnt that only right for me to make mine known too?
if you have that anger about me in you.. why cant i be angry with you?
what did i even do to you huh? (im not trying to sound sympathetical here whatsoever)
just leave me alone. im not even near interested in her.

---

work was fine. spent 87.02 on bodyshop products. im gg broke. my body aches; i think its the mutton. lunched with you (:

come around to sleep says:
i have boney fingers!
come around to sleep says:
boney fingers dont make good massage hands haha

he wanna be how cute lah! haha oh "come around to sleep" is chris chai by the way.

the funniest thing all day, thanks :)

love is an everyday psychology.
1) birds of a feather flock together as the more similar you are the better
2) pposite poles attract as human seek for traits in their other half which is not present in them and opposite attractions can compliment each other
3) love is temporary. love has always been tempory thus the invention of marriages

love is a need for reunion.

how do you measure love?
love's just bullshit to me eventho i very much want to believe in it.
it just seem that im not willing to allow myself be vulnerable and
to allow myself to put my heart and soul into something which will never last.
the possibility that you'll just crash and fall anytime is freaky.
the bliss and pleasure will not compensate the hurt and emotional rollercoaster ride love brings.

met CHANEL and CO. at MENSA.
after that wenta BUGIS to meet my family.
we lunched at SEOUL GARDEN;
walked around BUGIS ST looking for my dad's friend's shop. HAH.
after that BRAS BASAH to get my art materials.
met a classmate there. spent $116.50 on drawing materials alone.
then wenta FUNAN/PENINSULAR; met afew classmates there also.
bought myself a CANON SLR cam. $450.
bought myself all those TEA TREE stuffs also.

im totally broke.
ive got work tomorrow.
need to do my assignments now.

i think ive got a crush on you

im at the school's computer lab now.
haha. fun day today.
am here with JUSTIN & JONATHAN
i need to pee.
shall wait for my mum to call me then head on down to town
class was damn funn. haha. ask me about it.
its super hilarious. it involves;
sex toy dummy + nancy + the colour red.

HAHA.
((:
its times like this that i want it to never end.
many new assignments to do.
slowly; with babysteps im beginning to cope.
im happy.

interesting talk on the phone late late late last night.
very very interesting.

Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter
Togetherness is all I'm after
Whenever you need me
I'll be there

ive got to stop procrastinating.
ive got to start planning.
ive got to get many things.
ive got many things coming up.
i need to set my priorites straight.
ive got to have a goal. a target.
ive got to be less fickle.
ive got to start doing my work.
ive got to get my ass down to doing at least something productive.
ive got to stop being online ALL THE TIME.
ive got to get used to poly life ASAP.
i seriously need to stop procrastinating.

i swear JONATHAN's the bullshit king. HURHUR.

so i wenta school earlier; met VANESSA, BRADLEY and i forgot whats her name girl. then BRADLEY and I went to the PID place; we met HISYAM and his gang of funny people. haha. smoked blah blah and i was being suan-ed man! cos i was telling "i forgot her name girl no.2"she action wear tudung all haha. MASSS ORRGYY!. lolls.

had Marketing for Designers. blah blah and i left for home. BOOO.

school at 9 tomorrow, ends at 12. then am gonna meet JONATHAN for the APEL shit and bullshit our way thru the assigment. then meet my mum (:
i wanna shop.

i need to plan. alot of planning is needed. OMGZ OMGZ OMGZ.
ok im quite hyped up. oh no im crazy.

its scary thinking that im already in poly.
10 over years of being "spoonfed" & having proper guidance from teachers has left me totally dependant on such figures.

the lecturers keep emphasizing
"you're responsible for your own learning"
that sentence is so freaky.
im responsible for my own learning; my future; my life.

ya i know im always responsible for what becomes of me but
a huge drastic sudden jump from being guided all the time to being left alone to find everything yourself is very scary.

im scared. like seriously.
miss a lesson; i'll lag behind
hand in a project late; im dead.

the thing about design is that its all down to creativity.
tell me. how long can our creative juices feed us with our income?
the competition is tough; work is definitely gonna be hell.
and plus, there are no books. thats the scariest part
because everything is everywhere and there is no right/wrong answers
(which i very am used to already)

i have no idea on what im talking about.
bottom line is; im scared.
im too used to the norm i had in pri/sec school.
too used that when told to stand on my own; i can almost crumble and die.

am i the only one standing stranded on the same ground?

im in love with the song
DANCE LIKE THIS- Wyclef Jean feat. Claudette Ortiz
super shaggable song. HAHA.
I never really knew that you could dance like this..
She make a man wanna speak spanish..
Como se llama? Bonita. Mi casa, su casa.
When you move you got me hypnotized,
especially when I look into his eyes.
Hey papi I wanna see you do the dance to the Conga.

i dont know what to do for my birthday. and school later and shopppp tomorrow. LOVE.
life's all goood. ROARS.

