so i took a motherly long bus ride to harbour front
and met rach and scully there
and we went on a search for nip tapes! MUAHAHA
and we got a packet. damnn goood shiat! LOLS!

from harbour front, 3 of us took a cab down to tanjong beach
met rei, brad, ben & jackson there
then we decided to drop by palawan to get mats and then to siloso to tan
quite nice to tan and i suffered from bad heatstroke!!
kana sai!
first time in my entire life i blacked out lah! in the damn toilet and i fell down
MY GOD
its like fainting spell on myself ah! haha
and rach got damn scared HAHAHHA!
lingling, honghong sorry! haha

then we played in the waters! DAMN FUN! haha
and brad tried to kill me i swear!
he took my hand and made me swim to the deep deep part with him
MY GOD can die lah! its good enough i went into the waters but please!
no deep deep parts! hahaha my boobs shrank lah knn!

HAHHA. then got this obiang? couple thhen i kept whining
"kana sai why she got boyfriend i dont have!?" haha
and mad making fun of them lah! HAHHAAHH!!!

showered and the bathing part;s so fun!
totally jungle and refreshing kind. HAHAHAH so kinky!
after that all of us wenta harbour front & had subway!
after eating, wenta lido gardens and played
WHO, WHAT, HUH.
hahahaha black cat galore babehh
me and scully pro already hahahs!
oh then brad, scully and i were mad picture taking. DAMN SPAS our poses!
the kind that you see and wanna die of laughter kind HAHAH!!

after that wenta FEP, reign
took pics and stuff and jerry & tee was there!
so long never see tee lah. and i still remember we used to talk everynight
and our "welfare" shit. HAHAH damn funny
and the many nice memories we share. sho fun de worx.

left the rest, walked like a dog to paragon for some fashion show
mad making fun with my mum & sister lah
we went shopping at paragon too.
bought a top from A|X & CK :))

then dinnered at lau pa sat with my fatherr.
and told him i want my 18th burrrfday at MOMO.

jackson aka F.B just called and he;s forever out drinking
OH I SAW MR.B TODAYY!!!!!! *orgasms*

ben think he funny. FB & FC.
not funny. stupid horse.

dont know if i should go to josh;s house tomorrow.
abit weird to go ahs.
rahhhs. see how furrst. i ish needs to go do my colours
hahha and oh! my darling sean is like talking like us too! HAHHAHA.
damn funny! HAHAS

shall wait for rach & scully to send me pics.

imissyouuubigrice :)

off to tan soon!

imissyouALOT bigguy
i really am hoping we'd meet up soon

and you;
get the hint I AM NOT INTERESTED.
so fucking stop bugging me
and im not some/your SEX SLAVE.
my gordAz.

the only tape i depended my life boobs upon
had to finish.
GRRRR.
lets hope i find some tap on some trees or something.

a lot like love.
i miss you.

woah dam hard to get nipple tape ah!
hahaha

scully and i are like mad searching high and low for one
rach and i planned a (insert word here) clubbing day!
LOLS

im damn excited for tannig tomorroow
i better get a nicer tan man!
and i ♥ my morgan nipple bearing bra/bikini

if there is nothing missing in my life
then why do these tears come at night?

3weeeks; gone just like that
i still miss you like crazy
3weeks since i last hugged you; since i last touched you
i miss you crazy babeh :)

i want to pluck people
im hairless (for now)
and i have the badbad urge to pluck people's hair off.
will you be my "pluck doll?"

i wanna go pishing. wonder if seanu went ahead.
tomorrow's tanning. yay.

fri- tanning & reigning
sat- maybe josh's house & maybe hotel stay
sun- work at raffles town club

decided not to club this week.
all dowan to club, say club next week.
kana sai. i want to clubbb.

woah called Apple Centre just now
my ipod's shipment got delayed
therefore i cant get my ipod back till next week
ive been so lonely without it lah!
my shuffle's of no use now cos its my thumdrive
my ipod's somewhere in outer space
SO LONELLLY!
no musikk to accompany me through lonely nights.
CHEYYY action only.

mr.b asked me to call him.
i somehow find myself now avoiding him.
which is good and bad at the same time.
guess, for now, there's only one person?

be my bad boy be my man
be my weekend lover but dont be my friend
OKAY TECHNO SIAO DE WORX.

voulez-vous coucher avec moi?

omg rachel and scully're freaking me out

rach:
FB lah FB lah.

seconds later..

rach:
i think you and ben quite suit

scully:
no i think you and sean better


my god.
NO I ONLY WANT him
and no its not MR.B

OMG THEY ARE CRAZY
hahahha but its damn funny pairing people up.
hahahahahhahaahaha.

this entry's a joke.

all these talk about bloggers getting suspended/jailed due to racism and student-teacher conflict's freaking me out

ive always thought
hey this is my blog
i write what i want to write
and if you dont like what im writing
kindly get lost.

freedom of speech is definitely lacking here.
i suppose one has to face consequences of what one has opinions of/for.
which i think is highly unfair.
everything's so controlled. its scary

oh wells. i shall just be careful of what i write about
maybe even the very mention of a crazy taxi driver could be like
against the law?

okay bye. im going to read up more about this whole issue
and my daily dose of hollywood bitchings.
:))
shall upload pics soon.

scully's dad picked me up
and her dad sent us to brad's house
we wenta video-ezy got oourselves dBds.

caught AMERICAN HISTORY X & half of SISTERS?
then kim, min & rach came
afterwhile we wenta chomp chomp to eat
ben, ke & sean came to join us

dinnerr and mad eating
we went to the park to play
super fun but the place's full of blood hungry mosquitoes.
rahhhs.

afterawhile went back to brad's house
then rach and i left close to 11.

i need to go my colors now.
daniel li has already started on his.
sucha good boy.
OKAY BYE im gg to do it now.

ben thinks he's damn funny
FC & FB. slap himmmmm.

Pretty baby don't you leave me
I have been saving smiles for you
pretty baby why can't you see
you're the one that I belong to
I'll be the embrace that keeps you warm
for you're the sun that breaks the storm
I'll be alright and I'll sleep sound
as long as you keep comin' around, oh pretty baby

goiing out soon.
to bradu's to have sex.
hahahhaa
kidding lah
and jackson thought its for real.
HAHAHHAHA. monkey

shit its going to rain
haban is calling out por me

imissyou

happy birthday claraaa!!
&& woah so many things to attend to
hotel stay lah
josh's house lah
collect ipod
clubbing dateS
drinking dateS
knn. think i superwoman ah. siao

youre and will always be my love story.
ive been thinking of youuu.
heybigguy, i miss you

so my dad sent me to the place sean was at
bloody place so uluu pandan and dark and scary!
he was there with 2 other male friends.
the only punani there. LOLS.

then we walked in pitch darkness to the other side of the river
KNN
motherfucking scary lah the place.
i took a rock/stone just incase some motherfucker dog just appear
and sean said he heard dog howling/moaning/groaning whatever in the bushes
KNN. scared the cheebai outta me lah the place
jaahhaa

after being sian-ed we cabbed to hougang mall and had motherfucking grossfood at the foodcourt.
hahahahahhaahhahahahhaha.
totally made me lose my appetite lah!
haha then i cabbed back
i dont like idiotic cab drivers.
asked him "uncle, $5 enough to go jln tenaga?"
"no no need at least $8"
then i callled my maid ask her bring money down
reach my house
KNN!
exactly $5 lah!
bluff me number 1!

ok bye. i need to sleep.
imissyou likecrazy
dinner-ing tomorrow
and i better get my ass started on smelly colour supp.no

woah KNN.
got alot of parties coming up de worx.
(YUCKS WHATS WITH MY LINGO)

dip it loww
I… cant get out of bed today
Or get you off my mind
I just cant seem to find a way
To leave the love behind

I aint tripping
Im just missing you
You know what Im saying
You know what I mean

Every now and then when Im all alone
Id be wishing that you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back but you never do
I feel like such a fool
Theres nothing I can do
Im such a fool for you

I cant take it
What am I waiting for?
Im still breaking
I miss you even more
And I cant fake it
The way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I cant stop thinking of you
Its true, Im stuck on you

Now loves a broken record thats been
Skipping in my head
I keep singing yesterday
Why we have to play these games we play

It's from the heart..
It's from the heart right here.. (yeah)
Everybody has a story to tell..
Check this out though

I knew this chinese dude in Junior High
part of my crew, everybody knew the kid
he was the talk of the school, intelligent
and well spoken, respected by teachers
all the other students kept their eyes on his sneakers
What can I say? You can tell he's cool if you talk with him
during fire drills girls would wanna walk with him
he could have any chick up in his view
but there was only one girl he wanted to call boo
See its all true, found himself stressed in a dead end
the girl he was feelin was obsessed with his bestfriend
his bestfriends a playa, thats the reason he's pissed
plus he treat her like she don't even exist
he ain't tryna hate on his man, but there was no help in it
wrote the girl a letter told her how he felt in it
she was shocked at first of him revealing the truth
till she realized that she was feelin him too

Ohhh..
I've been thinking of you
Ohhh..
I've been thinking of you
Ohhh..
I've been thinking of you
Ohhh..
I've been thinking of you
and you've been thinkin of me
Ohhh..