IS SHE PRETTY? HAHAHAHHAHA! ok inside joke.

i stupidly skipped VisCo yest. cos eventho the lecturer's not in town; he got a replacement teacher. BLEAHS. and i tink ive got work calling out for me. bleahs.

so i went to TAMPINES to get my EZ-link done. then wenta shop around FOX; got myself a top ((: then i had MACS. and i wenta school and i puked my lunch out. not once but 7times and i so weak even before class started i almost died.
went for DrFun; which is drawing fundamentals. i cant draw for nuts! haha. had break and wenta meet JONATHAN at the CANTEEN. and haha; something funny kinda happened. LOLLS. i was scaring him with my pukes. HAHAHAH! and that one was there haha! jonathan couldnt stop doing the "LOSER" shit. hahhaa. after classes i went home.

classes starts at 6pm tomorrow.

friday- after school BRAS BASAH to buy art stuffs
saturday- work then buy my camera.
sunday- work

ive got to buy so many million stuffs this weeked. and im working at FUNAN this weekend. bleahs. so many things to do omgZ.
looks like i cant club anytime soon. bleahs. BEN invited me to COCCO this saturday. booo.

i might be COCCO LATTE-ing this saturday; it all depends on the mood first.

i have school later at 3. i am so trying very hard to avoid that one. omgZz.

oh the other night (2nights ago), PAT, DAPH & I had a major bitching session okay. super hilarious. HAHA.

im trying to keep it together but im falling apart.

after a few nights of absence, finally talked to that friend. but i shall still remain as the bitch ah. HAHAHHA.

shall leave house early; gonna get my EZ-LINK done. bleahs. most prob am gg to TOWN tomorrow before school (which happily starts at 6PM!)


Will I always be there for you?
When you need someone,
Will I be that one you need?
Will I do all my best to, to protect you?
When the tears get near your eyes
Will I be the one that's by your side?
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promiseI promise I will

you'remy eyecandy

oh and;
HAPPY SEVENTEEN JOYCE!

jellyman. says:
WATCH LA

she keeps insisting i watch the ANGELINA JOLIE PORN.
god. im so not that corrupted.

and yeahs! i finally got my birkenstock sandals specially delievered from BANGKOK. haha
i think its a fakie but who cares. i like!

thanks silly (:

CANDY SHOP- 50cent

when you left, i lost that part of me.
that part no one can ever replace.
until now i still hope to find that missing part i lost in someone else.
im still searching but for now,
you'll always be my love.
love is nothing without you.
i wont find another like you.

i wont let time erase one bit of yesterday
and i have learnt that nobody can take your place
though we can never be
ill keep you close to me and ill remember
a place in time still belongs to us
stays preserved in my mind
in the memories there is solace

ill always think of you and me; LOVE.

here comes the showdown.. what goes around comes around.

so i wenta meet JONATHAN first before school. silly boy was in the same bus as me and we didnt even know. HAHA. we had breakfast then headed for the TCC; super boring talks omg. HAHA. and we were self-entertaining. everything was just so gayy HAHA! saw afew cute people. happiness. haha and i told him about that one hahaha! i kept trying to run away from him and i tink its abit obvious? HAHA ok whatever. BEN's super lame lah. cannot stand it. oh yeah, and the few of us gotta repeat APEL; BLEAHS. so lame.
so we took so damn motherfucking long to find the next class. thank god there're afew familiar faces in BaPho. and class was short. after that JOYCE, BEN, JONATHAN and I wenta lunch; JONATHAN left for his lameass drawing class with blondie. HAHA then the 3 of us when to reservoir. blah blah then i went to the CHEERLEADING booth and helped or semi-helped in recruiting people. and i signed up for BOWLING!. i kinda miss bowling. haha and we dont have to pay a BOMMB! for bowling fees!!! yayy! i can still remember spending at least 2k a year for bowling lessons alone minus the expenses of my bowling balls + accesories. bleahs!

im excited for tryoutts!! yayy! hopefully my 140/60 avg. is still attainable. HOPEFULLY.

things to do/get/coming up:

• ez-link
• bowling tryouts (19th June)
• skirt
• pens
• SLR camera by next week
• my buuurrthhhdayy! (8th june) & im still thinking what to do for my buurthday, who to spend with and where and when. HURHUR.
• relative's wedding
• expo exhibition; and hopefully i'd be able to be with alicia

&&&

i saw HIM todayyy!!!! omggggg!! *orgasms* i like i like i like!!! omg he is so cute lah!!!!! @&@*#&@*#

JONATHAN's complaining that his drawing lessons now are damn boring. how come i dont have drawing? haha. and i dono whats the plans for tomorrow. oh wells; today was kinda fun. at least i did have fun. HAHAHA.

why dont they just let me live?

i am seriously the blurr-est person alive.

i dont know where to meet tomorrow.
i dont know what time im supposed to be there.
i dont know what to wear.
i dont know what to bring.
i dont know what the plans are for tomorrow.

i am officially labelled; BLURR.

roars. but im excited for school though!
there'll be that one to see
another that one and another that one and another that one

showed my mum the REFRESH pics. super funny lah.
roars. wish me luckk !

here i go,
scream my lungs out and try to get to you
you are my only one I let go,
but there's just no one that gets me like you
you are my only, my only one

come back baby please cos we belong together.
who else am i gonna lean on
when times get rough
who's gonna talk to me on the phone
till the sun comes up
who's gonna take your place
there ain't nobody there

we belong together's on constant repeat mode. i love. no one.

secretly, you're the only thing
that lifts me up and makes me smile
i need you


the sudden invasion of cute bastards.

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promiseI promise I will

Will I take tender care of you?
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you
Will I be there to make you strong and to lean on?
When this world has turned so cold
Will I be the one that's there to hold?

fucking stop asking me for money you fuckass.
im not your damn ATM machine or money provider.
FUCKYOUBASTARD.
first it was 4k, fine gave.
now another 2k? yeah i print money WHAT.


love feels right when its wrong.
how true

im not okay i promise;
why do i miss you crazy?
i dont believe in love so whats this?
every rose has its torns. im the rose with trillion x1million torns.

i could be a wolf in disguise
i could be an angel in your eyes
never judge a book by it's cover

you know ill always be here for you

go download the song;
keep the fire burning by beverly knight


dont wanna love you if you dont love me
dont wanna need you when you wont need me too
dont wanna tell you this now, but it wouldnt be right
if i didnt tell you this tonight

when i was down and on my knees,
looked up and you were there
somehow you knew and found me
you were the answer to my prayers
you shined a light when it was dark,
and opened up my eyes
you led the way when i was lost
and you helped me realize
that i will never walk alone, cause you'll be by my side
i don't know what i'd ever do without you in my life

one can never have the best of both worlds.

im looking at the campREFRESH pics and i cant stop laughing!!! so funny! haha.

& chris chai is so motherfucking lame i swear. HAHAHA.

&& so many parties coming up. you ask me to go. another you ask me to go. please ah
im not rich plus ive got school.
gimme weds/fris/sats parties ONLY. bleahs

missyouu (:
goodness, im talking so much crap with you im gonna explode.

excessive flirting's never good. HAHA

people should quit asking me if im attached or why im not out with my boyfriend.

firstly i dont have one and i dont plan to have one.
flings & everything with no strings attached are my kind so relationships can suckcock and die.

and my love life's a mess (if you actually call it even a love life)
i shall take whatever that comes but im always picky.
superficiality is still very much in me.

i quote from an article in the papers today:
"a few moments later, a handsome man did the exact same thing (except he spoke immaculate english and his name was not Thomas) and i was alright with his hand on my waist. not a jerk. just a charming man.
i have nothing to say in defence.
call me superficial, but well, the world IS unfair"

love is crazy

relationship;
an issue im sure many have thought about and even experienced. its sucha chore isnt it? love's like bullshit. so much for my love is like WOAH.
much commitment, effort, time and energy put into it can be smartly used to like study? or shop? or whatever. its so tiring right? RIGHTTT!??
haha.
loving oneself should come first; someone loving you is just bonus.
and love's not forever; if you do think about it.. it will end one day in death or whatever.
imagine putting your heart soul intestines guts everything into a relationship only to see it fail in the end? woah like door slammed on the face only siah. everybody gets a chance to burn, you can take it as a lesson learnt.


but still, a sugardaddy will always make me smile. HAHA.