Uh
So you know as time goes by
Things get a little bit serious
Just listen

It was strictly hip hop, now they bumpin slow jams all day
went from holding hands, to makin out in the hallway
Their relationship, seemed like a dream come true
as time went by their friendship grew
staring at the stars, trading secrets on the phone
when her parents were at work, she would sneak him in her room
he told her he was a virgin the day that they met
so on his birthday he got a gift he'll never forget
females were jealous, but they still calling him cute
first day of summer school, they rocked the matching nautica suits
happy in each others arms, can it be
they found true love, living in a fantasy
then reality attacks, his pops couldn't see past the fact
his son was asian, but his girlfriend was black
imagine having to choose between the one that you love or your fam
thats like cutting off your right or left hand, damn

Uh huh, yeah

I know this sounds like a true story
coulda happened to any one of us
it's crazy though right?

Now if this sounds like a true story
that's probably cause it is
and I know for a fact cause I'm that chinese kid
mm, lookin back now, I know its more than just a crush
I'm sayin the whole expierience taught me so much
love can overcome anything that gets in its way
thats reason I still think of shorty 'til this day
we talk now and then, she's doin her thing
we both full grown up, I think she rockin a ring
I know she's proud of me and all the things I've accomplished
She was there when I was nobody, that's being honest
Ain't no shame, I'll admit it she was there when I cried
So in return I wipe the tears from her eyes
As far as my pops, he's a little more open minded
If his son is happy, hes 100% behind it
Now this is a song I know I had to do
Cause all the stuff I went through might have happened to you
Ohhh..

Uh, yeah

Everybody remembers their first love
You only get one
So you gotta remember
yeah
uh
I just want you to know
that Jin's still thinkin about you

sometimes its really the little things that make me smile,
reminiscing about the past and old times and how happy i was (not saying that im not happy now)

i could be happier.
i could
but i feel somethings stopping me from happiness.
i dont know what it is
the happy exterior doesnt always portray the insecure interior of onself
the fear of being vulnerable?
the fear of rejection?
the fear of being slammed bang wammped back in the face?
the fear of letting everything go?

its scary to think about everything NOW.
like past few days and stuff.
everything's been at its best
havent had time to think about whats been going on
whats my next move
whats on my mind
who's my priority
what i should do next

and just last night
while watching Nip/Tuck
i started to think,
is this what i really want?
to just wait for something not even here and shut something possible out?
its like, hell yeah i want to move on
hell yeah, i am
unfortunately there's that BUT.
but if i do, will you still be mine?
but if i do, will there ever be a chance for us again?

its like moving on yet standing still.
ironic but yeah, its happening.
i dont wanna think of me using someone else to forget about you
i dont
because
1) i dont wanna forget you
2) he never can and never will

so confusing.
i dont know what im doing.
i want you back yet i dont.
i want us back but i know its impossible.
i want to move on but i always fall back

everytime i try to fall i fall without my wings i feeel so small
i guess i need you baby.

ok note to oneself;
FUG OFF.
& get ready for fishing you bitch

i want to faint and die now!


HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

-runs away hides face-

woah my left arm damn crammmpp!

colours is NOT fun doing.
i will try NOT to give up hope on MkDes.

FUGG i dont like this haha

when will you get the picture??
that
youre the best of my future

here's my promise made tonight
you can count on me for life
cause that's when I love you
when nothing you do can change my mind
the more I learn the more I love
the more my heart can't get enough
that's when I love you
when I love you
no matter what


eh i got pimple HOWWW!!!!

the whirlwind of everything good and bad

so wenta school super mother early to collect my supp paper briefs.
mkDes & colours
sean's a monkey, never answer my calls and still want me to wake him up!
so wenta collect it with tim
saw that fella after so longg. we slacked in the studio,
nehneh then came.
then they all left me alone in the cold cold studio and i waited for rach and sean to come.
did nothing lah, so much for wanting to chiong work! HAHHAA

we ended up taking a bus down to town.
had lunch at subway fep
hahahaha interesting people lah. i loike.
then we all wenta popular orchard cos i needed to get folder
sean then left to meet his gf and rach & i went mad shopping!
and today i spent a total of $188.75 and i feel like dyingg.
money no more anddd my shoulder's madd aching!!! carried so much stuffs around.
pengz.

from wisma to taka
to john little to ps.
good shopping day minus the heavyload we had to drag around

imreallyhopingtoseeyousoon.
mr.bisnotgoingandwillneverreplaceyou.never.
imissyoucrazybigguy.ihopeyoudotoobutitsimpossible.

i wanna revamp my room NOW
i need paints! and new furnitures! RAHHS.

if loving you is wrong, i dont wanna be right

you dont know how much you mean to me
whenever youre down you know that you can lean on me
no matter the situation
boy imma hold you down.

missesbigguyplenty still

doubt things are ever and will be the same

pushing away happiness for something not there
like ive said
id rather have bad times with you
than good times with anyone else.

6.05 messages
and mad toilet visits in the middle of the night
im damn tired.

anyone wanna watch movie with meeee?

3 months of having you in my life and i still am hoping for a forever.

went grocery shopping at mustafa.
quite kewwll.
bought many many many sinful indulgences.
hersheys and more hersheys!
marshmallow chocolate mix and whatnots i loike.

mr.b's so cute. cant stand it.
apologizing to me when i told him not to have too much fun cos im not with him
lols.
and obviously probably drunk now or something.
wanted to go look for mr.b but i was dressed quite chapalang-ly.
so unglam.

sayang called. havent heard from her for so longg!
called to ask if i was clubbing
ben chew called to ask if i was clubbing
mr.b asked me to club
ehh pls, im dead tired.

my bro & i were thinking of being idiots
calling macdonald's up to order curry sauce and straws and one 50cents ice-cream
HAHAHA.

grandpa's side will be coming over tomorrow for lunchh
cos its his birthdayy.
and at the family function yest/just now.
my bro and i were being total morons!
disturbing and insulting grosss people. MUAHAHHAA.
cant help it if we dont like them.

wonder if mr.b's dead drunk now.
we're going to get high and whatshits together soon. quite exciting.
meowrs.

okay bye i shall go eat some shit now.

he can never replace you.
i still missyou bigguy. its been too long. too long since i touched you. too long since i had you as my other half.
he will never replace you. never.
you'll always be my fav. one.

It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I've been needin you
Wantin you
Wonderin if you're the same and
Who's been with you
Is your heart still mine?
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you

yes

i miss those crappy days too :)

every where i go
every smile i see
i know you are there
smiling back at me

i can see your star shining down on me

so i took a bus down to parkway
wenta meet scully
then sean and brad came

we went mad BBQ shopping at giant.
hahahhas.
quite funn.
after that got myself yummy yoghurt ice-cream
and sean's friend came to pick us up in his car

drove to the pit
mad fun! sabo-ing people with funny food.
cooking this cooking that.
sean's a meaner with a small weiner!
he..
1) continously tried attacking me with watergun, oil, hotdogs etc.
2) instead of helping me up, he pushed me and i laid like a helpless maid on the sand (and got many many sand stuck up my arse)
3) always bully me when playing WHO WHAT WHERE.

funnest part was when absolut vodka came.
mad mix of oreo, onion, coke, satay sauce & vodka for our dear driver, sean's friend
and the rest had mad shots of vodka, pure.

rach and i were the deadest. my god.
then they sent us back.

no no drinkingg.
yest was mad drinking and tonight also.
went there with slight hangover and now im dead dead.

heybabyimissyoucrazy.

oh new pics uploadedd!! hehs. more more pics! from momo and today's bbQ!
and sean;s a meanerr. he called me laughed to me on the phone HAHA I NEVER FAIL ANYTHING.
dangz! i was so confident he would lah ahhaha!

farah chew failed 2subs
mkDes & colours

please applaud now.
how come nvr fail typo? HHAA
that lesbo action i had with phecky must have worked. HAHAHA


leaving house soon
mr.b better comeeee!
okay bye
lovelove

bloody whore.
want to play attitude games with me.
fine i play with you
-huge smile-

my god. try harder with your english hunz
its freaking me out

nvm nvm was feeling foul thanks to some slutt
but now im goood
happy as a cat.

big guy,
i miss you still.