Baby is that your girlfriend?
I got my boyfriend
Maybe we can be friends na na na na na na

i want to rant further but i need to eat. i shall continue later.
pardon me for being so nonsense im bored. pat isnt talking to me.

IRIS- GOO GOO DOLLS makes me orgasm (well almost)

was supposed to meet you today but i cant, family plans etc. and im afraid of putting my heart/soul into this. into everything that has been happening. everything has been too damn fast? roars.

wenta BUKIT PANJANG? or was it BUKIT BATOK? ok whatever; had some engagement shitt. cousins and i did our usual scandalous stuffs. damn funny the way we get all sneaky. (:
talked on the phone and i fell asleep. sylver asked me out but i cant. im too lazy + ive got no mood to go out + i am sleeppy (yes, still)

1 , 2, 3, 4, 5 6!
you know we can do alot of thinggs

jonathan's the best
BUT UNFORTUNATELY
im the world's greatest
...and he went "OMG"


eh my COUGARS cheerleading song in my comp. ((:

i know that he loves me cos he told me so

love's bullshit :)
& i cant sleep. i feel so random
and i feel so anti-love.
sara should talk to me more often; im sucha wiseman when it comes to logical (well almost) stuffs.

i get total hairstand (in other words GOOSEBUMPS) when people try to be tehhhh~
ya you know those kind.. tehhhh. ya TEHHH.
omg so gross.

darling & all those fakely sugar-coated words DO NOT work on me.

it doesnt pay to be fickle. because being spoilt for choice only makes one very very veryy selfish and confused and (fillinmoreappropriatewords)

it doesnt pay to be confused; because with your already state of confusion.. more unwanted confusing confusion will arise only to confuse you further.

nowadays when i wake up, my voice'll sound very funny.
why so manly?

so many thoughts running through my head.
im not gonna let a dejavu happen to me.
the freaky replica of yesteryears freaks the hell out of me

so its not hard to fall when you float like a canonball i wish.

i didnt know what i was doing when i slept with you
go ruin someone else's mind i need mine back so just say good-bye
(ok i cant help being random)


ps: im hungry

I am a mountain
I am a tall tree
Ohhh, I am a swift wind
Sweepin' the country
I am a river
Down in the valley
Ohhh, I am a vision
And I can see clearly
If anybody asks u who I am
Just stand up tall look 'em in the Face and say

I'm that star up in the sky
I'm that mountain peak up high
Hey, I made it
I'm the worlds greatest
And I'm that little bit of hope
When my backs against the ropes
I can feel it mmm
I'm the worlds greatest

I am a giant
I am an eagle
I am a lion
Down in the jungle
I am a marchin' band
I am the people
I am a helpin' hand
And I am a hero
If anybody asks u who I am
Just stand up tall look 'em in the Face and say

I'm that star up in the sky
I'm that mountain peak up high
I made it
I'm the worlds greatest
And I'm that little bit of hope
When my backs against the ropes
I can feel it
I'm the worlds greatest

you and your bullshit
:)


time cant erase a feeling this strong

i should refrain from making harsh judgements of a person just because he happens to be a dirty rotten no good son of a bitch :)

so 3cheers for sweet revenge
(HELENA-CHEMICAL ROMANCE)

i miss mandyy! woman; we better meet up soon okay! LOVE YA!

the weather's so nice so sleepp! so i slept for like 5-6 hours and i like!

my mum has been supplying me with loads and loads of GUAVA JUICE w/ pear bits and i likee! && she bought so many million bottles of STARBUCKS coffee those sold in the supermarket kind. ahh.
pigoutsession

im still figuring out on how to read my timetable.
dumbster. HA.

am not going out today; i was hoping my mum'd bring me to the FOX WAREHOUSE SALE near my house but; that woman has some other plans for herself minus me instead.
i need to shop shop shop !

he didnt msg me last night!! i think he must have been like totally tired and stuff since he has been in camp for the past week. heard jam & hop were playing nice songss. hehs.

nicholas was telling me that there'll be some party on the 30th MAY at PARADIGM & another one on the 31st MAY at COCCO LATTE. how very interesting.

looks like jonathan wont be in most of the classes id be in; hopefully joyce'll be with me :)

new pics uploaded

i dont know how to read my timetable.

thats mothersad.

so my comp died on me for the past few days.. roars.
the repairman came this morn and my dad made sucha huge fuss about the amount.
but seriously $140 is alot to pay for servicing alone; i think we got cheated.

past few days; ive been having DESIGN SCHOOL'S ORIENTATION CAMP.
it wasnt as fun as expected but i made many new friends :)
sentosa's night outing was fun; ALICEE!.
jonathan's like major clown lah! so cute. why so humpy?

past few days have been very very tiring and hectic and packed.
i cant wait for poly to start (TUESDAY).
and im so damn bloody dumb when it comes to admin stuff; roars.
jonathan got his timetable already; dumbass me still am trying very hard to find the thing on the web. and oh yeah, talking about webs, my "secondary school" written in TP is RAFFLES GIRLS. i for once feel SMART -grins

oh ive got avid readers of my blog. haha if you really dont like my life or what i do; please dont continue reading (:

my phone bills are gonna explode lah. my mum/dad's gonna slaughter and skin me alive.
him & him; omg i'll just die trying to keep up with them both.

was supposed to get my tertiary ez-link card done today but i ended up going to town meeting a certain friend then to CITY HALL and met CHANEL & Co.
we then headed down to ACJC for cheerleading and MELI & I left for town for dinner.

so many things to do yet so little time
- ezlink card
- get my pens/pencils
- get my bag

ROARS

he's so swwweett; ive been down with motherhorrible coughs and ive been sick and he even offered to come over to give me medication blah blah and keep me company.
meltable. roars.

&& he no2 is so mothercute. AHHHH

heislove&&makesmehappy

orientation today; wasnt as fun as i expected. shitass GLs grr. faked sick and wenta meet PEILI & CLARA & TESS & JON and more people came blah blah. took a bus back with PEILI and that woman thinks she funny noe. PUKEY. haha we had dinner at my house and she went home. bleahs.

honey (:

Sometimes I don't call
Like I don't care at all
But secretly, you're the only thing
That lifts me up
And makes me smile
When I'm unhappy
All you gotta do is call
And suddenly things don't really
Seem so bad at all

hehs so i cabbed down to PS; met LYNETTE, PEILI & JEREMY. the couple left so PEILI & I wenta ROCKYS and slacked and waited for PAUL then the 3of us + LYNETTE wenta catch AMITYVILLE. goodness the show wanna be how freaky lah! haha i almost died man! jodyy. ROARS.

after that wenta MERIDIEN blah blah; KANE came with SYLVER. something funny happen while in the toilet; i couldnt control my laughter HAHAHHAHA!

after that we cabbed down to CINE and walked to TAKA GARDEN. LYNETTE's poor heels broke so we wenta get her new shoes. and then we wenta INDOCHINE. so hard to get in OMG. LYNETTE & I are damn cunning. haha but it was damn fun lah! hahaha we tricked the people all. hahahha my partner in crime.

music wasnt that great when everything started.. but eventually the songs became better :) and PHYLLIS & SYLVER bastard me lah! HAHAHAHHAHA. rub the boobs~ hahhaa

left at bout 2plus with PEILI & SYLVER. stayed there till 10plus in the morning. we had breakfast opposite and did alot of nonsensical craps (: PEILI's so motherfucking lame lah i swearrr. ROARS. SYLVER left at about 8plus9.. PEILI & I slept in the office till 10plus and we cabbed home; she dropped me off first and omg in the cab something funny happened la! chewingGUM. HAHAHHAA. she couldnt stop laughing. omg man.

i shall not sleep and only sleep later tonight. i had fun :)

TOMORROW IS DESIGN SCHOOL ORIENTATION!!! I START SCHOOL TOMORRROWW (: IM SO EXCITEDDDD!!

16-20MAY- REFRESH05orientation
18-19MAY- overnight camp in school + night activites in SENTOSA *orgasms*
21MAY- FOC&FOW reunion @ siloso beach SENTOSA

pictures will be up soon. LOVE.

you know you can always call on me you're my eye candy

Once I met you

Love began to grow

But I deny it

Making sure it doesn't show

I know I can't get my hopes up

Like I did once before

But if I say I don't like you

Why do I yearn for you more?