BBQ-ing laterr.

gotta buy food. fell asleep waiting for sean to call me.
and thhat monkey only msged/called at 6plus. MORON! haha

and i dont know if im gg over to josh's house laterr.
meowrs. weirdweirdweird.
too many thingos to do and peoplos to meets.

meowrs.
my head's kinda lagging.

mrbmrb

so rach came over to my house
and we mad got ready for momo
fake boobs need expensive bras. LOLS.

hehs. so funn.
we then took a bus down to town and walked around
ohh i loveee the bday present we got for zach esp, the bday card :))

had lunch/dinner at pepper lunch, taka.
damn noob lah the both of us. lolls.

then wenta fep. went to darius shopp.
mad talking about f.bs & prostitution etc.
super funnneh.
killed time there

then brad & scully picked us up in a mercs cabb. so glamm.
then we headed down to CLUB MOMO
presented zach with his "goodie bag" & bun. FUCKING GROSS LAH THE BUN.
fruit bun with brad's pubic hair & veet hair removal cream inside and zach got a bite. HAHAH!
GRROOOSSSS!!!

couldnt get in at first so rach and i damn smart; we had some sneakkky plan. haha
no id needed; told you farah chew's goood!
plus 2 free drinks. we;re good. too good. hahah

misterrr was there :))
saw many many many people.
yummmy daddyy & the rest.
so hot and damn motherfucking crowdeddd my godd.
i left at about 245, my dad picked me up. haha
and he was like
"how come you come here? do you know my friend owns this club?"
"is it?"
"yaa and did you have to pay to go in?"
"yea.. 15bucks. inclusive 1drink"
"you should have told me i could have asked my friend to bring you in, next time you go with your friends tell me"
"ya okay anything"

crazy. sometimes i tink my dad secretly goes clubbinig and knows the whole world.
nvm. use his money use his money. HAHA
and while walking back i ws trying hard to walk properly
and i couldnt even find the button to the lift lah. my gorDaz.
4 bourbon cokes & many many sips of other drinks. haha.
2 free; the rest given. not barddd.

hellos im miss b :))
LALALALALALALALA.

am waiting for my dear seanu to call me. stupid boy.
he secretly jerks off at my pilipino aksent. I KNOW. haha

another tiring day tomorrow/later.
and results day on saturdayy.
MEOWRS.

p.s//
note to oneself.
never club in clevoyager zara dress ALONE with no bottoms on.
it is very very dangerous
3

We belong together
When you left
I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please
We belong together

Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
Baby nobody else
We belong together

I only think of you
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart
I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things
Crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
Ain't even half of what
I'm feeling inside
I need you
Need you back in my life baby

oh baby, we belong togetherr.

oh hi biatch

new piktures uploaded.

YAY. i ish lovingg :))

Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away

so today, rach came over to my hse bus stop and we took a super long bus ride to town
tried to sell some stuffs off but i could only get like 2bucks outtavit. FORGEDDIT MAN!
then we went shoppinng at john little :)
afterwhich, we wenta pre-rouge and got ourselves an interview!
most prob am working there soon. yipppee!!

after that mad bumping into people like
clara chaiwoman & my cousin christine
had old chang kee for lunchie
wenta reign. jere never come! slap him! haha

oh before that we were horny little bitches
grins.
drrrty little secret.

then we wenta taka and all and went mad shopping.
i got myself
PRINCESS TAMTAM & MORGAN lingeries!
i am is so happpyy.

spentt. grins. a total of like $340 todaye.
hahahahhaha
yummmy. we busted $600 in total. HAHAH.

then slacked at spinelli. hahahaha and had dirrrty little secret talk.
damn funnny!
then she decided to come over to my house
so we took a smelly ride back in 65 to my house
and went mad clothes trying

damn excited. haha
dadddehh matthew love is goinng ! finally, a pamily reunion!

mattitude. patron saint of pimps.aint gon do nuthin' but spin some Gs. says:
father daughter going to do some BANG BANG !

i cant wait foor tomorrow. hotguys please.

he was like;
and what do i get for squeezing your chest?

and all i did was a
hahahhahaa.

avoidance. awkwardness. and whatever reasons.
definitely in my books can be solved.

there's always a second chance at everything. i believe in that

job interview soon. meowrs. wish me luckies.
i need money

i wanna sell off stuffs but i dont know how to go about doing it
jere better remember my specs!

missesyoucrazy & i bloodyhell mean it.

i need to get hair removal cream.

momo tomorrow. please do come?
PLEASE? PLEASE?

and tonight starlight's showing SHUTTER.
i wanna go watch itt.
planning for the future may or may not kill you

heard from luke the newsroom party yest was alright.
meowrs. thank gordAz didnt go.

eh i just found another ENTER key! hahaha next to my spacebar.
my god farah youre an idiot
and brad thinks im becoming a bimbo
not not near the definitiion of one

fasting starts next week.
means no more clubbing and going out as often
sighs.

imiss you. do you miss me as much as i miss you?
my god farah fug off seriously.
youre an idiot.

oh lax are killing me.
shitting 24/7 lahh.
oh man i need sleep

plannns for the rest of the week:

weds- shoppe :)
thurs- min & rach coming over + momo
fri- BBQ?
sat- im not sure + results day
sun- im not sure

mon- go to sch to collect brief if ive failed anything
tues-fri- having fun in school making sweetlove with the dogs doing work UNLESS i passed all subs
if i passed all.
then itd be tanning, shopping, ice-skating and many more shit

i wanna watch
SEX DRIVE, THE RED SHOE, LORDS OF DOGTOWN? and whatever shitass movies thats coming up
be a bitch and date me out you whoree! haha

i farkkking need monehh.
farah needs money, please like, gimme some money. id do anything (i think)

omg, i bet thats not even your boyfriend lah!
hahahhaa dillusional. my goRdaz.

to the most beautiful;

all i wanna do
is grow old with you
&
it would be so nice
growin' old with you


missesyoulikecrazy.

anyone with any print shop places to recommend me
and please dont recommend me CHIKO (okay whatever the spelling is)
one ass smacking with ruler experience & touching of cheek's enough to scar me for life!

i wanna print words on plain white tee.
cheapo cheapo kindd.
i wantt. i was thinking of going to BKK to get them done.
so fun to print shirts.

"I WANT YOUR BOYFRIEND"
shall be my next sentence
hahahhaa. READ BETWEEN THE LINES
grins.
haha omg farah, youre a bitch
oh shuts ups! haha

okay so todayy.
i wenta meet rachu at bedok interchange
and we got ourselves lunch & mosquito coils
then we wenta meet kimu & scullu
and we took a mad bus ride down to punggol

super mad class excursion
everything was so super super foreign!!
including the bus interchange and stuff
and its so WOODLANDS CHEKCPOINT
we felt very "eastern-ers"
amazed at every single shit/building there
HAHAHAH!

then went mad 1 dollar shop shopping
then wenta meet reiu & bradu & jacksonu at the foodcourt
we then headed to take a cab down to PUNGGOL END
damn ulu pandan. and i was in the cab with scullu and bradu
i was like
imagine sudden the natives appear from no where and go.. "SURRENDER YOUR NIPS!"
haha okay inside joke.
by the way, NIPS are damn nice. ask me for some ive got alot
and dont worry its not some dirttyy thingyy. its real FOOD! i never bluff you!

when to punggol end and like woah its really like THE BEACHH!
minus the fish smell and all lah but the sand is damnn WHOOOHOOO!!
ill just make love with the sand anytime la.. HAHAH!
had some photoshoot thingy, reiu & jacksonu. they really epitomized the meaning of
SEAN CODY.
damn funnny!
the place was real nice, the sun was majorly hawt and like the sand's so nice
but it STANKKK like so badddd. GRRRZ!
quite fun actually

we then took refuge under motors and all while waiting for the bus to "open"
nice hair flying experience and what shits.
:)) but we all stank soo soo badd.. smelly fish!

we then went to hougang mall.
omg that place is too foreign to us all lah seriously.
so we wenta meet benu and we took a train down to city hall
at city hall met zachu & gabrielu.
ate and whatever shit

then we walked to THE PADANG for
STARLIGHT CINEMA.!!! *orgasms*
it was like only 2$ entry cos today's frreee entry but youve gotta make some donation for the cancer foundatioon or something and it was only 2$! quite worth itt
we sat on mats and all with mosquito coils repelling smelly garlic-scared mosquitoes (okay another inside joke) away
we caught MADAGASCAR. quite cute lahh! but the ending's abit not funnehh.
dunch understand at all. rahhs!

haha so after the movie, zachu thinks he;s some superman and
tried to jump over the dustbin. failed miserably lah but it was too funny!
walked to all over and like benu and forgot who did something damn mean lah!
and we so called saw a guy proposing to his girlfriend.. DAMN SWEEET but some people had to spoil it. HAHA!
slacked around and wenta BOAT QUAY MACS.
mad laughing session provided for us free by the 3 boys and benu's random comments. HAHA!
then cabbed back with the girls.

had a yummmy day.
and todaay i feel alright
i think im getting better
and i think LALALALALALA.

tomorrow shall be better. i hope.
make me smile baby.
i dont tink ill be selling newsroom? depends if my buyers can confirm with me everything by noon tomorrow
and then i will decide to sell ernotts. haha

but MOMO heree i commeee.
ok i feel damn hypeurrrr.

i loike the pics we took just now. totally groovy.

omg please, I AM NOT A DATING AGENCY!
stop asking me, eh intro this girl leh intro that girl leh
give me that girl number leh.. this that this that
OMG. PLEASE AHHH!!! go fug yourselfff with your mother lah! DAMN GROSS!

missesyoucrazy.

if youre keeping me warm each and every night
ill be alright
because i need you in my lifee.

last night i decided to write a letter to my mum
to cheer her up
and while looking for paper i saw a letter
a letter i was supposed to pass to you on our second month

hey babeh i still miss you.
its really cold now and itd be almost perfect to have you here with me
to keep me warm with your hugs and everything else
im missing you
take care, im hoping to see you soon
prob. starlight tonight? or dinner or something.
i miss you big guy.

i will burn

every single fuckofyous down.

punggol/sengkang tomorrow.
and i thought it was offshore.

die lah die lah.
worth-LESS.

why do you even bother farah chew?

i sat opposite you
helpess,
with a mooncake in one hand, and a lantern in the other

you sat there crying
i wanted to reach out to you
but inside im crying to

mummy sorry i cant help
you because i cant even start to help myself to begin with

you sat there in a daze
hoping someone'd just make things right
i sat there too, next to you in a daze
hoping someone'd just make things right..
for the both of us

mummy, i wanna be there for you
i will always be there for you
but now, i have to settle myself first.
im sorry. please know you'll always be in my heart and thoughts
i know youre going through alot
you can still talk to me but i cant promise you ill be of much help

hey, i miss you
while lanterning, i wrote your name with the candle wax
my sister saw it and was like "jiejie, is that daniel?"

while lanterning, you stood at the side
watching us.
how i wish i could have someone watch over you like you watch over us

you thought me to give things second chances
you thought me to forgive and forget
you thought me to love unconditionally even if the other party doesnt feel the same way
now i know what youve/re going through.
now i know the sacrifices youve made
the love youve shown
the many second chances youve given.
mummy, for love, ill do that too.

the love of my life. i miss you.

after so many days and hours apart

i still cry myself to sleep

i still cry when i think of you

im too scared to look at my phone's picture gallery
im too scared to listen to songs because i fear itd be some song youve shared/sent/sang to me before
im too scared to go to places we've been together because i was once there with you
im too scared to go to my picture gallery and upload pictures because im afraid id see your picture
im too scared to turn to the first page in the black book whenever i write to you because it has our picture
im too scared to turn to other pages in the black book because it has all our pictures
im too scared to open my drawer because inside it has our bintan pictures
im too scared to wear the new bras we "gott" from ck tangs because you got them with me
im too scared to face tomorrow because i cant live today
im too scared to go out because what if i see you with another girl (im hoping this will never happen)
im too scared to plan for tomorrow because i had so much planned for our tomorrow
im too scared to eat because food reminds me of you and how id always give you my leftovers
im too scared to sleep because ive always wanted to watch you sleep next to me
im too scared to sleep because you;d always tell me "i want to be your bolster"
im too scared to sleep because you were supposed to sleep over at my place the night everything happened
im too scared to think about newsroom because you were the first person i told about the party and about the strawberry condoms
im too scared to step into tampines because i dont know. everything there reminds me of you
im too scared to think about everything

im too scared to this that this that but i keep thinking
because i miss you. i want to relive those times we shared i want to live many more nights/days with you

i miss you. please make me smile once again.
please reply me. i miss youuu. i really do.

today i went to clarke quay
the last time i was there, i was with you

after clarke quay
i went to arab str
and the last time i was there, i was with you

after which i went to bugis
and the last time i was there, i was with you

im waiting for that message from you.
am i not worth 5cents even?
is it so hard to reply me?

i miss you daniel, i really do.
after 1week+ i still hope things will change for the better
just make me smile one last time

im dying to talk to you
im dying to see your face
im dying to touch you

everything's been so so wrong.
what happened to "ill be there for you, these 5words i swear to you"?
i need you here with me more than anything
everything with my family's been going so so wrong.
the least you can do now is telling me, things will be alright and you'd always be there for me like you promised.

you(s);
seriously stop fighting. ive had enough
i have my own freaking problem now and i dont need my own fucking parents to fucking fight all the time
i hardly even see you people because both of you are always hardly hope
esp you papa
and when youre home you fight, argue etc.
im tired please give me a break

where are you when i need you the most?
we were destined to shine together. why did you have to leave me alone?
just tell me you'll always be here for me.
i need you more than anything now, ever.

i should just go get myself bitten with those aedes? mosquitoes

and die.
seriously.


i feel like dying.
REALLLY REALLY DIE NOW.


whole night. wait. and wait and wait and wait. not worth anything.

ok pardon me for the sudden outburst.
i just wanted to see/hear from youuuu. my god.

its so so hard for me.
i keep trying and tryingg.
i really miss you alot.
please make the upcoming week better please.

i was really looking forward to watching starlight with you
just one starlight night with the group?
plus i still have your mooncake. i got it specially for you.

so good night,
i need sleep ive been sleeping less than 7hrs daily and i need sleep
i need sleep i need alot of things (esp. you)

please please i beg you,
make tomorrow better for me.

make me smile


just one last time


i miss youu.

i dont like it when my sister cries
it breaks my little chi-lay heart.

some bugger.. dropped bottles on the floor in cheers
and my sister was being the good samaritan and helped him picked his dropped bottles up
and he dropped more on her hand
and walked away without a SORRY or a THANK YOU

then my sister's hand started to sweell like a cow
the other girl working there applied plaster and poured cold water on her hand
and she kept crying.

i hate it when my sister gets hurt.

so she wanted to go home cos she said her hand was hurting
so i took a cab back with her
she didnt even get to play her lanterns
and i didnt even get to see you
and she asked me if you'll come to count ninja turtles with her.

i bought mrs field's mooncake and i wanted to give them to you.
come by my house to get them?
they're really yummy and i got 2pieces for you.

whatever.bye.
oh get well soon rei.


oh by the way, visit my new site

www.lemoonparty.org :)

i never could imagine, life without you

so baby, lets have
one last kiss
one last touch
one last tender moment between us
one last dance

iloveyou and miss you dearly.

did you receive the letters i wrote to you but did not send?
i miss you baby.

you dont know how much you mean to me
whenever youre down you know that you can lean on me
whatever the situation, boy im gonna hold you downn.



i miss you a hell lot.
i really do.
absence makes the heart grow fonder.

im really hoping to see you tomorrow/soon.
everytime i hope to have you call me
everytime i hope to have you message me on what youre doing etc.
everytime i hope to see you online
everytime i hope you'd come by my house
everytime i hope all these is not real
everytime i hope you'd come back to me
everytime i hope id get to hear your voice
everytime i hope to hug you
everytime i hope all this never happened
everytime i hope to watch you sleep
everytime i hope you'd call or message me "i miss you"
everytime i hope we'd still have our talks on the phone
everytime i hope we'd be together now making plans for tomorrow
everytime i hope to see your face when i wake up
everytime i hope you'd call to wanna meet me

everytime i hope, you'd come back to me and id have you back in my life and forever.

i really miss you baby.