I want to fall into your arms

Hold you so tight

I want to kiss you

And have you only in sight

I need you so bad

And I want us to be

But I'll never tell you

Though I wish you'd see

I'm still so wounded

About broken loves from the past

But if you'd be with me

I know we would last

Too bad I won't have you

No matter how hard I'll try

Because I never get the one

I want I'm just left here to cry

But you'll never know

Because I'll just hide

I can't tell you the truth

I'll wait for the love to subside

So I'm stuck here

Wishing you will love me

But until my feelings are gone

A secret love is all you'll be

bus-ed to town with PEILI; we had SEOUL GARDEN together with DAPH. we had this mothergay guy next to us. hahaha PEILI was irritated. hahhaa. then TESS came. talkedd blah blah. poor DAPH ate too much til she puked. LOLL and i kept doing the CATWALK in the toilet. lalalala. after that, we wenta TAKA, TESS & PEILI waited for DAPH & I to shop. we both bought bags! HAHAHHA. and we saw nice shoess. love love! after we were done shopping, we wenta CINE. i wanna get a skirtt. omgg lah! someone be my sugardaddy!. blah blahs then i saw the GLs and MRCUTEGUY! i like i like! i was so happy, go ask TESS. loll. after that we wenta TAKA GARDEN to meet PAUL & KANE there. the funny tree near us macam joker siah! the coconut fell lah! HAHAHA. i got all cranky. booo. LYNETTE, JEREMY, KANE, PAUL, PEILI & I bused to MERIDIEN and bummed around i got all emo thanks to "LET ME LOVE YOU" and i got PAUL all emo too. im sorry! haha.cabbed back with kane. im feeling very cranky.im happy i saw him (:but at the same time i dont know what im feelingwhy do i feel the way i do towards you? please someone tell me what to do. i dont wanna get hurt like before. i dont wanna fall and have no one catching me.

camp was a blast. had so much fun; loved every single moment of it. (minus the "no bathing" & sleepless parts)

had the coolest group members & GLs. met so many new people; saw afew eye-candies. like so steammy.

had very HORNY games; goodness! haha had this game; we had to pass soaked sponge (soaked with salt water and another one.. my fav. PEANUTBUTTER) using our mouths. hahha. and me steph and i forgot who were made to kiss 3 guys; pengZ.

the games played were MAJOR HORNY; everyone was. LOLL. had the JAM & HIPHOP thingy.. played great songs.. grinding session & my encouter with a steamed dick HAHAHA. clubbing atmosphere minus smokes & alcohols. LOVED IT.

i had so much funn; omg lah! HAHA.

the cheers we had were like so gang cheers. HAHAA. damn cute. esp the FUNKY CHICKEN cheer.

and the last day; i hugged the most people i can ever hug in a single dayy & MRCUTEGUY!! hahhahahaha he's so cute lahh! and one of the GL gave me some stupid name JEPON KIA loll.

no regrets at all. bonds made; im happy (:

mrcuteguy made me happy!

was supposed to sentosa today BUT it drizzled so; i took a bus down with peili to harbourfront met paul had lunch and off to town. loll. paul & i were so cacat lah. meowss ((: im so sleepppy. boo. and today in town; i kept looking out for mrcuteguy. AHHH!!! hahahhaa.

i will wipe away your tears simply just by loving you

we all need one simple reason
something to believe in
i know that
ive got minee

i will wipe away your tears simply just by loving youu. - i think is this super nice (:

haha; i evilly woke peanutman from her sleep. LOLL. lunched at some JOO CHIAT restaurant.. damn nice lah the food. my mum spent 300+ on my baju kurung. so not me to wear em lah. HAHA. then blah blahs; wenta visit my greatgrandma at WOODLANDS, dad picked us up.

ive got camp tomorrow; i know you'll miss me. HAHA

like peanut butter & jelly

lol;
i cried lah when i was web-caming pat. i miss her so much (: but im happy we've been talking alot and stuff. i love you woman!

talking about crying; haha!
some people really really indulge in self-pity. shedding sympathetically useless crocodile tears. not tired ah? forever gotta replenish water know. hahah! && so much for self-proclaiming ah.. like pat said "soon, soon...aft surgery"... haha so major HAIRSTAND omg, my ingrown hair also wanna stand but cannot man! showing of the pictures? HAHAHA. oh victim #3million down. NEXT. hahahah!! omg lah! indulging in self-pity wont get you anywhere. haha and thanks pat for the reassurance; im not always wrong.. just like how that umbrella is so moses lims' HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAH!

bitchmode activated

so today, i wenta UNITED SQUARE; sister had some baking shit to attend LOL. finally got myself my damn removal cream; ahhhh hairyyy!!! MUAHAHA.

trained to TOWN/CINE; met MATTHEW & MANROSS at K-POOL; then JOHN & GF came. blah blah, wenta ROCKYS; DP, PAUL & ALOY came. lunched at FOODCOURT. . blah blah. wenta TAKA then INDOCHINE to drink. shared with PEI LI LONG ISLAND TEA; its like a steamy drink ah. HAHA

im the FUN(D) MANAGER of the singles club (: HAHAHA!

then; JAC & TESS & MELI came. heeren-ed spinelli; cabbed back.

there's always us dp

you know we all love youu (:

roars.

so yesterday started off with me going over to PEI LI's house. im sucha dumbass; i didnt know how to open the GATE! hahah! so loser. HUMPY or whichever dog was mad barking; goodness! HAHA. so we cabbed down to town. wenta TAKA; then LUCKY PLAZA; lol. something FUNNY happened on the way to LUCKY PLAZA & AT LUCKY PLAZA. MUAHAHHAHA!

wenta LIDO; met MANDY who was madly high; then PAUL came and we wenta watch THE HOUSE OF WAX; overall a STUPID SHOW waste my precious monehh only. booo. GERARD & BAO JUN were in the same cinema as us; next to us. LOLL.

after the movie, we took a bus down to MERIDIEN had dinner and met KANE. blahhs then to CENTREPOINT; bummed around. JEREMY came and KANE & DP & I walked to PS; caught KINGDOM OF HEAVEN; i dont understand the show and its so motherfucking LONGG. omgg. cabbed home with them and yeahs.

*new pictures uploaded

grr. my mum's like so mother irritating lah i swear. everytime when im on the phone she'll keep pestering me who im on the line with blah blah. OMG. irritating.

conferenced with pei li & sara till late. im really excited for POLY

• (09/5) MONDAY- school orientation camp
• (10/5) TUESDAY- school orientation camp
• (11/5) WEDNESDAY- school orientation camp
• (12/5) THURSDAY- free
• (13/5) FRIDAY- free; i better club man.
• (14/5) SATURDAY- free
• (15/5) SUNDAY- last day of FREEDOM.
• (16/5) MONDAY- design school orientation
• (19/5) THURSDAY- recruitment drive @TP performance

im like so excited lah. haha. i have no idea what my plans are for today. BOOOHOOO.

&& my birthday is cominggg!!!! 08JUNE!

had cheerleading; im tired.

FLYYYYYY (:

towning tomorrow i guess.

lets make love and dance the night away

so i got ready and took a bus down to PEI LI's house. the weather's so motherfucking hot. i almost diedd. she cycled to the PRATA SHOP while i happily walked there. hurhur. i will lose weight. i will lose weight. ha!

so we both had lunchl; she's sucha PIG omgg. HAHHAHA! then after lunch, she cycled to POTONG PASIR's MACDONALDS while i happily walked AGAIN.

we played dai-dee; so much for her studying. i kept screaming like a mad dog at her to STUDYY but obvious of no use. PAUL came and instead of studying they did nothing. i continued my SCREAMS and they still ignored me. HURHUR. blah blah, SARA came. they were supposed STUDY but obviously all action ONLY. hurhur. then DEBBIE & ALEX came. played and blahh.

sent SARA to the MRT station, waited for PEI LI to come with her stupid bike and we walked to the bus stop. took a bus back i almost died of laughter man! DIONNE PHUA is SO MOTHERFUCKING ACTION; trying to compete with my super power bus ONLY! hahha!

&& i developed this damn pain headache. im dying PLUS my whole back's achingg. AHHH.

oh on the way to PEI LI's house i saw this:

"make ITE MACPHERSON your choice, dionne phua!" at ITE MACPHERSON! haha.