Sitting, waiting, wanting you to call
If you dont, I wont blame you at all
I just hope you do
Cuz Im still in love with you

I need you now
More than ever
Cuz right now
Im hurt more than ever

As I lay in bed awake
Thinking of myself as a mistake
I hear your voice
Telling me everything will be okay

I hope we'll be together again someday
I think about you all the time
Theres no way
I could ever get you off my mind


How can three words be so powerful
How can true love be so painful
How can I live without you
How can you live without me

You told me you loved me
I told you the same
At first I didnt believe you
I didnt know if it was just a game

After awhile
our love was known
It was almost impossible
to get us off the phone

You and me were inseparable
Where did we go wrong
What happened to us
What happened to our trust

I still love you
Just like I did before
But where are you now
Now that I need you

everything means nothing
if i aint got you.

im having a slight fever
and my eyes are mad swollen
and ive got bad cough

my little baby just asked me this morn
"when is papa coming to play with me?"

please tell him i miss him
please tell him i very much do.

its the push pull thingy.
everymorn i wake up hoping to receive a msg frm you

gettin my ipod fixed today.
i wanna go play lanterns tomorrow.

so today, the girls came over to my house bus-stop
and we took 55 to bradu's house.

interesting walk to his house
rach and her cafe blah blah.

went to his house and he was like jjust woke up kind.
his house is damn nice lah! super cool house.

then we left for the supermarket.
bought stuffs went back and cooked!
the pasta was super yummy but they didnt eat it!
monkeys. total waste of food.
rachu's fries turned out to be like biscuits. damn gross
pic whoring at the dining table and scullu with her pumpkin soup and my chubbby self. gross.

after clearing and stuff
seanu came over and we caught the guru
so much for dBd marathon, we only caught 1 movie.
nice show. "your pussy's the window to your soul"

after which we went to the playground to play.
i got killed by seanu and bradu while playing swing
mad climbing up the spider web
and before that we were mad taking pics with the ugly mask
seanuu look's damn funny it in. haha.

after all the crapping around, went to chompchomp
to meet reiuu and benuu. had stingray, kangkong etc.
mad huge glass of grass jelly drink
seanuu was mad suaning rachuu. everyone was.
she's damn poor thing haha.
they kept going on "bread same as bun?" and stuff
fucking funny.

then we walked back to the park and scared people and stuff
and had some talk.
i love the people :)
esp seanu who thinks my head's so nice to stroke
rei was seriously ill.

everyone's falling ill!
the dengue scare's scaring me
i grew myself 7 mosquito bites alone today

my ipod's a motherfucking whore.
am gg apple centre tomorrow.

lanterning on satuday.
do come.

one week since everything happened.
misses the company a hell lot.

dBd marathon at bradley's
im hoping no matter how late, you'd still be able to come.
friends hang out together right?

starlight most prob next week.
do come too.

my only means of communcation and getting everything across;
my blog.

i miss you.

To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold, Utopian dream.
You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said,
"I miss you"?
I see your picture,
I smell your skin on
The empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days,
But already I'm wasting away.
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care,
And I miss you.

today was quite retarded.

met braduu, scullu, seanuuu & timmuu
at bedok interchange and we took a bus down to siglap
and met rachuuu.

we had yummy food at killiney!
and mad talks.
eg: rachuu's cousin and seanuu's hair flings.
*snorts*

then we went to video ezy to rent dBds
and we took trillions of dBds and narrowed it down to
Napoleon Dynamite, The Witches & The Guru.
haha. damn fun to look thru dBds.

then we went to siglap's bus stop
waited for like a million yrs for 14 to come under the hot sun
mad talking all the way. super funny.

braduu, sculluu, seanuu, rachuu and i alighted at
roxy and we walked to parkway
and on the way walking
mad maid accenting. super motherly funny.
the guys left for god-knows-where and 3 of us went to parkway
really mad idled and slack and maid talks etc.
sat at macafe and we planned on what to do for the next few weeks till school starts.
kinda excited.. esp for tomorrooow!

we talked about serious stuffs and also about lameass random shits.
loved the company lah! haha.
mad conferencing tonight, everynight.
left with rachuu and took 15 then 21 back.
loves rachuuu :)

tomorrow, we're going over to braduu's house for
dBd marathon.
seanuu better come becasue the dBds we chose, alot of them he removed them cos he thinks he's damn cool.
monkey. haha

im kinda excited for the many plans we planned.
playboy mansion themed party & ij uniform being turn-ons.

its been too long and im lost without you
what am i gonna doo..
wondering if you're the same and who's been with you
is your heart still mine
i miss youuu.
haha ok stupid song bahh.

i need a job!!
banquet's like.. not stable kind. only when got function then can work.
me need monehhh!!!!
most prob am gg to job-hunt soon.

you basturrd *in sculluu's voice*
fucking funny.

i was reading "the art of undressing" i came upon something very very true
"you wanna know why men cheat?"
"because women are all obsessed with how they feel. they always want to analyze it, and talk about it. men dont want to talk about feelings, okay?"
"theyre sick of hearing about how you feel, and they dont want to hear about what you got at the mall that day either"
"talk about your shopping and feelings to all your girlfriends okay. NOT HIM."
"he just wants your pussy. that;s right. thats what he's interested in. unless he's gay. and whether he's gay or not, all he wants is someone to suck on his dick. that... right there...is the secret to men, ladies! its simple!"

HAHAHAHA. prove this thing wrong. really.
hahahhaa. so so right.

all these maid talk's making me laugh the cheebai outta me.

fucking funny i wanna die.

so far,
rach, brad, scully, rei got new names.
i gave daniel a new name too?

so fun.
we're meeting for lunch tomorrow
and the maids suggested we go petrol kiosk to smell petrol
since all 3 of us loike the smell. haha
and we like made up this shit
about..
snififng curry instead of glue. DAMN FUNNY!

and we're gg to have a DBD marathon (haha DBD!)
and maid photoshoot or something on thursday.
sounds like fun.

i had popiah with dog's cum
and the other day i found dog's balls in my curry i thought they were potatoes!

ive been having problems with my teeth
i need to go back to Mount.E soon
think something went wrong with the stiches or something

i need to go back for my CT scan. its due.
fucking pain.
its been bleeding.


i feel better now.

my little baby's been crying.
she's sick and she's been crying.
my heart breaks even further when she cries.

oh wells,
i tried to make things work.
ill let go. i am letting go.
ill let go but still hope for that one chance to happen

let go
note: not move on
but still keep you dear

its so hard for me to even type this
its gonna be harder to put it to action
but i will. i must.
im tired. i cant go on like this.

would probably take me weeks, months to forget
but i will.
ill take baby steps in letting go.
i shall be thankful we shared what we did.
i shall be thankful i once had you.
i shall be thankful.

humans are always greedy
they always want more
im one good example

ill slowly, baby steps, let go.
but in me letting go, it wont mean i wont stop loving you

the following describes how i feel.
i love you

we were as one babe
for a moment in time
and it seemed everlasting
that you would always be mine
now you want to be free
so I'm letting you fly
cause i know in my heart babe
our love will never die
no

you'll always be a part of me
i'm a part of you indefinitely
boy don't you know you can't escape me
ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
and we'll linger on and on
time can't erase a feeling this strong
no way you're never gonna shake me
ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

i ain't gonna cry no
and i won't beg you to stay
if you're determined to leave boy
i will not stand in your way
but inevitably you'll be back again
cause ya know in your heart babe
our love will never end no

i know that you'll be back boy
when your days and your nights get a little bit coldee
i know that,you'll be right back, baby
oh baby believe me it's only a matter of time
of timeeee

you and i will always be
no way your never gonna shake me
no way your ever gonna shake me
you and i will always be
no matta what you do baby

new pics uploaded.
&&& OMG! im sorry for the damn hugge picss. i dont know how to resize them using this comp! HAHA.

ive grown myself a swollen eye
(yet again)

loveyou.

we once had each other,

now all we have left are the memories.



just one last shot at everything.

Wherever you are tonight
I'll see you in my dreams
Wherever I go tomorrow
You'll be here next to me

And though we are a world apart
I know you'll never be that far

'Cause here in my heart
There's a picture of us
Together forever
Unfaded and unbroken
Wherever you are
Your love covers me
Forever more you'll be
Here in my heart

Whenever I miss you so much
It's more than I can bear
I won't cry, I'll just close my eyes
And know you'll be there

Your kiss and your touch
I'll never forget
'Cause you're as close
As my very next breath

my god. the APPLE centre helpdesk guy is so motherfucking irritating.
he talks in the stupid funny accent and i had to make him repeat so many times!
gahhhs!

oh wells.
so yest, rachbabe came to pick me up in the rain in a cab.
my lovely sister sent me down. so cute.
so we cabbed down to FAR EAST
we had lunch, at the level 5 food area.
then we went down to REIGN to accompany darius.
he was throwing cards at us, quite pain! and we played bluff.
quite lame.

then jerry came.
we mad camera whored the whole time at the shop. meowrs.
after which, rach & i decided to walk around town to kill time.
both of us got ice-creams at 2 diff places and both suckedass. ugh.
my pistachio ice-cream tasted like durian
and her blizzard? from dairy queen tasted like.. expired chocolate.

waited for people to come.
rei then came and we, rach, rei & i was supposed to go to arab str or smthng but
the rain was super motherly horrible, like got typhoon siahs.
so we got stuck in far east, had some mini talk downstairs
before deciding to go to KFC to eat.
we ate while waiting for alex & gabriel.
then went to level5 food place to meet ben & joshua.
they ate. blah blah.

then brad & scully came.
they too decided to eat so those who has eaten went to the other FAR EAST to play dotA first
to kill time.
so brad, scully, rach & i had to walk all the way to the other far east to meet them.
they played dotA for so long.
then we then cabbed down to COCCO LATTE.

the crowd wasnt as good.
cocco's always so hottt!
and cheeko people were all over!!
yucks. i shall not ugh what happened. ugh. gross.
i wasnt really feeling too good.
i was tired from everything thats been happening.
i was physically drained yet i was determined to make the most of last night.
drank quite abit. meowrs.
left when cocco was about to close
then cabbed back withh elie, rach, scully.
got home close to 330.

and i thought after clubbing, id be able to sleep but no.
farah went back to wreck-mode. rahhs.

if i was your girlfriend,
i'd be there for you if somebody hurts you, even if that somebody was me,
sometimes i trip on how happy we could be.
and so I put this on my life,
nobody or nothing will ever come between us.
and i promise i'll give my life, my love and my trust if you was my boyfriend..

i put this on my life,
the air that i breathe in, all that i believe in.
i promise i'll give my life, my love and my trust if you was my boyfirend


imissyou
will not give up hope.
you were the one who once gave me hope on the future.
im not going to let that go.
id rather have bad times with you then good times with anyone else.

mind your own damn business.

party starter.
hey i love you :)

i cant and will not let go of this.

i will continue having hope.
being hopefully.

no one deserves you &
loves you more than i do

even if i do seem selfish,
i will do anything to work things out with you.

i will never give up hope on us.
and until the day i do, i love you.


;;
its raining. rach's gg to pick me up in a cab
i look like a wreck.
eyebags like teabags
darkeyerings like roads
you hear thunder? thats god calling you to go to haban.

editted///

i cant stop these tears from flowing
i cant stop myself from feeling so motherfuckingly CHEATED

i let love in and this is what i gett.
seriously i feel so motherfuckingly cheated
ill do anything to make you feel like FUCK.
ill do anything to make you go through the SHIT IVE BEEN FUCKING GOING THROUGH.
angry i am, very much indeed but then again,
i wont resort to measures so low just as yet.
you still mean the world to me
and im still hoping and waiting for the best

im ANGRY. so damn fucking ANGRY.


oh my mum threw away those roses you gave me.
i wanted to thank her for it but then again inside me
i was so angry she did.
which one am i supposed to feeel?
be thankfully angry?
go fug yourself.


sleep was horrible.
tried to get as much sleep as i could
and it was just so so horrible.


calls after calls and message after message for the past few nights asking me how i was etc.
much love to the care & concern shown
if only YOU fucking cared

am gg to meet wati later.


imissyou

when night falls,


thats when i try to cry myself to sleep
thats when reality starts to slowly kill me


im so tired.
of falling in love.
and out of it.

and i thought you'd be the one and only.

im sorry i put so much hope in you
in us
in our future.

im sorry.
i love you. good night love.

it doesnt mean a thing anymore i think.

"the most beautiful girl in the world"

i found my heart in pieces when
i looked at the ground.

my god this is harder than i thought.

tell that someone that you love, just what youre thinking of
if tomorrow never comes
i love you


For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through, through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm greatful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
The light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

did you know


until now


i dare not turn my phone
and look at the back cover

i know i cant go on like this

why am i being the way i am

im dying here.

its hard for me to keep up a front for my family
for my sister especially

she jus asked me when you'll be coming over
she has been asking me that since friday.
and until now i havent answered her

dont you freaking know how much you freaking mean to me?
people tell me i dont deserve someone like you
i chose not to believe them.

i feel so helpless i cant do anything to salvage this relationship
i feel so helpess because you said nothing went wrong.. and when i asked you why then we had to end.
you left me there.

i feel so helpess because whenever i ask you if there is still hope left for us
you just leave me to find answers on my own.

leaving me to find the answer to that qn clearly shows you no longer want me in your life
youve completely shut me out of everything

please tell me im wrong
please tell me you still do love and care for me.

i really miss you daniel i do.
stop making things to hard for me.
i miss you

editted//

all im asking for is just
one more chance.

one more chance,
to make things right
to have you back in my life even as a friend
to talk things out
to see you
to work issues and problems out with you.

i just want that one chance.

its killing me knowing youre no longer part of my life
its killing me that you dont respond
its just killing me because everything reminds me of you

yes it was a short 2months+ that we shared
evenso, it was something i was willing to commit for the long run
evenso, it was something i would do anything to have a forever with
evenso, it was something i would not do anything to make things go wrong
evenso, it was something i can never share with anyone, ever.

all i want is just one more chance,
to talk things out with you.
and hopefully even start anew with you
(there seem to be no hope left but im still hopeful)
even if i cant have you as my other half, at least i want you as a friend

and whatever wrongs you may or may not have done,
its because i love you and i very much still do,
i am willing to forgive and forget
as long as i have that one last chance to start everything anew with you

youve put me in a position where
i have to answer my qns myself
i have to go days sleepless
i have to constantly feel rejected
i have to let bygones be bygones
but for you,
i am willing to go through all that

just to have you back in my life
to have one more chance with you

filza even asked me on friday when you will be coming over.
i havent answered her since.

you see,
she adores you
and i love you.

is giving us, me one more chance so hard?
after all that weve shared.
is that so hard?

id do anything, to have you back with me
to have what we once had back
im willing to do anything

i want a daniel forever.
i do.
we will make things right
i want us to.

i love you and i will always do.
i never want the chapter weve had die.
i dont want us to be gone.

just tell me there's still hope.
just anything, no matter how tiny that little hope is.
just tell me there is a chance left for us.
just dont shut me and completely leave me here, hanging on this bit of hope which is so vague and uncertain
i need your certainty.
i need your assurance
i need just anything from you to give me that hope that we can try to work things out.

im hoping.
dont kill me.