I didn't mean it

When I said I didn't love you, so

I should have held on tight

I never shoulda let you go

I didn't know nothing

I was stupid, I was foolish

I was lying to myself

I could not fathom that I would ever

Be without your love

Never imagined I'd be

Sitting here beside myself

Cause I didn't know you

Cause I didn't know me

But I thought I knew everything I never felt

The feeling that I'm feeling

Now that I don't hear your voice

Or have your touch and kiss your lips

Cause I don't have a choice

Oh, what I wouldn't give

To have you lying by my side

Right here, cause baby

(We belong together)

When you left I lost a part of me

It's still so hard to believe

Come back baby, please

Cause we belong together

Who else am I gon' lean on

When times get rough

Who's gonna talk to me on the phone

Till the sun comes up

Who's gonna take your place

There ain't nobody better

Oh, baby baby, we belong together

I can't sleep at night

When you are on my mind

Bobby Womack's on the radio

Saying to me

"If you think you're lonely now"

Wait a minute

This is too deep (too deep)

I gotta change the station

So I turn the dial

Trying to catch a break

And then I hear Babyface

"I only think of you"

And it's breaking my heart

I'm trying to keep it together

But I'm falling apart

I'm feeling all out of my element

I'm throwing things, crying

Trying to figure out

Where the hell I went wrong

The pain reflected in this song

It ain't even half of what

I'm feeling insideI need you

Need you back in my life, baby

im having one of the most sudden moodswings ever. i just feel so DOTS and DOTS. like SO VERY DOTTS. whatever *rolls eyes*

so my dad brought me to DAPH's house. passed her my notes, hopefully they'll come in handy :) slackedd and we went friendster surfing. i love you. then waited for her mum to return; her parents sent me to HEEREN and im so sorry PAUL for being so latee. so he went shopping, AGAIN then he left for gym and i went to FORUM; paid VON BITCH her money blah blah and wenta meet LE`EN at E-GAMES. he looks better burnt. HAHA ((: i think WOW's very graphicly graphical. the characters etc are so chim; woah. LOLL. watched him play; listened to nice songgs and i left to meet CHANEL & FERA; cabbed to TP; had CHEERLEADING. blah blah. i suck at cheerleading, like so baddd. hurhur. whatever rolls eyes.

bus-ed back and i became PMS QUEEN

there is no me with no you.

is she the reason?

the super farah's almost heree (:

I want a dude with the wickedest slam, I need a one, two, three hour man

I want a dude who will tie me to the fan, a thug that can handle his biz like a man

I want a dude with the wickedest slam, I need a one, two, three hour man

I want a dude who will do me in his van, a thug that can handle his biz like a man

had one of those very entertaining yet selfishly scary talks with PAUL & DP.

one minute we were laughing at floating boxers and the next, we're talking about the end of the world..

i need to get closer to God. ok this is so not me but i really need to be in touch etc. in almost every possible way available with my religion & God. hurrr.

it'll make me a much fufilled person rightt?? yess.

hurhur. cheerleading tomorrow.

i need to treasure what i have now. just the word DEATH alone can make my almost not there hair stand & make my tummy flipp. its freakky. hurhur.

hehs. and before that was talking to MATTHEW & LE`EN, it seems like they had a steamy day at sentosa todayy. heh.. and NOW i really wanna tan. HURHUR. saturday maybe?

&& we (dp, paul & i) were talking about going on vacations kinda thing. its so cool laah. i need my BANGKOK man! hahaha.

then i hear babyface...

roars. MATTHEW's at sentosa! i wanna go i wanna go but i cant cos im sleep & tired + ive got no mood to like TAN. maybe ill go there one of these days alone.

my sister's walking around like some pornstar now, freaky.

reggae makes me happy. i was singing like a motherfucking cow on the phone last night. woah i provide such free entertainment i ought to get paid. HAHHAA and ill be a millionaire almost overnight. HAHHA.

we belong together (: & ive got a really cute picture in my phone. HAHHAHA. showed my mum & my mum's like "whos that cute little girl?" and she DIED when i told her it was scrawny turtle. HAHA

editted: new layout *nose bleed*

from the moment i met you i just knew you'd be mine

you touched my hand and i knew that this was gonna be our time

i don't ever wanna lose this feeling

i don't wanna spend a moment apart

you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do

that's why i'm by your side, and that's why i love you

every day that i'm here with you i know that it feels right

and i've just got to be near you every day and every night

and you know that we belong together

it just had to be you and me

that's why i love you ;

hin nickson here. wan to try on mi???mi 175/66/6in. strong hard cock. hope to hv a great time w u. let mi shoe u how gd r my tongue ,finger n cock! add mi in n we chat more.

do i fucking look like a motherfucking pornstar to you? NO.

worked. sold a set today. haha. great wonderful achievement. i cut my hair, now ive got fringe :) i lovee. haha. after work, took the bloody smelly bus to potong pasir met DP, MELI, DEBBIE & PAUL. blahed then took bus back with DEBBIE. roars.

when you left I lost a part of me