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes
And you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

maybe it was all a lie.
you decide.
im flat out dead


goood times seems to far, its never returning.

ill blog back when there's something to blog about

you'll never ever find a girl
who loves you more than me

i gotta shake it off
cause the loving ain't the same
and you keep on playing games
like you know I'm here to stay
i really gotta get up outta here
and go somewhere
find somebody who
appreciates all the love I give

until then,
i love you and will always do.

day was expected to turn out shitt.
after the fuckass shit that happened last night.
but it amazingly didnt xcept for a few minor bleahs.

talked on the phone till super late last night.
yOOo mother so fat that when she told me her weight, i thought it was her telephone number.
oh fuck.
didnt manage to sleep well last night. i hope ill be able to sleep tonight.

anyways, so "grandpa" msged me early in the morn
and being the nice granddotter that i am, i got ready and took a bus down to tampines to meet him.
then we decided to eat at SWENSONS; i had the yummy fish pasta thingy and rei had some ice-cream thingy.
we mad fooled around with the camera and stuff and we talked about issues.
meeeoowws. then ben came. we talked and all while waiting for rachel to come.
we were supposed to go to downtown to book the chalet but we decided on cancelling the chalet in the end
and maybe we're gg to do something else.
rahhhs. so after rachel came, we went to the interchange and took 69 to school.
and we left rei behind lah. hahaha super funnny and we saw some funny childish couple (god i dread that word now) in the bus and rach and i were like imitating them.. funny!

got of at school, i was drowning in my own prespiration. very hot.
waited for rachel to hand in her assignment then the 4 of us took a cab down to FAR EAST sponsored by kind ben.
we were like talking about sex and cheebais? in the cab. quite funneh
wenta REIGN (feels weird; i always call it darius shop). went to some dono what shop upstairs where rei got his jeans modified and i wanted to get this super nice top damn cheappp buttt... my boobs couldnt get in. what rubbish.

oh and rach, rei & i were like on a mission:
to spot "ah lians" or "turn off people" and last count was like 22+ and it was all within half and hour. haha.
okay so ben and rach had lunch at NANA THAI (10% discount ?) haha

then went back to reign. jerrryy was there!! haha.
oh i dont know why i had a twizer in my bag so deareast jerry was being a sport and he allowed me to pluck his eyebrows! haha
it looks nicer now. and darius got hooked on plucking his eyebrows too. damn funny. haha

they had like some mini clubbing session or some sort at the store. played the songs in my ipod till the batt died
jerry and i ordered food from nana thai and they sent it down. after eating we had a nice talk about stuffs.
i felt better after talking to him. and everyone else for that matter.

stayed in darius shop till closing. was supposed to meet peili but for obvious reasons cannot.
walked back to the tangs area with darius & jerry.
chinablack was calling out for meee.. it was it wass..
farah shall not go out in slippers on fris, sats. very not convenient.
i then took a cab back.

im lost. i really am.
i loved you so fucking much. im not willing to let you go.
call me desperate whatever but really, you meant alot to me.
i wanna work things out with you with whatever way possible.
i want us back.
what're you doing to me?
i still love you.
im not willing to give you up just as yet.
i want my forever with you. i dono already lah.

ive become the person i once hated.
ive become peili and peili's becoming me.
helpess to what is to become of our future
i suppose i have no say;
either way, i love you and will always do.

everything we had was beautiful. i love you

how nice; the first song i hear when i log onto my itunes.

When you love someone so deeply
They become your life
It's easy to succumb to overwhelming fears
inside
Blindly I imagined I could
Keep you under glass
Now I understand to hold you
I must open up my hands
And watch you rise

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

I have learned that beauty
Has to flourish in the light
Wild horses run unbridled
Or their spirit dies
You have given me the courage
To be all that I can
And I truly feel your heart will
Lead you back to me when you're
Ready to land

Spread your wings and prepare to fly
For you have become a butterfly
Fly abandonedly into the sun
If you should return to me
We truly were meant to be
So spread your wings and fly
Butterfly

I can't pretend these tears
Aren't over flowing steadily
I can't prevent this hurt from
Almost overtaking me
But I will stand and say goodbye
For you'll never be mine
Until you know the way
it feels to fly

illusion that i have in my heart?
dj mangooo's my companion

1. Tell me one thing you love about me.

2. Tell me two things you love about yourself. This one I'm particularly interested in, so make it good. I mean it. No self-deprecation allowed!

3. Look through my comments ~ when you see someone you know, tell them three things you love about them.

4. Do this in your journal so I can tell you what I love about YOU.

someone; please suck the living phlegm out of me!!
(yucks gross!)

i want the new IPOD NANO(sp?)
its an ipod mini only slimmer; as thin as a pencil.

how motherfuckingly cool!
rahhs!

ok so i found a job,
$6/hr for weekdays
$7/hr for weekends
together with rach & maybe brad
at Raffles Town Club.
they better call us down soon! i need monehh!

plus i havent been doing much shopping lately.
i feel deprived.
someone, be my sugardaddyy pleaseee???
III NEEEDDD MOONNEEEHHH!!!!

SUGARDADDDYY ME ISH WANTINGS YOU!

I gotta shake it off
Cause the loving ain't the same
And you keep on playing games
Like you know I'm here to stay
I gotta shake, shake it off
Just like the Calgon commercial
I really gotta get up outta here
And go somewhere
I gotta shake it off
Gotta make that move
Find somebody who
Appreciates all the love I give
Boy I gotta shake, shake it off
Gotta do what's best for me
Baby and that means I gotta
Shake you off

like youuu :))

i feel better but still sickly.
rahhhs.

make farah happy!
i miss youuu !

my whole internet connection's lagging.
i need to change the connection. rahhs!
28.8 modem? my god! so nonsense.

i wanna go to bugis.
i wanna go outt.
so many parties coming up. haha
i feel so _?
i wanna print a new shirtt! so excited.
i cant wait for so many things.
i especially cant wait to see lord daniel. rahhhs

iloveyou
everything at standstill

new parties update!_

oh note to oneself; avoid black bean paste bun at all cost.
rahhs. haha


1)
PLAY
cocco latte, 12 sept (monday)
r&b all night long
2hrs of 1-for-1 promo & shooters $40 per shaker
presale tix: $14 guys , $12 girls (includes 1 free drink)
contact:
daniel (93898495)

2)
lifestyle bash & cleo magazine; action against aids
newsroom bar, 20 sept (tuesday)
dress up to kill; live video streaming all night long
r&b all night long
free strawberry condoms for guys
presale tix: $16 (includes 1 free drink)
contact:
zach (98552826)

3)
TABOO
indochine (Wisma), 14 october(friday)
r&b all night long
presale tix: $18(1 free drink)
at door: $22 at door(1 free drink)
contact:
Medhi ( 96699320 )
Kenneth ( 94881285 )
YongKai ( 96641889 )

4)
PARTY REVELATION
club momo, 22 sept (thursday)
min. age 18 (id compulsory)
r&b all night long
1-for-1 all night long
presale tix: $14 (includes 1 drink)
contact:
lynette (98567948)

so today,
i wenta tampines to meet rachel & bradley
and on the bus on the way to tampines
teo sok woon aka moss my sec sch social studies teacher happened to sit infront of me
and i pretended not to recognize her and i got reminded of the "falling" incident she had in class last year
damn super funny. i msged issac and told her about it and she was like "bastard ex social studies student" haha!

so wenta tamp, met those monkeyys
then we took a cab down to aloha loyang
so funn & nice the place okays!! got pool etc.
then bradley had some random fooze-ball? crap so we went to the arcade and played a round (2balls) of fooze-ball.
DAMN LAME siah! and the thingy was super rusty! haha

after aloha, we walked back to costa sands and we've decided to have the thingy at costa sands instead!
got a great deal :D
and on the way, we were like mad laughing and stuff. hhahaha. bitchhy people!!

then we were like so random, we wanted to like go to ESCAPE cos got nothing to do but in the end we decided not to because no monehhh & rachel was wearing a skirt. haha
wasted. bradley came up with a stupid idea for our chalet thingy. 20 people puke?? HAHA

after downtown (*sings* everyone's waiting for youuu) hahah.
we took a bus down to the interchange and took a 518 down to town.
wenta darius's shop. had lunch there and stuff.
ouhh i made a shirtt out of pure randomness and it says
"OLD ENGLISH PUSS; farah" and i swear the guy in the shop's mother pervert
he touched rach & i okay!
and darius was mad disturbing the guy kinda thing. HAHAHHA.
i cant stand ittt. lolls.

stayed around there for quite some time
before i wenta meet peili, paul, john & baojun
at lucky plaza.
peili had our fav. chicken rice! hahaha buut i didnt eat anything cos i ate before meeting em

then after eating, we wenta scotts.
paul's a monkeyy! he took my ATM receipt awayy! haha

then after them, i wenta meet bradley, rei, alex & vernon at the slackable 7-11 at far east
was there for quite some time
interesting talk with alex & vernon
rei so cute lah, he was like falling asleep etc. hahah!!

left at about 10plus and took a bus back.
swear my throat's dying.
and i tink im running a fever. rahhhs!

i need to book the chalet by tomorrow.
meows. so exciting

boy i know that i want to feeel your body tonight

omg im finally able to update.

i feel like crap now.
thanks rachh for trying to cheer me up.

You and danieL have smooth sailing ahead.
Okay -- picture the two of you on a tightrope, high in the air, each on your own sparkly silver unicycle. Oh, and you're both juggling china teacups. And kittens. But hey, your spangled outfits look terrific. And the conversation you're having is scintillating. The crowd, far below, oohs and ahhs at your amazing balancing act. You're redefining multitasking together, seamlessly integrating all the disparate pieces flying around you -- and you're enjoying the heck out of each other all the while.

sounds familiar? tightrope?

my lappy's finder is kinda screwed up.
hoping to be able to meet up with rei, brad & rach tomorrow.
rahhs.
when does super-peak period end?
so nonsense.

perfect catch just now.
nice show.

I've been thinking and here's what I've come to conclude
Sometimes the distance is more than two people can use

yay! i just got myself a new laptop!
powerbook g4 :))
&& a new silver ipod.

ho nasty ahh
now ive got to transfer files from my other comp in here. rahhhs!

editt//
i feel so noob i dont know anything
i dont know how to use this damn comp properly
hahahhaa someone help me!
haha and thanks rachel for teaching me how to use this damned machine
eh the "kepboard" very nice to type.
lalalalalla
hahahhahaha.
my ipod's like mad deprived of songs. hahahha only 150+ songs
so noob
farah you suck.

haha as you can see im just typing crap because the keyboard very nice to type
lalalala
and.. lalala
hellos i am damn bo liao

eh not bad i feel good today haha.
the power of "apple shopping"

ok farah fug off.

When I'm with you,
eternity is a step away,
my love continues to grow,
with each passing day.

This treasure of love,
I cherish within my soul,
how much I love you,
you'll never really know.

You bring a joy to my heart,
I've never felt before,
with each touch of your heart,
I love you more and more.

Whenever we say goodbye,
whenever we part,
know I hold you dearly,
deep inside my heart.

So these seven words,
I pray you hold true,
"Forever and Always,
I will Love You."

yesterday was fun fun fun! :))
met daniel boiboi (HAhA!) on the train and we headed for city hall
and in the train, there was this boy spasm-ing as he slept.
DAMN FUNNY!
we got down at city hall, and initially we planned to catch PERFECT CATCH
but we couldnt make it on time due to the human congestion at the bridge thingy
so we smartly like tried to be smartasses walked to another side and got lost in
D P Architects? HAHA! damn funny cos there were like so many people following the "wannabe smartass crowd" and all ended kena jack. DAMN FUNNY!

so the both of us had dinner at marina loft's foodcourt or something like that
after eating, we walked for like 7489789746 hours just to find a damned ATM machine.
they should have those miracle machines every where man!
ended at raffles city then we had to wait for another 978978646 yrs for a damned cab to come so
we wenta raffles hotel? or something like that lah to get a cab.

headed to ARAB STR.
the people came.
rachel, bradley, scully, gabriel, alex, bryan, jane & co & rei & co.
super alot of peole, had sheesha with everyone else minus jane & co and some of rei's friends.
so fun! but i dont like sheesha. so weird.
stayed there till like 3plus
then we headed to MARINA SQ. for LAN-ing.
stayed there till like 6-7plus in the morn
then the danielboiboi & i took a cab back to tamp. and we had breakfast!
omg, he's so fucking lamee!
we had like some "tight rope?" competition on those funny funny things on the floor
and ice-shooting wars. lame!
haha and omggg! on the way back
i wanted to like drop dead and die lah!
he was talking cock, making up a fucking stupid but motherfuckingly lame st.hilda's poem
DAMN FUNNNYYY!!!
hahahahhaha omggg damn funny! hahahhaa.
then he waited for my cab and yeppps!

got home slept till 5plus and rahhs
im hoping to be able to get my laptop tomorrow!
rahhs

daniel is love :)

haha seriously,
i might just as well quit school and become a full-time defence lawyer.
MUAHAHA.
but why why didnt law accept me WHY.
haha!

i feel so proud of myself.
*pats self on the back*

im super sleeppy.
when to school just now
submitted my oogly box then idled around with bradley
then we took the same bus back and he dropped of at my house bus stop
waited for his 25/55 to come then yeaps i left for home.

arab street later. yummmAy.
rachel told me there're nice stuffs to buy there
YAY.

(names mentioned are not in order)
1. daniel
2. vanessa
3. daphne
4. mandy
5. bradley
6. sean
7. joyce
8. kane
9. paul
10. norris
11. pei li
12. patricia
13. timothy
14. kolin
15. matthew
16. jane
17. ingrid
18. marisa
19. rei
20. adrian

-How did you meet 13?:
* temasekk design school's lounge's crazy people.

-What would you do if you never met 5?:
* i wouldnt know something. HAHA

-What do you honestly think of 10?:
* oh norris's my boss :)

-Have you ever liked no.3?:
* i love her !

-If 1 died tomorrow, what is one thing that you
would like to do?:
* die with him

-Would 2 and 11 make a good couple?:
* HAHA NO!

-Do you think 12 is hot?:
* YES!!!!!!!!!! without a doubt

-Would 1 and 17 make a lovely couple?:
* NO! daniel's MINE. muahaha

-Tell me something about 11:
* jellyman. and im the peanutbutterman.

-Do you know any of 3's family members?:
* yeppp!

-On a scale of 1-10 how cute is 14?:
* haha 4? i dont know haha cute & kolin dont go.

-What would you do if 4 just professed their
undying love for you:
* hahaha mandy's straighttt. never will happen!

-What language does 19 speak?:
* indian? HAHAHAH! the usuals

-Who is 8 going out with?:
* i have no idea. KANE WHO!!!

-Would 18 and 5 make a good couple?:
* hah NO! both're happily attached!

-When was the last time you talked to 6?:
* about an hour ago. HAHAHAHHA!

-What is 18's favorite band?
* disney songs! hahaha

-Does 4 have any siblings?:
* yeah. if im not wrong sister(s)

-Would you ever date 1?:
* i AM dating 1

-Would you ever date 7?:
* depends. HAHA

-Is 15 single?:
* i think so. hmmmmm. i shall ask dad!

-what is 19s last name?:
* chee?

-What is 3's middle name?:
* daphne "is my babehh" wee

-What is 10's fantasy?:
* his ultimate fantasy's to watch me and drool while i type him his daily testimonials. HAHAHH!

-Would 14 and 19 make a good couple?:
* unless they're willing to sean-cody each other.

-What school does 16 go to?:
* temasek design school! :D

-What school does 1 go to?:
* temasek design school

-Where does 9 live?:
* chinatown!

-Would you make out with 13?:
* no! he's already dating america's next top model

-Are 5 and 6 best friends? :
* good buddies

-Is 20 older than you?:
* yes but mentality wise.. HMMMM.

-is 4 the sexiest bitch alive?:
* haha to her boyfriend i suppose. i know of an even sexier bitch around.

-is 17 your ex?
* NO! dont be crazy. eventho i know secretly ingrid adores my yellow undies

-do you ever see yourself with 12 and 18?
* hahhahaa. i dont know? i dont really get this question.

- how is 2 ?
* probably painting her box away. HAHA

trust;
back down to almost nil.

plans for tomorrow still not clear.
but im a lil excited tho.

ha, im norris's testimonial giver
(i find the tittle cute)
& im a mamasan to luke.
i cant stand it. damn funny lah!
school later at 6. was supposed go gym (haha go ahead, LAUGH)

stop pissing me off.
tolerence level MAX-ed out.
rahh's gotta learn to be nicer. haha.
some parts of yesterday was nice :D

are guys nowadays into only
money, cars & bikes?
i know adrian is.
and he better not be gay! haha

beware of farah!

You are 57.14% jealous!
For this test, the average jealousy percentage is 35.54%.
171895 people have taken this test to date.

This percentage means that :
-You exhibit many jealous traits.
-You are prone to over-react.
-Although your jealousy shouldn't prove to be a real problem, you should work on controlling it more.
-Things aren't often as bad as you think.

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